A/N: Well here is chapter 12. I have been thinking about doing a couple different POV's coming up. So don't be surprised if they pop up here and there.

This week has seemed to go as slow as a sloth climbing a tree. I can't wait to say TGIF but I have three more days before I could do that. Landon kept making me blush by saying that it was hump day and we were all supposed to hump like rabbits. I rolled my eyes at him every time. Now that lunch was over I wouldn't be seeing him until it was time to go home. He was going with me to a job interview at the book store. He really didn't want me to work there because it was right down the road from the bowling ally where Harvey worked but I told him I had bills to pay and needed a job any job right now would do. While at my locker I was so deep in thought about my soon to be job that I was hoping to get I was startled to feel arms wrap around my waist. The person was not Holden because I was used to his smell and touch it was more sensual and soft this was rough and smelled like.....

"Harvey what the hell?" I asked pushing him off of me.

"Hey babe, I miss you." He said coming at me again.

"Well, I don't miss you. How could anyone miss someone who cheated on them with a number of different people? You know there is a club out there that is all about you? It's called the WHH club. We Hate Harvey. Do you know how many members are in this club? That would be like thirty!" I yelled.

"Calm down, babe. There has only been you that I loved. Those others didn't mean a thing." He said giving me a creepy puppy eyed look.

"Well, I don't love you. You killed that when you dumped me for Holden. And everytime some one new joins that little group it kills that love a little more." I yelled making him flinch.

"Is everything alright here, cutie?" Holden asked coming up to me.

"I'm fine now." I said leaning into him.

"So your really with him now?" Harvey yelled making roll my eyes.

"That truly is none of your business. I am free to date whomever I want. You should remember you are the one who dumped me." I said.

"I made a mistake. I want us to be together. I am willing to wait to go to school if you take me back." He begged.

"You made like thirty mistakes. And I made one big one and that was you. And please do us all a favor and go to Florida we don't want you here." I said now seething.

"Your an ass. After everything I did for you your going to treat me like this. I am and will always be the best thing that ever happened to you. You are such a loser. And once he sleeps with you he will understand why I cheated." Harvey said looking at me and Holden with a smirk. Out of know where someone punched Harvey sending him to the ground and blood pour from his nose.

"Don't ever talk to my brother like that again. You have lost the best think you have ever had and you will never find anything as good as him. Your a worthless cheating bastard that will be lonely and miserable all your life. Now get the fuck out of here and stay away from my brother." Landon yelled.

"Come on cutie, we are leaving." Holden said grabbing my hand and Landon's arm and pulled us all out of the school and into my truck. I was so emberassed. When he said that was it true did I suck in bed? 

Holden drove us back to his house and I sat on the couch trying to figure it all out. Is that he said out of anger or what it true? They say that 90% of what people say when they are mad is true but they also say people say stupid shit when they are mad. So which is it?

"Hey, don't take anything he said to heart. He's mad he lost you and your moving on with out him." Holden said coming in and sitting next to me.

"You know that is almost imposable. I mean I have only been with him and every time I thought it was amazing. But what if it wasn't?" I asked more to my self then to him.

"Okay so say it wasn't amazing to him think about this maybe it was him and not you. Maybe he is really bad and the reason you thought it was amazing is because you didn't have anything to compare it too." Holden said pulling me onto his lap. I really didn't want to be there things could happen from here.

"Relax I am not going to do anything. I am just going to hold you." He whispered in my ear making me shiver but I nodded my head.

 We sat there for a while with him just holding me. My wall was ready to crumble. 

"Can you drop me off at Jared's on your way to the job interview. He skipped today and said I could come over and we could work out." Landon said coming into the living room.

"Yeah, sure." I said breaking out of my daze.

"We better go then." Holden said standing me up.

"I need to go wash up I will be right back out." I said and headed for the bathroom. When I was done I was making my way back to the guys when i heard them talking and stopped.

