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✧ 𝟎𝟐𝟖. ❝don't leave me❞ ✧🦋
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Sophia had just woken up, so she took her phone, and turned it on. It was 6 p.m already. Today she'd stayed in bed for some extra hours. All of her friends including the triplets had tried to get her out of bed the first time she'd woken up. Clearly it didn't work.

Not even Chris begging to talk to her worked. She ignored him. She felt bad. She really did. But she was doing this for herself. Her distancing herself from him was a tough choice. But it was one that had to be made.

She got up from bed, walking to the bathroom. She got on her tip toes, looking at herself in the mirror. She was met with the worst version of herself. Her eyes swollen, and dark mascara lines running down her face. Her eyebags almost on her chin.

She'd cried the whole night. Mid the fuzzy memories of all the crying and yelling she remembered her friends, who were all sitting around her last night.

Sasha was combed her hair with her fingers while Sophia had her head on Sashas lap. Aurora was the one that had the tissues and kept cleaning her tears, as soon as they left her eyes. Nova was rubbing her legs to calm her down, while Madeleine was sitting next to Sasha and kept kissing Sophias forehead.

Her trail of thoughts was interrupted by someone opening the door. "Can I please come in" She heard the person ask. She stiffened at who it was. She'd recognized that voice anywhere.

When she didn't answer, she heard the door close again. She let her head fall, while she grabbed onto both sides of the sink. She let out a breath thinking that the person had left, but when she raised her head again, in the mirror she found Chris standing behind her.

She turned around, trying to keep her breathing controlled. She analyzed his face. He looked so sad. Sadder than she'd ever seen him. It made her heart wrench, because she knew that she was about to make it much worse. She walked around him, out of the bathroom, until she was standing next to her bed side table.

"You should go" She simply said without even daring to look back at his broken expression. He walked up to her putting his hand on her shoulder and turning her around to meet his look.

"No" Chris said while trying to hold eye contact. Sophia broke the eye contact, looking back at the floor.  A little sad laugh escaping her lips. "You're gonna make this so hard" She told him and at that sentence his heard started beating a whole lot faster.

Scared of what she might say, he decided to be the first one to speak "I meant what I said Sophia. I want this to happen, and I will support you with whatever. What do you want me to do?, tell me. I'll do it. Just please" He said while he walked closer, grabbing her cheeks with his hands. "Don't push me away" He whispered the last part of the sentence.

Sophias eyes started filling up with tears. "I'm so sorry Chris, there's nothing you can say that'll change my mind" She whispered back, her voice cracking after every word. She looked back at the floor, because looking at him was too much pain.

Chris school his head frantically. "No, no, please don't say that" Chris said, trying to meet her gaze. "Baby- please look at me" His voice broke too, as he tried his best to get her to look at him. But she was way too stubborn. He tried to meet ger gaze again.

When he finally caught it, he inched closer, pecking her lips, leaving a ever lasting sensation on her soft lips. Her eyes fluttered shut when his lips were on hers. "I want to be able to do this Soph, don't you?" He asked, his voice getting an octave higher, indicating that he was starting to really panick.

Sophia pulled the sleeve of her hoodie down and cleaned her lips. Trying to get rid of every reminder of Chris' lips on hers. Chris' heart broke when he watched her clean his kiss off.

"I do, but-" Sophia tried to explain the situation to him, because she thought that if she did he'd understand. Chris put his hand over her mouth. His eyes 0leading for her to never finsih that sentence. Tears were now starting to form in his eyes too.

"No buts, Soph, please I beg you. Don't do this to me" He said while grabbing her hands and kissing them. "I never want to lose these hands" He said while his hands started going up her arms to her face. "This gorgeous face of yours" He said while he rubbed his thumb over her lips, sliding his hands over to her hair. "This hair" He said while he pulled her closer. The tears were now evident, because they were streaming down his face.

He hugged her with all the strength he had in him. Hoping that this would be the solution, but she wasn't hugging him back at all. He pulled back, realizing that this was serious. "No, you can't do this" he whispered-yelled. "Did yesterday mean nothing to you" He said, and when he was met with nothing but silence he got frustrated.

"Answe me please! Did yesterday mean nothing to you? You have to be fucking with me rigth? Are you really willing to throw away whatever we could have because of some stupid hate comments." He argued with her. His words slashing through the silence. She looked at him in disbelief, shaking her head in disappointment.

"Some stupid hate comments?" She questioned again, while scoffing at his accusations. "You know what I meant" He answered, trying to reach for her. She walked around him, not letting him touch her.

