Well first off here's a rundown of my first three years during the 2nd day of school there was a full moon so of course having already know about Remus I cast a spell on myself to make it to where my presence wouldn't affect him and ya I've been his Wolfenstein buddy ever since, I accelerate in all classes but history of magic and astronomy they both just bore me and well other than that due to people finding out my last name for my safety as they put it I got my own room but 9 times out of 10 the Marauders as we now call ourselves, crash in there with me when they're hiding from teachers so it's never a dull night, I can't even count how many pranks I helped plan and how many detentions I gained but all in all it's just fun, Remus and Ember are totally together even if they say they're not...I saw them snogging when they thought no one was around but I'll save that picture for later blackmail. the summers were insane the group spent a lot of it switching between mine and James' house but from time to time we would all just camp out in the woods and sing and eat to our hearts content, Sirius had grown a little too close to the twins and I now feared I would one day wake up with bright pink hair how ever that quickly turned around when the formed the (y/n) fan club where there one and only duty was to protect me from all harm, it was fun to watch them tackle James and Ember as they tried to 'kidnap' me. I has been so calm and I honestly couldn't ask for anymore, Jessie is growing up quicker than I hoped and now she even going to be joining me at Hogwarts, I'm so happy she's finally gonna be able to see exactly what it's like rather than having to listen to my stupid stories about the natural beauty and happy aura of the castle, I really want her to see it... but I can't seem to make this bad feeling disappear.

"Jessie are you ready," Constable asked. I turned to see Jessie struggling with her school books so I quickly helped her place them in her bag.

"A-Almost!" she answered as she struggled to close it now.

"You ready for your first year?" she nodded excitedly, I turned and saw Gravis sitting patiently I walked over grabbing my stuff. "Kaity, Leo, time to go!" I yelled and the two appeared from the kitchen both had a cookie in hand "did constable make you cookies again"

"Yep!" Kaity smiled I laughed before Constable herself ran out.

"Oh, Constable is sorry for being slow here this is for the mistresses" she handed both me and Jessie a bag of cookies I smiled kneeling down hugging her.

"Thanks, Constable" she squealed again.

"No need for thanks, mistress your kindness is plenty enough." I smiled and she held out her hand and we all teleported to the train station. And just as in my first year when we appeared my stuff sat neatly on a trolley I grabbed it and began to push. Leo and Kaity ran in first Jessie right behind them with her own trolley and just like last time there were lots of people however they wernt on my mind, I had a bad feeling and it's impotant to liston to my bad feelings because something ALWAYS happens I frowned and watching my siblings closely as we finally made it to my worst enamy besides water, of course, my trump card would be here in 3...2...1.

"Miss me?" I turned and smiled at Sirius who's smile shone bright but eyes had dulled sence I last saw him, i need to make a reminder about asking him abiut hi parents recent sherades.

"Well, I still need your help, so I'm gonna say yes" he grabbed his chest where his heart lay.

"Ouch, I love you anyway, now the question is do you love me enough to finally go out with me?" he smiled and I just rolled my eyes.

"Not gonna happen" he shrugged.

"Always worth a try" I stepped up on the trolley and he came up behind me grabbing the handle on either side of me.

"Ready?" I nodded, Leo, Kaity, Jessie, and Constable had all just gone through Sirius waited a second before moving forward I closed my eyes feeling the wind pass through my hair a tap on my side told me we were safe, looked up to see the others smiling and I hopped down and turned giving Sirius a quick hug.

"Thanks" I smirked.

"Don't mention it...are you sure you want at least go on a date with me?" he leaned down a bit and I shook my head giggling before turning back to my siblings, I walked over Sirius following, Kaity and Leo ran up and hugged him he smiled big and greeted them both with a sucker.

"Hi (y/n) 's boyfriend!" and there's that, they won't get out of there minds that he's my boyfriend.

"Sup my girlfriend's littles" I glared.

"Don't encourage them!" he just smirked and I rolled my eyes.

