A/N: Okay so this will be Holden's POV. I don't know how well this is going to come out because I haven't gotten the feel for him really. This is the main reason I want to do this. I think it will help me get a better feel on who Holden is.

Luc, looked so peaceful sleeping when I finally made it to bed. I just wanted to sit and watch him sleep. Creepy, I know but he is just so beautiful. When I first saw him at the video store I wanted him. But there was just something about him that made me walk away. I had also been talking to that asshole Harvey and thought we were actually going somewhere. I really thought Harvey would be different then Jefferson. But he is just like him. I am Luc when it comes to relationships. Jefferson and I were together for two years before I found out he had slept with most of my friends, girls and guys while we were together. The one that hurt was my best friend that was straighter then a line. Cal and I had been friend for ever. He was the person I told every thing to. He was the first person I told when I figured out I was gay, well bi but I lean more towards guys then girls. He was the one I told about Jefferson and how I though he was cheating. Cal really didn't like Jeff so I thought. But the week before I found out about every one he had slept with. Cal started acting really off. He wouldn't talk to me he wouldn't look at me. He even tried to blame me. When my world came crashing down was when I busted the two of them having sex at school in an empty room. I beat the shit out of both of them ending a two year relationship and a life time friendship.  Jeff made sure to tell me about every one of my so called friends. I was happy when my mom said we were moving a month later. Because I refused to talk to anyone from my school and even when Cal tried to say he was sorry I didn't forgive him. I should thank them all now. Because now I have Luc. 

I slid quietly into bed and waited. Every night when I would go to bed after him as soon as I climbed in bed he would curl into me. He didn't know he was doing it but it made me feel good. Once he was good and comfortable next to me I snuggled into his warmth. 

That night that I had finally agreed to meet with Harvey I was really excited. I remember leaving early because I wanted to get started with our movie night and hoped to earn a second date. When I saw a broken Luc get out of his car I had flash backs to walking into that classroom. I wanted to beat the shit out of Harvey right then and there. So instead I went to Luc, talked him into talking to me. We left Harvey standing there like a deer in head lights look on his face. Fuck him.

Now I am so close to having him. It kills me to have to wait. But I understand it. He has been through hell and needs to get used to the fact that his brother isn't out to kill him, his sister isn't out to make a fool out of him and that his dad really does care. Plus he was so attached to that piece of shit of a boyfriend that he needs to learn to be independent. But I just wish it would be over like yesterday and I could really enjoy holding him with out the fear of scaring him. I honestly wanted to kill Landon and Lacey when I found out what all they have been doing to this guy. And his mother well I am not even going to go there. Some people should have kids and she is one of them. 

The next day after walking Luc to his class I headed to mine. I hated math. I don't understand what we really are going to need to know half of this when we are done with school but they say we will use it in everyday life. Really I am going to need to find the variables to an equation everyday? I don't think so. This is the only math I am hoping the answer is right to. L+ H = forever. 

"Hey sexy, you look really yummy today." Sam one of my new best girl friends said once I was in my seat next to her.

"Hey pretty momma." I said smiling at her.

"So you ready for lover boy to go live with his dad?" She asked.

"No, I want to keep him." I said with a pout.

"Didn't he tell you he wanted space?" She asked giving me that look people give you when they are trying to make a point. I hate that look.

"I know, I have one more night with him and then he is moving in with his dad. But that doesn't mean I still don't want to keep him." I whined.

"Baby, you are so cute when you pout. But anyways, look I know you are head over heals in lust with this kid but if you push and act all clingy you will lose so toughin' up buttercup and let him do what he needs to be with you fully. If you don't then you will have nothing but issues in your relationship." She said I knew she was right but I just wanted him all to myself. Selfish I know but I don't care.

"I know and I will give him his time. I understand why he needs it and I know if we want to have a great relationship I need to let him do this but I don't have to like it. I can be grumpy about it when i am not with him." I said with a pout.

"If you say so, Grumpy." She said right before the teacher started class. Have I said how much I hate math? I really do.

I couldn't wait for lunch. Luc told me he would meet me there so I didn't go to his locker after my fourth hour. I knew he packed his lunch so I hurried through the food line and found my seat at our regular table. I couldn't eat though I just kept watching for him to walk in. When he did I felt myself smile. He did it. He made it all by himself. This was a big step for him and one of the things I knew he was working on.

"Hey, I think tomorrow I am going to try and buy my lunch." He said once he sat down and unpacked his lunch.

"Really, that's cool." I said when I really wanted to tell him how proud I was of him.

"You have a ride home after school, right." He asked.

"Yep, Brook is taking Lacey home and Landon and I are going out to find jobs." I said smiling at him. 

"Cool, I should be home by 10:15 or so. I will stop and eat on my way home." He said. I really love his voice. It was kind of squeaky in a manly way and raspy but I thought it was sexy as hell. I loved it even better when he moaned. He does that a lot in his sleep and let's just say I really, really love that sound.

"Are you nervous?" I asked.

"Not really, it's not like it's my first job." He said with a shrug.

"I know smart ass but you could still be nervous." I said laughing.

"Okay, so maybe a little because I don't remember the guy's name who is going to be training me." He said laughing. His laugh was more like a giggle and it was music to my ears.

"You said his name was Carter. So now what?" I asked all smug.

