[ i'm not gonna lie it takes a lot of brainpower to make the words go and it's rlly hard // song is by badflower

stay safe,
lew. ]

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the jester | badflower
"if any chord that i could strum
made me feel less like a man,
i'd slam my fingers in the doorway
and shatter all the bones
so i could never strum again."

this song reminds me of logan, when he said he was done with music after his wife died?? and just in general the chorus makes me cry bc it's 'is anybody out there looking out for me? just say you want me just say you need me'

i love badflower but they make me cry
(i'm gonna,,, do a song thought post in the admin shit about this band bc,,, 💕💕💕 but also lots of tears)

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who i am hates who i've been | relient k
"couldn't keep to myself enough
and the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up."

"i'm sorry for the person i became.
i'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
i'm ready to be sure i never become that way again,
cause who i am hates who I've been."

another logan one. this one is like looking back on either a) the breakup with harry or b) the breakup with lewis, but also it could be other points too

the words are sad but the instrumental is like rock out

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move me | badflower
"if you loved me,
why couldn't you find a way?
if you loved me,
why shouldn't i beg for you to stay?"

"if you loved me,
why couldn't i change your mind?
if you loved me,
why couldn't we try a second time?"

this one is ronnie!!!! again i want to cry but partially bc the performance video of this one has the singer with creepy facial hair and i do Not Like

this is just so emotional and raw but the instruments get loud at the end and there's points where his voice is so close to a scream

this one is just reminding me of his and ezra's relationship and how ronnie's literally so in love with him he'd do anything, but ezra seems to just,,, take that for granted like an Asshole

(oh look i must be channeling my inner chase god what a bitch) (like,,, ronnie's the type of character you'd wanna keep safe. pls i'm tired and word are hard) (bailey's the type of character you'd want a pocket sized version of to carry around and cheer you up but also at times you'd wanna leave pocket bailey to suffocate in a shopping bag)

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don't mess with my mama | judah & the lion

this is just a more silly one but if you mess with lewis' mama he's gonna (try to) kick your ass

he's a mama's boy and always has been, and i think it should be a canon thing that he's tried to fight someone in senior year of high school for calling his mom a witch and logan would've literally had to step in so lewis didn't get his face ground into the lockers

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skinny dipping | stand atlantic

bonnie (the singer in this band) is so fuckin gorgeous and so is her girlfriend and i'm gonna fight my friend's bf for calling the whole of stand atlantic "ugly fuckers"

anyway. this is definitely chase and her trauma / baggage