((Not only did I get my dream hairstyle yesterday, but there's also 4 more days till my birthday! Most definitely feeling great rn.

Summary: Realizing that I'm love with Marv after getting rejected by my "friend"

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Marv was my best friend. He meant everything to me. I never thought that it would soon grow further than just friends. There was someone at school I'd usually hangout with. And I was only friends because he was literally the only other person in that school who had the same music taste as me. So you could guess we got along pretty well. Or so I thought. I always said I had trust issues from past experiences. Yet I'll snatch up the chance of having a friend or a boyfriend faster than you could blink. The reasoning was that I was probably the most lonely person in this world. Well, before I met Marv that is. Soon that friendship between me and my friend from school started to grow, and that's how I knew I sorta had a crush on him. I never even believed that Marv would be so upset about this news until now. That was when I first mentioned it to him while we were hanging out in my room one night. The words that broke his heart.

"Hey, Marv." I glanced at him from beside me, "Yeah?" He stuffed a Twizler in his mouth, "Have you ever had a crush on someone before?" I leaned my head against my pillow. The atmosphere in the room instantly became intense once those words left my mouth. "Oh, uhm- why are you asking?" Marv sounded really nervous, "Because I think I might like someone. But I'm not sure yet." I stared up at the ceiling, "Y-You do?" He almost sounded happy for a split second. "Yeah." I smiled weakly, "Do you mind if I ask who it is? Or if you aren't comfortable, that's fine-" He discarded his pack of unfinished Twizlers to set all his attention towards me. "Y'know my friend David? I just feel like I'm sorta developing a crush on him." I responded. Yet I was too distracted to even see the hurtful look on Marv's face. "Oh-" He mumbled. "What about you? Do you like someone?" I sounded completely clueless as to why Marv suddenly seemed so upset, "No, not really." He seemed uninterested in the conversation now. Marv got up and stuffed the pack of Twizlers into his coat pocket. "Where are you going?" I sat up and watched him slip his shoes back on, "I just remembered that Harry wanted to rob some house tonight." He replied before opening my bedroom window and climbed out without even saying bye or giving me a hug like he usually does. That definitely let me know that I did something wrong. Except I didn't realize what it was until much later.

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I stumbled into her backyard. Tears were threatening to spill. Harry didn't actually plan on robbing a house tonight. I was just saying that so Modesta wouldn't see me crying. I couldn't believe it. For the first time I'm finally in love, but that person is in love with someone else. I climbed into the passenger seat of the van. Harry immediately noticed that something was off. "Marv?" I didn't respond to him, "Hey, what's wrong?" He started to shake my shoulder. I still didn't respond. "Hey-" He was about to continue when I suddenly couldn't hold back the waterfall of tears. I covered my face and started to cry. "Whoa, whoa, Marv-" Harry sounded really shocked, "What happened?" He tried to move my arms away from my face, but failed. "She's in love with someone else!" I said between tears. I didn't hear a response from Harry. That must mean that he's shocked. For once Harry actually started to comfort me instead of lecturing me about the smallest things. "I don't wanna stop being her friend but I don't wanna see her being happy with someone else." I sniffled, "Marv, it's okay." He sighed while rubbing my back. The love of my life got away just because I was too afraid to confess my feelings. Now someone else showed up and took her away from me. My consequence is having to watch her be happy with someone that isn't me.

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The next day soon came. I was really excited to see David yet I was still a little worried about Marv due to the incident from last night. I'm sure that I'll see him sometime after school. I can try to talk to him then, hopefully. Today was also the day that I planned on confessing my feelings to David. So I'm really hoping that everything goes as planned. And I don't end up getting my heart broken because I trusted someone I shouldn't have. I decided to walk to school instead since it felt really nice outside. Plus I needed an excuse to try to bump into Marv on the way there. Except I never even saw their van once. Not parked along the street or in someone's driveway. Maybe they were busy. Once arriving at school, all my previous thoughts dissipated. I met David at my locker.

