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✧ 𝟎𝟐𝟑. ❝chat-astrophe crew❞ ✧🦋
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SOPHIAS POV

Stepping onto the stage for the third time since tour stared, the buzz in the air was palpable. This was no ordinary show; it was the big show in LA, my hometown. The enormity of the moment struck me hard, especially with my dearest friends—Aurora, Sasha, Madeleine, and Nova—right there in the crowd. We'd been planning this through texts to make sure that they had the best spot possible.

As the lights dimmed and the manager called my name, a surge of nerves mixed with excitement coursed through me. Gripping the microphone, I took a deep breath. The adrenaline rush was intense, making even the occasional hate seem worth it.

Walking out, I tried to exude confidence, waving at the crowd. To the left, my friends were a lively bunch—jumping, cheering, and capturing the moment on their phones. The genuine love and support from them were overwhelming.

Glancing further left, I locked eyes with Chris, my unwavering supporter. His smile spoke volumes, affirming that I was where I belonged.

Refocusing on the crowd, I shouted into the microphone, "How are we tonight, LA?" The response was a roar, and an uncontrollable smile spread across my face.

This was my dream and I was finally fullfilling it. And I couldn't feel any more thankful  toward that one man standing at the side of the stage cheering me on. I was so thankful for having Chris in my life. This was all happening because of him, and him only.

I walked back and forth on stage, while I tried to look at every single face in the crowd but there were so many people that I couldn't keep up.

I put the microphone closer to my lips. "Today, I'm going to be singing the song that started all of this. The song that got me to where I am now. Do you think you can all sing along to this?" I asked and I got a bunch of very loud yes' back.

I heard my song starting. "You think you're such a cool kid," the crowd joined in on the singing, creating a symphony of voices.

In the midst of the performance, I couldn't help but keep my eyes on Chris. He was dancing and mouthing the lyrics, fully immersed in the moment.

The lights, the crowd's energy and their voices echoed, making  it felt like a dream and making feel on top of the world. Gratitude overwhelmed me again.

I kept looking over at where Chris was standing, because I just couldn't look anywhere else. He was looking back at me with as much tension as I was looking at him. "We'll make plans and I won't show up. I won't listen I'll interrupt. When your birthday comes won't answer you cause" I sang and then turned the mic to the crowd and they all yelled "so what, so what!"

I was really having the time of my life, and everyone else seemed to be doing so too. The lights shining into me eyes made me feel like I was the only person in the world. And the burning feeling of someone looking at me just confirmed my feelings.

I looked over at Chris again, and time seemed to slow down, so slow that everything seemed to be  happening in slow motion. Still I could see him looking at me, and me only. and I felt like I was so damn lucky to have his attention, when it could've been on anybody else. My whole body tingled at the thought of him. My heart almost beating out of my mouth

The song finished, and Chris was the first one to clap. And somehow I was still only looking at him.

I smiled and he smiled back, we were holding such deep eye contact that I almost felt like I was freaking floating. I wanted this to be normal. Something we could do, while being with one another.

I jumped back into it, when the crowd cheered at the end of my performance. I broke eye contact with Chris, and I was about to get off the stage, when the manager came up and signaled for me to take my ear piece off. I did that, and he whispered something in my ear and to answer, I whispered something back. I grinned widely.

"So I just got told that I could sing a second song today, it's not going to be one of my songs though. Are you all okay with that?" I asked the crowd, and when I thought they wouldn't want me to sing anymore, they just cheered again.

I heard the music to the cars outside starting to  play. The crowd sang along, and in my mind, Chris lingered. "The car's outside but I don't want to go tonight".

I sang the lyrics and I realized that they hit a thousand times harder, because now I had Chris And seen as he was always on my mind I could actually relate to the song. Somewhere, deep inside, I wished to tell him how much I like him.

"The car's outside but I don't want to go tonight. I'm not getting in the Addison Lee, unless you pack your bags, you're coming with me." "I'm tired of loving from afar" I sang looking at him from afar and I couldn't wait anymore to be close to Chris, so I gathered all of my courage. Fuck it.

I ran over to him when the second part of the song ended. I extended my hand, waiting for him to put his in mine and ignore the world with me. "I want you there with me when I sing this" I whispered to him and his jaw fell open. He whispered back. "Are you sure. You knoe they're going to hate on you for this right?" He said and I simply nodded. I loved how he cared to ask if I was sure. Nonetheless I knew I needed Chris there by my side, because maybe then he could finally understand how I feel about him.

Seem as I was on the left corner, the crowd couldn't see us. He put his hand into mine and I started singing again. "Don't want to leave you anymore" We walked back onto the stage, hand in hand and I interlaced our fingers. I looked at him and everything felt like magic. "Oh darling all of the city lights, never shine as bright as your eyes. I would trade them all for a minute more, but the car's outside" I sang looking into his eyes, meaning every word.  I could see him singing the words to me too.