"Hey everyone is already on the train we should get Going" I have become familiar with all of their magical presences so ya I'm kinda like a hot stalker. Sirius stood patting their heads "I'm off, you guys know the rules and Listen to Constable and be goood at the muggle school" they both nodded but I wasn't stupid I could see them put their arms behind their backs so they were crossing their fingers, I just smirked and leaned down "wreak some havoc for me" they both smirked and I stood straight "and just remember if you ever need something or if a bully tries to bother you in any way you call me and I'll kick their butts" they both laughed before hugging me and I hugged back smiling.

"Stay safe," they said in unison.

"You too" I stood once again and turned.

"Hey, Jessie if you get lonely on the train just come find me" she nodded before turning to the littles as well. I walked with Sirius over to the luggage person and gave him my trolley only this time I teleported Gravis directly to the castle, he likes to have tea with Dumbledore, I grabbed my backpack and joined Sirius in front of the door I walked up only to see him flirting with a randomegirl...and this is why I'm not going to follow my heart... I waited till she left again and then walked up to him flicking him in the forehead.

"Hey!" I ignored him and just turned looking at all the people happily talking with their parents and all the little siblings looking at the older siblings as if they were superheroes, I smiled gently.

"It's almost as if there isn't even a war" Sirius smiled getly, the envy evident in his eyes, I nodded.

"I'm just happy these people are safe-"...Karma always did like to counteract my words, but this time... I wasnt prepaired for the conciquences. I was interrupted as if in slow motion a large explosion went off a little ways away throwing me back I felt my head hit something and I became dizzy I could make out the figure of Sirius on the ground next to me, I struggled to keep continuous but failed as I fell back. screams, and the smell of bleach thts all my sences could pick up as my head rang like a church bell, I scowled.

"I'm sorry dear she hit her head pretty hard, she might not wake up for weeks or even months." who...me?

"Or maybe right now" I grumble and opened my eyes to see a lot more people than I expected "A surprise party for me, you guys shouldn't have" Sirius how was standing directly over my face frowned.

"Do you even know why you're here?" I sat up feeling a small pain in the back of my head.

"Nope but I assume it has to do with my head?" I looked around, everyone was here James, Peter, Remus, Lily, Ember, and Sirius but none of them were happy "hey why so sad...where's Jessie?" they all avoided eye contact but Sirius took a deep breath and handed me a note, It looked pretty official I studied it and realized it wasn't a normal get well soon card...It was from the Ministry of Magic, I tensed opening it.

' Dear, (y/n) Romave

We at the Ministry regret to inform you that when looking over the death toll during the attack on platform 9¾ we found the bodies of Jessie Hook, Leo Birch, and Kaity Birch. We are sorry for your loss and will cover any charges for the funeral, we hope you have a afe rest of your year.

Regretfully,

M.O.M.'

I re-read the letter to make sure I had this right, I just stared wide-eyed.

"I'm sorry (y/n) , I didn't want them to show you until you felt better" Ember started

" but then we remembered it was your little sister's first year" than Lily

" so we just had to let you know and-" everyone's rambling was interrupted as they saw the tears running down my cheeks, in all of these 4 years I never once cried infrount of anyone, but I couldn't stand it my small choke became sobs as I grieved over my now dead littles the verry ones that I swore to protrct and cheresh, were taken from me, riped away hile I was asleep...my only reason for existance for 7 years and...there gone...just gone. my body curled as I couldn't stop the tears. I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and honestly the pain in my heart was just too much to hold I pulled myself into the person not even caring who they were all I could think about was how I could have protected them if only I was stronger. If only i was smarter, I broke my promice, and because of that, there dead.

That night I skipped dinner and laid awake in my bed I didn't want to be alone but fate doesn't seem to want to help me, Gravis was still not back so I hugged a pillow to quiet my sobs, a knock on my door gained my attention I rolled over and sat up slumping out from under the covers I walked over sniffeling and wiping my face doing my best to hide the face that I couln't stop crying, I open the door to see Sirius.

"Hey, you mind if-" I didn't even let him finish I just hugged him.

"Yes" he picked me up and walked me over to my bed laying me down, he tried to walk away but I grabbed his arm "I don't want to be alone" I choked out and he nodded before he crawled into the bed with me he pulled me into his chest and it made me feel so safe it just felt right "please...don't ever leave me" he looked down at me as I wrapped my arms around him.

"I'll try."