Holden's house was nice. You could tell they had recently moved in but they were making it a home. They only had one extra bedroom. Lacey was going to be bunking with Brook so Landon and I needed to decide who was bunking with Holden.

"I think you should bunk with him." Landon whispered to me.

"Why?" I asked freaking out a little.

"Because he likes you and you like him." He said with a shrug.

"He's your friend also." I said trying to making see my point.

"Tough your bunking with him and I hope that he gets you over that asshole. I don't like that other guy." He said bumping my shoulder with his.

"I don't want a rebound relationship. If we were to get together then I want to take thinks slow." I said.

"Really, I don't think it would be a rebound thing. I mean he likes you and you like him so who cares. I mean do you honestly still love Harvey after all the shit he has put you through?" He asked.

"No, I don't think so. He really hurt me and the more I learn about him the more he makes me sick." I said honestly.

"SO GO FOR IT." He whispered loud. I was afraid that Holden who was in the other room would have heard but if he did he didn't come to see what it was about.

"Maybe, okay I'll bunk with him." I said with a sigh.

"Good, now I am going to bed." He said jumping up and heading to where Holden was so he could tell him the good news.

"I hate my brother. No I don't I never have." I mumbled to  my self.

"So cutie are you ready for bed?" Holden asked coming in the room I was in.

"Yeah, believe it or not I am tired as hell." I said yawning.

"I bet you've had a stressful day." He said holding his hand out for me to take so he could help me up. I took it and let him help me to stand. I thought he would let it go but he didn't he held onto it and pulled me to his room.

"I brought your bags in here I hope you don't mind." He  said with a hint of a blush.

"I don't mind." I said walking over to them and looking for a pair of sweats. Once I found them I quickly changed without looking at Holden.

"Your too cute." He said in a husky voice.

"Um.. thanks you too." I said blushing like crazy. I mentally smacked myself for that stupid reply.

"Come on sexy get in bed." He said pulling down the covers. I crawled in bed next to him and laid on my side with my back to him. I have never slept in a bed with someone I wasn't going out with.

"I going to warn you now, I'm a snuggler." He whispered in my ear making me shiver. Oh man this is going to be a long week.

I was so tired the next morning. I had hardly slept. Every touch every breath on my neck make me shiver. I am so weak. While Holden was in the shower I got dressed. I could hear Lacey and Brook giggling somewhere outside the door. 

"Awe, I missed it. I was trying to hurry and everything." Holden came in pouting. I was clueless.

"Missed what?" I asked looking at him like he was crazy.

"You getting dressed, silly." He said with a chuckle. I think he really has lost his mind.

"Oookay." I said shaking my head.

"You know since you don't have to work tonight we could work out and I can teach you some simple survival tricks." He said wiggling his eye brows at me.

"Okay, but I need to stop and put a couple applications in right after school." I said knowing I wouldn't get out of it.

"Fine, but I am going with you." He said giving me a don't argue look.

"Okay, we better go or we'll be late." I said looking at the clock.

"I'm riding with you." He sang as he left his room. I followed him out into the kitchen where the other three were waiting for us to leave. 

Holden rode with me while Lacey and Landon rode with Brook. Before I could bolt into the school Holden grabbed my hand and held me back so we could wait on the others. He didn't let go until I was standing in front of my locker.

"So I will meet you back here for lunch." He said smiling down at me.

"Okay, I didn't pack though." I said.

"I will stand with you in line and we will walk to the table together. I won't let anyone mess with you." He said his eyes made the promise.

"Okay" I said swallowing the need to kiss him. He was being so sweet and understanding. Man he is making it hard for me to stick to my plan. I wanted to make sure Harvey was good and out of my system before I moved on with anyone.

"Get to class, people." One of the teachers yelled. I hadn't even noticed the warning bell had rang. I was too wrapped up in Holden. Not good, not good at all.

"See ya, cutie." He said smacking my ass as he walked away, leaving me blushing and shaking my head. I could feel eyes on me but I didn't care. I am gay and everyone knows it.

I was a nervous wreck in all my classes that was before lunch. I know Holden would be there but it still made me want to crawl in a dark hole and hide. When the bell rang signaling lunch time I almost went out to my car. 

"Hey cutie, are you ready? I am so hungry." Holden said while he waited for me to put up my things in my locker.

"Let's get this over with." I mumbled when I was done. Holden took my hand and we walked slowly to the lunch room. 

People were looking at us but nobody said anything. He walked us up to the food area and handed me a tray. I added a thing of fries and a slice of pizza to it before grabbing a bottle of water. Holden's tray was filled with all kinds of food. I think there was enough food on his tray to last me a month. 

"Come on cutie." He said once he and I paid for our food. I walked beside him all the way to his table. 

"So Holden, who's your buddy?" One of the girls asked that was at the table he took us too.

"This is my friend Lucas Lakes. Luc, this is one of Brook's other friends Heather." He said.

"Nice too meet you." I said with a nod.

"Wait, are you related to Landon and Lacey?" She asked. I saw a frown show up on Holden's face.

"There my brother and sister." I said with a weak ass smile.

"Really are you older or younger then them? I don't think I have even heard of you." She said.

"I am fifteen minutes younger." I said laughing.

"But there twins." She said looking confused.

"Yep, and I am the triplet to there twin." I said making Holden chuckle.

"So..... what a minute. I am so confused. Have you always gone to this school?" she asked.

"I have" i said still chuckling.

"And you were born to the same mom and dad?" She asked.

"I live in the same womb with them for nine months." I said.

"But you look so different." She said.

"They got the looks and I got the charm." I said with a wink.

"I think you got the looks and the charm, cutie." Holden said making me blush.

"Awe that is so cute. I think Landon is hot but I have to agree with Holden, you are so freaking cute." She said giggling.