The whole audience just disappeared when I looked into his eyes "I'm tired of loving from afar, never being where you are" I hit the high note. Chris looking at me with the biggest eyes I'd ever seen. Still standing there hand in hand I ended the song "Don't want to leave you anymore" I sang and Chris didn't think twice before hugging me infront of everyone. Our bodies rocking side to side as the crowd roared.

He didn't say anything, wnd still the butterflies exploded in my heart and they made me feel like nothing could ever go wrong, as long as I was with Chris.

LATER

"WHERE'S MISS SOPHIA DAVIS" I heard a voice call out for me as hard stomps echoed all over the room and I immediately knew who it was because there was only one person in the whole world that had such an annoying voice.

I turned around, crossing my arms. "Madeleine. I see you made it" I said while we looked deep into each other eyes. Her eyes were almost completely closed with how much she was squinting them.

Then a wide smily broke off on her face and she ran up to me and threw herself into my arms. I hugged her tight. "I missed you so much" she whispered and I almost started tearing up.

Suddenly I felt a whole lot of other bodies around me. This was officialy a group hug now. "You were so great sophie" Aurora said while she pulled back.

They all got off me, and we sat down on the couch that we had in my dressing room. We started talking about everything that had been going on in our lifes. I'd missed talking to my friends so much.

They all looked between each other, and there was a weird silence before Nova decided to help me out by explaining why. "Sorry Soph, but we've just got to ask" she said and I nodded for her to go on.

"What was that little stunt you pulled? going with Chris on stage while holding hands?" she said a little louder and all the other girls screamed up in agreement to her.

I sat up. This was it. This was me finally speaking about my feelings. "I think I kind of have a crush on Chris" I started, and as soon as that sentence flew put of my mouth, they all started to interrupt me and ask me all kinds of questions.

"BUT" I yelled over all of the noise and now they were all quiet again. "I won't tell him. I don't want to make things weird and I definitely don't want to mess our friendship up over a little crush that's going to go away!" I exclaimed as I looked desperately at all of my friends.

Sasha seemed very skeptical, so I wasn't surprised when she was the first one to say something. "Liar" was all she said with a sly smile on her face. "You don't think we have eyes in our fucking head" she said as she pointed to her eyes. "because we do, and what I saw wasn't just a silly crush it was almost something as big as love" she added.

I froze in my spot. I wasn't in love with Chris. It was way to soon. "Okay, maybe it's not just a silly crush but I can guarantee you it's not love yet" I said while running my fingers through my hair nervously.

The girls were looking at me, smirking. I was confused so I asked "What?".

"Yet" Madeleine said. "You said yet, which means you know it's going to happen eventually" she said and I was actually speechless. I wanted to argue but instead I just obted for a distraction.

I shrugged my shoulders, rolling my eyes. "So what did you think of the show" I asked and they all excitedly spoke their opinions and everything felt just perfect.

We spoke for what felt like hours, until there was a knock on my door. "Come in" I yelled and as the door slowly opened, Chris' head peaked in. His eyes widened. "Sorry I didn't want to interrupt, I just needed to talk to you" He said, and I wanted to tell him to come back later, but all of my girls were already getting up to leave us alone.

Sasha and Aurora kept winking at me, while Madeleine and Nova giggled between each other. Chris entered the room, closing the door behind him.

I stood up to meet him in the middle. I clasped my arms together in front of me. "So.." I said and the room filled with an awkward silence. Chris was looking at me but he wasn't saying anything.

"Chris" I spoke up again. He always did this. Zone out when I was talking to him. It made me go crazy. He shook his head. "Sorry."

"So what did you want to talk to me about" I said while I smiled at him.

"I talked to Matt and Nick, and if you want to, your friends can come along on tour with us. The tour bus has enough bunks, and you know that we mostly sleep in hotel rooms anyway so what do you say?" He asked, and I was so happy that he actually considered this, which only proved that he knew me like the back of his hand. I jumped into his arms.

"I would love for my friends to come along. Thank you, thank you, thank you" I said as I kissed his cheek and from the corner of my eye I could see his face getting all flushed. He scratched the nape of his neck.

"Well that's good, because Matt's already talking to your girls outside" He said while pointing to the door behind him. And in that moment, I heard Sasha yell "NO WAY WE'RE COMING WITH" and I instinctively laughed.

Me and Chris went to the door, opening it a little as our heads peaked outside, just to see Matt and Sasha hugging. I felt Chris put his hand on my waist, and goosebumps erupted all over my body. I looked up to find him already looking at me.

Our faces barely inches away. "We can see you" Madeleine spoke up from the other side of the door, scaring me so much, that I opened the door completely, which caused me and Chris to fall on the floor.

I looked up at my friends all looking at me sprawled on the floor. I looked to the side and Chris was already looking at me like he always was.

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long ass chapter to compensate me not posting yesterday

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