He turned around looking at Sophia, who was pacing back and forth in the room. He could see her breathing starting to speed up. "Baby, calm down, you're going to have a panic attack if you keep going like this" He said warily, while extending his hands in front of him, acting with precaution.

He grabbed two fistfulls of hair. "Stupid fucking hate comments right?" She asked while tugging the hair, almost ripping it out. "Soph-" Chris tried to speak up and tell her to leave her hair alone, but she didn't give him a chance.

"These are not just some stupid hate comments. These millions of people, telling me to kill myself, because for them I'm not worth it!" She said while she pointed at herself. Tears streaming down her face and falling to the floor.

"I get i-"

She was trying very hard at regaining her composure, but failing miserably. "The- They keep bothering me and threatening me, all because I like you and want to be with you! Chris!. I'm not the problem to them. The only problem they see is that you like me back! Sophia was now yelling through the room. Her words getting cut off by her loud sobs.

"I don't care! I like you so much, I'm not gonna let them break us apa-" Chris wanted to say so many things, but he was stopped by the next words that left Sophias mouth. They left him speechless. For real this time.

"I can't be with you" She whispered so quietly, that he almost didn't catch it. She turned her back to him again. She hugged herself. "You don't mean that" Chris said desperately, while he tried to walk closer to her and touch her, feel her.

She shook her head. Her voice so small it seemed like she couldn't even really get herself to say it. But she did. And she was going to regret it. "I do. Go Chris" She said and his heart now wrenched at the sense deja vu he got.

Chris was crying now. His sobs loud and echoing all throughout the room, breaking her heart even more than it already was. Chris kept rubbing his eyes, trying to get the tears to stop falling.

His last shot was begging, so he got down in his knees.

Hearing the loud thud of Chris' knees hitting the floor, Sophia turned around, and her jaw fell on the floor at the sight infront of her. Chris was on his knees, arms hanging at his sides, but his eyes were glued to her.

"I literally beg you Sophia. I beg you, don't leave me" Chris told her, hoping that she'd change her mind before it was too late. He was doing this. He was begging her now to leave him.

And as hard as it might've been, she simply shook her head. Chris' gaze returned to the floor. He clutched his shirt, right where his heart was supposed to be, if it wasn't for the cact that Sophia'd just ripped it right out.

"No, no, no" He kept repeating, while he slowly got up, looking at the light that was lighting up the room, but in his eyes, even the light had dimmed after hearing those words coming from Sophia.

He started making his way to the door. "Chris" Sophia exclaimed, but Chris simply raised his hand, not daring to look back, because he knew that if he did, he'd go back. He couldn't. She'd made her decision clear.

He left the room, for the second time in the last two days, slamming the door behind him. Leaving a heartbroken Sophia standing there alone, arms around herself to get rid of the cold air that Chris had left in the room.

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sophiadavis hey guys, i'm going to be taking a break from social media, for reasons, most of you are probably already aware of. thank you so much for all the people who stay strong supporting me even in the middle of all of this. i love you all, i'll see u all later i guess. (thank you so much to @matthewsturniolo for this beautiful picture)

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nicolassturniolo i'll always he here to support you!
↳ sophiadavis i know. thank you, from the bottom of my heart
nicolassturniolo i love you so much
↳ sophiadavis i love you so much more

auroralweis fuck @influencersupdate
↳ sophiadavis 🤐🤐

sashaharrington ill stand with you til the day i die.
↳ sophiadavis i know. i love you for that🩷
↳ sashaharrington i love you🩷

novarodriguez ill always support you❤️❤️
↳ sophiadavis ❤️❤️

madeleinegarcia my precious girl
↳ sophiadavis youre mine

matthewsturniolo yw. my bestfriend <3
↳ sophiadavis you're mine.

christophersturniolo u can always count on me, no matter what.
↳ sophiadavis i know. thank you

@christophersturniolo

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christophersturniolo let's have a talk. let me tell you about this wonderful girl. her name's sophia, and she's the most talented person i've ever met and no one can convince me otherwise, so seeing all of what she's going through is unbearable to me. i do not stand for any of this. all i want is for her to be the happiest version of herself. so i just want you all to know that if you're one of those people who keeps pushing her down. i hate you. and i want you to think about your words and the consequences they could have, before you speak on it publicly.

for soph : you mean the world to me soph and i hope to be there with you to help you through all of this. i'll never leave you.❤️

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little filler chap.
next chap things are going to pick up again :)

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