"You better not be playing him. I like you but he has been through enough." Landon said.

"I'm not. I really like him. I don't want to hurt him and your right he has been though a lot. That is why I am going slow." Holden said.

"Good, because we have put him through some shit and now Harvey is trying to destroy him and I don't want to see  him hurting ever again."  Land said.

"I promise to do everything in my power to make sure he never hurts." Holden said. I decided to make some noise so I faked a sneeze and started walking again.

"Ready?" Holden asked.

"Yep" I said with a slight smile on my face. I think I like this side of Landon. I wish I would have had him all my life. 

We dropped Landon off at his friends before heading to the book store. Holden went in with me but headed off to look at books while I talked with the manager Ms. Carpenter. She seemed like a sweet lady so I wanted to make sure I was as honest as I could be with her.

"So, Lucas tell me a little about yourself." She said once we were in her office.

"I am 17, a junior in high school. I will soon be moving in with my dad. Um.... I did get fired from my last job. I want to be honest with you. My old boss said none of it would be on my recomondations but I have learned to only believe something when I see it. Oh and my mother and I have lots of issues." I said.

"Tell me why you were fired." She said looking a little worried.

"My mom told my boss I had a really bad drug habit and I would steal from him. I have never done any kind of drugs in my life. Like I said we don't get a long so she thought she would get me fired." I said.

"Did your ex-boss drug test you?" She asked.

"No, and I would love to take a test. It's not the first time she has done this. And she has promised to do it again." I said shaking my head.

"Is this why your moving in with your father?" She asked.

"Yes, ma'am. My brother and sister and I are all moving so we can get away from her." I said not knowing why I said it.

"Sounds like you have one hell of a mom, there kid." She said smiling.

"You don't know the half of it." I said frowning.

"So if I was to drug test you right now how would it come out?" She asked.

"Clean as a whistle." I said smiling.

"And a month from now?" She asked.

"Still clean." I said.

"What are your grades like in school?" She asked.

"I try for all A's and normally get them." I said.

"Good, what is your goal in life?" She asked.

"I would like to be a web designer or something in design." I said.

"Good now what about your social life. Girlfriend, boyfriend? Do you hang with your friends a lot?" She asked.

"I have a friend but he isn't my boyfriend, yet. He is trying but I have just gotten out of a three year relationship so I want to get that out of my system before I even think about dating. I have no friends really just my brother and sister and Holden." I said.

"Gay, I like that. So socially inept. We will have to change that. You will call me Izzy. I don't like formalities and you will never call me Isabella. I hate that name. I am going to have you work a straight schedule so there will be no changes unless you need them changed. I would like you to start tomorrow, you can train with Carter. You will work Monday, Wednesday and Thursday's and every other Sunday in the morning. The rest of the time is from four till ten. Is there any questions?" She asked.

"No, ma'am. Thank you very much. I was getting a little worried." I said smiling at her.

"Worried? Why?" She asked.

"I have bills to pay. I need to have a job to pay them." I said with a shrug.

"Well, I understand that. So I will see you tomorrow. White pole shirt and black slacks. Any shoes will do but the rest is a must." She said standing up. We shook hands and I followed her out into the store.

"Well?" Holden asked.

"I got it." I said jumping up and down.

"That's awesome, cutie." He said picking me up and hugging me.

"So you must be Holden." Izzy said coming up to us.

"Izzy, Holden. Holden this is my boss, Izzy." I said still smiling.

"Nice to meet you, ma'am." Holden said.

"And you, take care of this one, he's sweet." She said with a wink making me blush.

"I know he is." Holden said looking at me with love in his eyes. I almost melted.

"I'll see you tomorrow at four." I said still blushing.

"See you then." She said. 

Holden and I left the book store hand in hand. I was really getting used to this. I needed some space so I could work on my walls. I couldn't wait for tomorrow. If I didn't I would cave and ruin everything that could be great with Holden and I.