"Hey!" I panted from running down the hallway, "Oh, hey." He didn't sound as cheerful as he normally does. So that must mean something is up. "What's wrong?" I opened my locker, "Nothing." He slammed his locker closed and walked off to his first period. I stood there motionless. I could quite practically feel him slowly slipping away from me. The same exact day that I wanted to tell him how I truly felt. I sighed and followed behind him. Class was normal except for the fact that David was being really quiet. Normally everyone would see us always talking to each other, sometimes even getting in trouble with the teacher. Yet he hasn't said a single word to me for half the period. Maybe he also planned on confessing his feelings, and he was just really nervous about it. I sighed and put my head down. Tears started to prick at my eyes. What did I do wrong? My thoughts changed to Marv. Not only was David upset at me for some unknown reason, but so was Marv. And they're the only people that can really bring me happiness. So you could guess that this day wasn't going as I planned it to. I reached for my walkman that was tucked away in my bookbag. Then I listened to some soft sounding 50s songs to try and calm myself down. Except those kinds of thoughts wouldn't leave me alone for a single second. When lunch arrived, I still sat beside him without him even protesting against it. My head hurt from trying to hold back my tears for so long. "Hey, uhm, David-" I cleared my throat, "Yeah?" His voice sounded exhausted, "Did I do something wrong?" I watched him intently for any kind of negative facial expressions, "No, I'm just in a bad mood. Okay?" He snapped at me. I scooted back and pushed my lunch tray away. But after I felt like I couldn't hold back my tears anymore; I made a run for it to the bathroom. I stood in front of the bathroom mirror for a second before bursting into tears. I cried until I felt like I couldn't cry anymore. Then I probably stayed in the bathroom for the rest of the lunch period. After school was when I finally talked to David about what was bothering me. "Hey-" I walked beside me as the crowd of kids pushed past us, "What?" He stopped and looked at me, "Uhm, can I tell you something?" I nervously looked around, "Fine, but make it quick." He crossed his arms. I waited until no more kids walked past. "I've actually had a crush on you for a while now-" I winced from the words that just left my mouth, "Really?" He asked. Except it didn't sound like he was shocked or surprised. It sounded like he didn't care. "Uhm, yeah." I looked up, "Modesta." He continued, "I don't like you like that." He sounded somewhat disgusted. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, something even more embarrassing happened. "And the reason I haven't been talking to you." Some of his friends appeared out of nowhere, "What are you talking about?" I backed up a little, "I never even liked you as a friend. You're just weird. I never even liked rock music. I just pretended to try and be your friend. But now that I know the real you. I don't even think I wanna be your friend anymore." And just like that he walked off with all his friends while laughing. I knew I should've listened to my trust issues when he first started talking to me. Because the bus left without me; I had to walk home in the pouring rain.

My friend left me and now my best friend is upset at me for God knows why. It's weird how my life can go downhill in just one day. This is why I can't have any friends. I fuck everything up. I always do. Except I never even knew that Marv actually saw my "friend" humiliate me in front of the school. My thoughts were interrupted when I heard footsteps running towards me and rain puddles splashing. I turned around to be met with Marv. "Modesta, what happened?" He panted from running so much, "I-" I burst into tears before I could even get any words out. Marv was quick to pull me into a tight embrace while I cried into his chest. "Do you mind telling me? It's fine if you don't feel comfortable." His voice was so relaxing to me after everything that's happened, "It was my friend David." I said between tears, "I know. I was watching. But what did he do to you?" Marv backed up to look at me. And it was that exact moment. That I realized the actual truth. It was Marv. It's always been him this whole time. I was in love with my best friend. My jaw dropped at the realization. "Why do you look shocked?" Marv suddenly asked, "It's nothing." I smiled weakly. "Well-" I started, "I did confess my feelings for him. But I found out he was a fake friend and he publicly humiliated me." I sighed and looked down, "I'm so sorry-" Marv responded, "It's not your fault. It's mine. I was in love with the wrong person." I answered as I watched the worried expression on his face change to confusion. "Let's go home and I'll explain everything." I said before I started walking down the sidewalk.

Once reaching home; I immediately changed into some dry clothes and used an air dryer on my damp hair. Afterwards I knew I had to tell Marv the truth. Marv sat awkwardly at the edge of my bed. He looked really nervous. My heart beat quicker than normal. There was a nervous feeling present in my stomach. "So." I cleared my throat, "About what I said earlier." I sat down next to him, "You said you were in love with the wrong person." Marv reminded me while I slowly nodded in response. "What did you mean?" He looked down at me with his bright blue eyes, "Marv." I started, "I was supposed to be in love with you the whole time." I held his hand that was laying close to my side, "R-Really?" He smiled widely, "Yeah, and I'm sorry for not realizing that." I sighed as I glanced down at my lap, "It's not your fault. I'm not mad at you." I felt his hand on my face before he lifted up my face, "I love you." I stared into his eyes and watched as they sparkled with love, "I love you too." He breathed out while his lips became dangerously close to mine. I took the opportunity to close the gap in between us. And I'd be lying if I said that wasn't the best feeling I've ever felt. Everything about it just felt so right. Like it was meant to happen. It made me glad that my friend David rejected me. Because then I'd probably be dating the wrong person if he wouldn't have. He pressed his forehead against mine, his arms gently wrapping themselves around my body. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the blissful moment. "I just wanna let you know." I whispered followed by Marv humming in response, "My heart belongs to only you." I felt Marv smile against my neck at my words.