you debated with yourself if this was the right thing to do and if it was pushing the limits. however, denki managed to convince you, saying that 'i mean if it does go wrong you won't see him in person'. you promised yourself you wouldn't do anything that would make him hate you even more.

your now clammy hands started to type in the username you grew used to seeing, triple checking you were right. tapping the box underneath, you started to type out his password.

kingexplosionmurderiscool123.

pressing the login button the loading sign stayed on screen for a few moments before presenting you to a new instagram feed. you were surprised it still worked.

immediately, you went onto your profile and unblocked yourself, as well as making him follow you again. you went back to his feed to see he had left many people on delivered, some for weeks. however, the first person was a familiar redhead profile. last replied 3 minutes ago.

it was a little risky but you decided to go for it. you felt guilty but your curiosity was overwhelming you far more, why he suddenly said those things and blocked you even though you didn't have your third strike from him yet. you decided to scroll to the start of the conversation which was surprisingly pretty long.

[5:50pm]

bgkatsqi
i need your help

therocknotoffical
ohohohoho 🤨🤨🤨
weren't you the same mf who said to iida "i'm not working or helping anyone. i'm a solo hero"

bgkatsqi
stfu that was a couple of weeks ago

therocknotoffical
IT WAS LITERALLY TODAY???

bgkatsqi
i just need help with emotions

therocknotoffical
😟
uhhh
sure

bgkatsqi
don't make this weird

therocknotoffical
i'm not making this weird 😏😏

bgkatsqi
nvm

therocknotoffical
ok suffer with your feelings or something 😕

bgkatsqi
this is really ducking embarrassing so don't start spreading shit around
*FUCKING

therocknotoffical
i wonttt
i've never told anyone your secrets in my life 🤞

bgkatsqi
this is so ducking cringe

therocknotoffical
i love ducks 🕺

bgkatsqi
basically i started feeling this like a week ago maybe earlier idk
i think i was denying what i felt for a while
i started getting excited when i saw a notification from her
and now i start to feel all sick because of them
like when i see their name i feel light

bgkatsqi
fucking hell this is so cringe and cliche but
i feel butterflies in my stomach
but i don't want to like them

therocknotoffical
WAIT
THIS IS ACC KINDA CUTE 😋😋
by any chance is this person y/n? 😏😏

therocknotoffical
or just leave me on seen 🤏
ok
well it sounds like you like them and i'm pretty sure you've accepted that but
why don't you want to like them?
they might like you back 😛

bgkatsqi
because if i like them then i feel weaker
and i'm not weak
they're weak

therocknotoffical
liking someone doesn't make you weak
INFACTTT
i think it makes you more manly and strong 😎

bgkatsqi
why

therocknotoffical
well because they help you feel grounded and you know you can keep fighting for them
and if they're in danger you'll do anything
and i think that's real manly
yk risking everything for them

bgkatsqi
you've been watching too many american films

therocknotoffical
OK LOOK THEY ARENT THAT BAD I CAN RECOMMEND A FEW SO YOU CAN CONFESS TO THEM LIKE THE MC DOES
i mean it always works for them so it might work for you too

bgkatsqi
that sounds like shit and it won't work for me
we would both laugh
but ig it's a little manly

therocknotoffical
okok when did you start liking them

bgkatsqi
idk
am i supposed to know that shit

therocknotoffical
well not the EXACT time but like roughly when

bgkatsqi
fuck let me think
it was never consistent my feelings
at first i think i liked the attention
but now i think i actually like her

bgkatsqi
when i first video called them
that's when i started to realize

therocknotoffical
interesting
well you and y/n are cute together so i mean it's fine

bgkatsqi
who the fuck said it was her

therocknotoffical
there's literally no other girl you actively interact with besides mina and y/n
and we all know you and mina don't like each other that way
soooo 😗🤏

bgkatsqi
😐
whatever i'm not confirming

therocknotoffical
OR DENYING 😍😍
but mina will be very happy that here otp is sailing

bgkatsqi
what
is that a new boat 😐

therocknotoffical
sort of 😏😏

bgkatsqi
you're giving shitty advice

therocknotoffical
WHAT NO IM NOT THE MOVIE IDEA IS CUTE
SHE MIGHT LIKE IT

bgkatsqi
no

therocknotoffical
ok fine 😕
uhmmm
idk maybe take her on a date where yk she'd enjoy

bgkatsqi
idk what she likes
plus i already fucked it up anyways

therocknotoffical
that's embarrassing 😧
how did you fuck up this time??

bgkatsqi
this time?
stfu i never fuck up that much
it was a one off occasion

therocknotoffical
i just know you most likely fucked up somewhere

bgkatsqi
i didn't stfu

therocknotoffical
ok 😒
then explain wtf happened in the gc

bgkatsqi
i got angry that i felt like that
i don't like this feeling
it's disgusting

therocknotoffical
oh...
well idk how to help with that
maybe see a doctor or something
but
i got some ideas
get some roses and in the rain confess your love

bgkatsqi
no

therocknotoffical
WHAT-

bgkatsqi
you have shit ideas
bye.

therocknotoffical
NO I DONT
YOU NEED TO BE MORE OPEN MINDED
damnnnnnnn
ON DELIVERED 😒😒

therocknotoffical
AT LEAST APOLOGISE TO HER

the conversation ended on an abrupt note. your heart was thumping loudly, too loudly for your liking. your face started to feel warm as your eyes widened at the 'confession'.

"fuck fuck fuck—" you muttered as you logged off the account and back onto your own and turning your phone off. grabbing the nearest pillow and squeezing it, trying to calm yourself down.

too many thoughts raced through your head, a few being:

"fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck"
"he likes me? is this good or bad-"
"i should probably never text him again"

you heard the low ding of a new notification, slowly peeling yourself from the pillow and looking at the notification from the person you would preferably not like to talk to.

[6:10pm]

bgkatsqi
how did you unblock yourself

you
stalking my account huhhh 😩🤞

bgkatsqi
time to block again 😁

you
OKOK WAIT
i apologize sincerely for my actions, i hope we're ok now 🤏

bgkatsqi
it wasn't your fault
shit just happened

you
so you gonna apologize?? 🤨

bgkatsqi
no

☆゜・。。・゜゜・。。・゜★

A/N

lol i'm back 💃🕺

sorry for the long wait i had 20+ exams that are pretty important so i needed to revise BUT NOW IM OUT OF SCHOOL IN A WEEK SO HAHAHA I CAN UPDATE 😏

anyways this wasn't the best, i lost a lot of creativity bc of the tests but pls accept it. i'll probably update this chapter once i'm done with the book which is pretty soon :'(

AFTER REREADING THIS 753845935 TIMES I HATE IT BUT PLS EMJOY IT

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS REALLY OUT OF THE BLUE AND DOESNT REALLY MATCH THE TEMPO OF THE BOOK BUT I'LL FIX IT LATER <3