[ cool ideas // song is by queen

warnings: language, mentions of drug use, characters on drugs, alcohol, mentions nausea and vomiting, etc

concept: this is kinda my take on what would've happened if lewis was the one to turn to drugs instead of logan??

stay safe,
lew. ]

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"Lewis, I thought you weren't gonna do this again," Logan sighed, the disappointment evident in his eyes as he stared down at his best friend.

Lewis, who was curled up in Jon's bed, with a trashcan on the floor beside him, groaned softly, forcing himself up into a sitting position. "Babe, it's just a one time thing. A mistake. I promise."

"Does your mother know?"

"Hell no. She'd make me leave the tour, I can't do that to you guys." He shook his head, but immediately regretted the decision, as he frowned and grabbed the trashcan.

Logan waited a few moments to make sure Lewis wasn't going to puke his guts up before telling him, "Come back to our room, you can sleep it off. We can deal with interviews and such without you today."

"Can you carry me?" He asked, sounding downright pitiful as he looked up at his boyfriend and rubbed over a spot on his arm surreptitiously.

Logan sighed, leaning down to peck his forehead gently. He carefully scooped him up, Lewis' arms immediately weaving around his neck.

"Thanks for letting me know where he was," Logan said to Jon as they left, Lewis echoing the thanks sleepily.

When they got back, and Logan had set Lewis down, the first thing the younger did was start unzipping his hoodie. Lewis' eyes widened as he tried to stop Logan, but his hands were gently pushed away.

"Baby, you're overheating with it on, you'd be a lot more comfortable if you took it off," Logan murmured, carefully tugging the hoodie off of his friend's thin shoulders.

Lewis' hand immediately covered a section of his upper arm, a guilty look on his face. Logan was preoccupied; something in one of the pockets crinkled when he threw the hoodie on the carpet.

A search revealed the small bag of brown powder.

"Just a one time thing? It doesn't seem like it, Lewis."

"I'm, uh, holding on to it for someone else," Lewis blurted out, unsteadily getting to his feet just to grab the trashcan. He practically fell back into the bed, sighing as he said, "That's a lie. I'm so sorry, I made a big mistake last night."

It was clear that Lewis was about to cry, so Logan pulled him in for a hug. "I'm going to get rid of this. Tell me if you feel like you're going to relapse again. You just have to talk to me, baby."

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"I'm sleepy, sunshine," Lewis practically slurred, standing up and wobbling towards the stairs. "G'night, love you."

"Hey, no. Baby, remember, we're stayin' awake to make sure you're not overdosing," Logan murmured, reaching out and grabbing his hand to tether him here.

"Logan, let me go!" He cried out, but didn't move to shake him off. "I'm fine!"

"Stay awake with me for a while. Please."

"Only if you get pizza," Lewis decided after a moment, slowly maneuvering his hand so he could lace their fingers together. "And I maybe wanna kiss you. I dunno yet."

"You just gotta stay awake, we can do whatever you want," Logan told him, gently pulling him closer.

Self-consciously, Lewis covered the needle marks on his arm as he sat back down and leaned against his friend. "You're my sunshine. No matter what," he murmured, lightly kissing his shoulder.

Logan sighed softly, forcing a smile on his face as he pulled Lewis into his lap. "That means a lot, babe."

"You should order the pizza, then kiss me," he instructed, smiling back as he played with the collar of the other man's shirt.

"Only if you promise to stay awake."

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[ this sucks lmao

i redownloaded that app where you make the fake social media posts and literally i hate coming up with appropriate usernames for characters like

chase's was 'saddream', now it's 'vodkachaser' it's like a double joke at least

bailey's was 'stupidforyou', now it's 'lost4you'

lewis' was 'lonelymoonlight', then 'lewiswithlove' and now it's 'morningglorymusic' bc i couldn't come up with anything cool

and then y'know you got chloe and mason (formerly 'localbadass' and 'hesitantalien', now 'csgw1990' and 'mwilliams91')

i've had ronnie and ezra logged in for a long time and haven't fucked with their users ('realronniewindsor' and 'iamezra')

and then i just added in logan ('loganwithlove') and z ('zeealkire')

plus here's a few posts that were in the app when i had it last time, and i've updated usernames and some profile pictures accordingly