"Hey, I heard that." Landon said making Heather blush.

"Hey" I said blushing myself.

"You guys are going out after school right?" Landon asked.

"Yeah, I need to find a job." I said.

"You really don't but I am not going to start this argument with you right now. I was wondering if you could pick me up a phone charger. I forgot mine last night and Lacey already went to meet with Gran." He said.

"I thought she was doing that after school." I said.

"She called Gran and asked to do it now. I guess her and Brook and a few other girls have plans for the night." He said with a shrug.

"Yeah, write down what it is and I will stop and get you one." I said.

"Cool, and bring back something for dinner. The girls said that we had to fend for ourselves." He said laughing.

"You got it." I said chuckling.

"So you two are really brothers?" Heather asked still looking confused.

"Yep" He said popping the P.

"Wow, that is just crazy." She said shaking her head.

The rest of lunch was about the same small talk and some joking around. Holden left me to go pick up some papers for his next class but promised to meet me at the end of school so we could head out together.

Holden and I went to five different places so I could put in applications and then stopped off to get a charger for Landon. I let Holden pick the place we were going to get dinner from and handed him some money to run in a grab it. He chose Pizza Hut and I was happy with that. Once we got back to his house we found Landon sleeping outside on the steps.

"Hey dude, wake up." Holden said shaking him a little.

"It's about time." Landon said with a yawn.

"Have you out here waiting since school got out?" Holden asked.

"No, I went to a friends after school. I have only been here about twenty minutes. My phones dead so I couldn't call." Landon said with a shrug.

"I have a new charger for you." I said smiling and holding up a bag.

"Thank gosh. I can't live without my phone." He said taking the bag from me while Holden unlocked the door.

"How about movie and pizza and then homework?" Holden asked walking into the kitchen with Landon and I right behind him.

"Sounds good to me." Landon said.

"I don't have any homework but if I could may I use your computer?" I asked.

"Anytime, cutie." He said making me blush.

We filled our plates with pizza and went into the living room. Holden put in some movie but I wasn't really paying attention to it. They were laughing so it must have been a good one. I was to busy trying to figure out what I was going to do next. I know I needed a job and that needed to happen as soon as possible. Part of me was still a little scared to be moving in with our dad. I was hoping he would get the place before he got back from his business trip because I don't want to be cooped up in his small house with my brother and sister. I know I would have to share space with Landon and that scared me. I mean last night I hardly slept. Holden held on to me like I was going to bolt at any minute. Which that thought did cross my mind. I mean there is three couches in this house that I could have slept on but he seemed to want me in his bed. And that alone scared me to death. I mean he acts like he likes me but what if it is just that an act. I don't want to have my emotions played with so I am building walls to hold myself back.

"Is someones phone ringing?" Landon asked bringing me out of my thoughts.

"It's coming from Luc's bag." Holden said. I bent down and picked up my bag and fished out my old cellphone. I knew who it was and was getting ready to put it back when Holden took it from me and answered it.

"Hello" He said. Landon and I both looking at him.

"Oh hello, Harvey. No Luc is busy right now. He's in the shower can I take a message?" He asked holding his finger to his lips to keep me quiet.

"Well you know that is none of your business. Why, well because you broke up with him and what he does is none of your business." Holden said looking amused.

"Well, you are the one who cheated and broke up with him. So you have no say if I date him or not." He said.

"Well you can go to his house all you want but he's not there." Holden said with a smirk.

"I don't think you want to come here. Landon is looking ready to kill right now and I really think it would be best if you just left Luc alone unless he says otherwise." He said and I shook my head no. Landon did look pissed so for Harvey's sake I hope he stayed home.

"Yeah, well you have a nice night, I have a shower to take." Holden said hanging up the phone as soon as it was shut I started laughing. He made it sound like he was joining me in my shower that I wasn't even taking. I shook my head and turned the phone off before putting it back in my bag.

"You know I really hope he shows up here." Landon said.

"Me too." Holden said.

"He's not that stupid." I said still smiling.

"If you want to get back with him or talk with him it is really up to you." Holden said.

"No thank you. I already feel dirty enough." I said with a shutter. 

"Please tell me you always used protection." Landon said making me blush.

"I will always uses protection. The only time you don't is if you know you are going to be with someone for the rest of your life. I was hoping it would have been Harvey but I'm not stupid enough to think a high school relationship was going to last forever. And besides I need papers in my hand proving your clean before I would even consider that." I said with a shrug.

"Good, keep it that way." Landon said getting up and walking towards his room.

"So I take it your not a virgin?" Holden asked with a smirk.

"Not that it is any of your business but no. Harvey was my one and only. I wish I could say that about him but I know better then that now." I said with a sigh not looking at him. It hurt to think about and I was hoping he would change the subject.

"Okay, well I have a lot of homework to do so I am going to set you up on my laptop. You can go anywhere in the house you want too. I would take a shower now before everyone is either home or done with there homework because we all have to share the one bathroom." He said with a wink.

"Okay, I will do that now and then get on the computer. Thank you for everything." I said smiling at him.

"Anything for you cutie." He said with a wink making me blush. I really needed to stop doing that.

This was going to be a long and embarrassing week. I showered and got online while they did there homework. I had a friend request from Jay the guy who had also dated Harvey. He had started a group called WHH which stands for We Hate Harvey. I joined that and found that there was like fifteen other members. Wow was the only thing that I could think of. When I was done I decided to go to bed. Holden was in with Landon and they were working on their homework together so I said goodnight and went to Holden's room and crawled in bed. I was tired and I hoped to get some sleep before Holden came in and I woke up to him holding me again. I have to admit I felt safe in his arms. And that was a big crack in my newly formed walls.