"So I since you are newly employed I thought we would celebrate. What do you say to dinner at a restaurant?" He asked once we were in my truck.

"Sounds like fun." I said I really wanted to say sounds like a date but I don't want to say the wrong thing. I need just a little more time to get things worked out in my head before I let him in. I would like to be moved into dads and be out of school. We have a month until school is out so that should be long enough.

"Okay, do you know where Rizo's is?" He asked. Rizo's was a very nice yet casual Italian place in the middle of town.

"Yes, is that where you would like to go?" I asked.

"That is where we have reservations." He said smiling at me.

"You made reservations before I even had the job?" I asked.

"Let's just say I figured you would get it and made them while you were talking to your new boss." He said smiling and winking at me. I laughed at this. He seemed to have a lot of confidence in me.

I drove to Rizo's and parked the truck. When we went in we were seated out on their patio. It was a nice evening and it would be a perfect setting for a date.

"So I know that your not ready to date and I know there is no way to give a date as to when you'll be ready but I want you to know I will wait. I really like you and I want to make you mine. I think you are the sweetest, sexiest think. Plus your smart, hard working and strong." He said after we ordered.

"I have done a lot of thinking. It is truly hard to do when I am around you, but I have a goal and I am shooting for it. I loved Harvey. He was my everything, my only and at one point in my life the only reason I lived. I don't want that dependency in a relationship again. Not that I wouldn't give my all in a relationship but I need to learn to live for me. I like you, a lot. I would be crazy not to. But I want to learn that it is okay to be alone. I want to know that I could do it with out someone right there. Harvey was really never there. I mean he was always working or studying so I thought but so was I. I worked none stop because I didn't want to go home. If you are willing to wait then my goal is the end of school. I figure by then I will be comfortable in my life." I said with a sigh. I didn't want to lose him and I didn't want him to wait.

"A month? I think I can do that. And if you need space just say it. I love being with you but I understand what you are doing. Harvey really messed with you and so has your family. But now that, that is over you need to adjust to the new way of living. I respect that. If I step over any lines let me know." He said smiling at me.

"Thank you, this means a lot to me. And I think if we were to get together it would help me be a better boyfriend." I said blushing like there was no tomorrow. 

"I think you would be a awesome boyfriend now." He said winking at me.

"No I wouldn't. I promise you that. That is why I need this month. I don't mind how things are with us right now. I really like being with you but I need to learn to do things like go to lunch on my own. It scares the shit out of me but it is something I need to learn to do. And I need to learn that not all men are like Harvey." I said with a chuckle.

"I promise you that guys like Harvey piss me off and it is a big turn off. I am even thinking of joining the WHH group on facebook." He said with a laugh.

"I am a proud member of that group." I said laughing with him.

The rest of the dinner went great. I really enjoyed myself. Holden and I talked about a lot and I learned so much about him. He had his own Harvey and now he was ready to start new. His dad died when he was ten and he missed him like crazy. His mom moved them here because she couldn't take living with the memories any more. She is ready to start over. He hopes that she finds happiness but isn't sure if he will be able to get along with any guys in her life. I told him all about growing up and how much I wish shit would have been different but I was glad because it made me who I am. I am not afraid to work. I can take care of myself in a physical sense and I am learning to let people in. I am learning not to be afraid. We are going to start working out on my days off. He is still going to teach me how to defend myself or at least try. He wants me to teach him how to be a little more financially independent. So he is looking for his own job starting tomorrow. I told him to take Landon with him because Landon wanted a job.

When we got home that night he went off to talk to Landon while I showered and did my homework. I think this is his way of giving me space. When I was done with my homework I packed my work clothes in my extra back pack and set my alarm. I have learned if I go to bed before Holden then I sleep better because I am not worried he will realize that I really, really like it when he holds me. I tell myself in the mornings that it is just something that all men go through in the morning and once I uses the bathroom my issues goes away most of the time.