"Oh yeah, thanks. I feel a lot better now." He said and he looked a little more relaxed.

"Yeah guys, don't you two look so cute." Brook said sitting down across from us.

"What are you doing in this lunch?" I asked.

"Oh I wanted to come talk to you." She said.

"About?" I asked raising an eye brow.

"Cal's here." She said making my heart stop.

"What? Where?" I asked getting pissed.

"He was in the office getting his schedule. He and his family moved here last week. They found a house a couple miles from ours and right by where Luc and them are moving too." Brook said. She knew why Cal and I weren't friends anymore and so did Luc.

"Why here? Why now? And why did they move?" I asked.

"Mr. Owens got transferred too the same place mom did. She is his new boss." Brook said with a smile. Mr. Owens was my mom's boss back where we used to live so it was kind of funny that she was now his boss.

"I hope I don't see him anytime soon." I said.

"Well, he just walked in." She said and I looked up. Sure enough there he was my ex-best friend.

"I think I know what house they bought." Luc said I had almost forgotten he was there.

"Really, how close is it to your new place?" I asked.

"About six or so houses down. The house smelled really bad." He said scrunching his nose making him look cute as hell.

"I don't like this." I mumbled.

"No worries." Brook said with a wink. That is never a good sign.

"Bells about to ring." Luc said cleaning up his mess. I had hardly touched my food.

"I'll walk you to your locker." I said taking my tray to the trash can and dumping it.

I walked with Luc to his locker and we talked a little more about his new job before I had to hurry to my locker and then to class. I was pissed that Cal was here but then again I should thank him. But he better stay the fuck away from Luc.

It felt weird to be driving again. Luc has been taking me everywhere for the last week. Landon and I have managed to fill out four apps and now I have talked him into taking me by his new house.

"This place is fucking awesome." I said looking through the windows.

"This is just the main house wait until you see the apartment. It is so fucking cool. There is four suites and a bridge." He said. It sounded awesome and I couldn't wait to see it. He was excited to see the sold sign out front. 

"You have to throw a little party." I said knowing that it was a mistake as soon as I said it.

"Maybe, I don't think Luc is ready for that. But maybe in the summer we can have a small pool party." He said as I watch a familiar car drive by. It was Cal and he hit his breaks but then kept going. 

"I think your right about Luc not being ready. And a pool party sound like a lot of fun." I said watching the car turn into an old  farm house about six drive ways away. Landon was watching it too.

"I can't believe they sold that house. It smelled really bad." He said shaking his head.

"That's what Luc said." I said laughing.

"We should head back to your place. I need to pack and do some homework." He said heading for the car.

"Are you guys moving right in here?" I asked hoping so because I knew Luc was worried about that.

"Lacey is talking to our dad now. He is hoping so, but if not it will only be a week or so at his house." He said with a shrug. I really hope that they get to come here. I thought as I pulled out of the drive and headed home. I still had three hours before Luc got home and I really just wanted to hold him.

When we got back to the house it was like a female warfar going on inside. Brook and Lacey had a bunch of friends over and they were all in the living room eating popcorn and watching movies. I headed straight to my room while Landon jumped in the middle of it all. Thank goodness I am not a straight man.

Once I was done with my homework I jumped online. I like to leave little status's on Luc's facebook. He doesn't have a lot of friends but I know he goes on his facebook when he can because he always likes or comments on the status's. I checked my wall and then went to the friend request and messages. I had a message from Cal that I didn't want to read, but I opened it anyways.

"Hey, I know that what I did was wrong and I know that you will never forgive me. But because we are now going to the same school can we at least not fight? I miss you and I truly am sorry. I don't know what I was thinking or why I even did what I did. I am still straight." C

Really, straight? How many straight guys get fucked by their best friends boyfriend?  I mean I know that some straight guys like to experiment but come on. They are normally the tops not bottoms, the don't mind whose lips are on their no-no spots as long at it is someones and a hole is a hole. So I have heard many times. I don't believe any of that but I am in sports and guys do talk but not once did I ever hear a straight guy say I wonder what it feels like to be bottom.

"C, You really hurt me. I never in my life thought YOU would do something so low. I thought YOU were my friend and I thought YOU would always be there for me. But we know different. And I don't think we can be friends ever. But I am not out to kick your ass or anything just stay away from me. I would like to thank you for opening my eyes though. I have found someone that it way better then Jefferson Murphy ever was. And this is a warning keep away from what is mine. I hope that you have learned from your mistakes and never put anyone else through the pain that you did me. As far as you being straight I don't believe it for a second. Remember I saw you I walked in on you getting something..... never mind you know where that was going and I am trying not to get mad my baby will be here soon and I want to just relax with him. So stay away from me and what is mine and we will be cool." H

I shut down the computer and went to take a shower. I needed to wash those images out of my head. I needed to clean away the hurt and betrail that came with them. I hate feeling like this so I understand where Luc is coming from.  When I was done I went out into the war zone and made myself something to eat. I took my food to my room before they talked me into painting my nails. Landon was finally in his room doing homework so he was nail polish free also.

When Luc got home he showered and then jumped on the computer. I watched as a smile showed on his face. When he was done it was time to go to bed. This was the last night he would sleep in my arms until we were together as a couple and then I hoped it would me more then just sleep.