There are a lot of people here in the mafia who would protect him in my stead if I ever left and I know, someone would fall in love with him one day and he would fall in love with them and they would take care of Chuuya better than I ever could. I think I should do that... It would be better like that. For everyone's sake.

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Chuuya pov

The mafia has been peaceful for quite some time or maybe it was just because Dazai finally decided to leave me alone. He stopped coming to my house and even decided to clean up his mess and pack up his things and go back to his own apartment. Whatever reason he had for doing so didn't matter to me. I was finally free. I feel like this is the quietest it's been. Except for the part where someone decided to f*cking blow up my f*cking car. When I find out who did that I swear to god I'll make them pay.

"Chuuya. Go with the Black Lizards and find out who's behind all of this. Now that Dazai isn't here we have to find someone else to take over his job. Take over watching over the Akutagawa siblings as well and-" Wait hold up. Dazai isn't here?- "Any questions?" "Boss, what do you mean by Dazai isn't here? Do you mean he went abroad for a while for a mission or-" ... "Didn't he tell you? Dazai left the mafia a week ago. Such a waste. Anyways, if you don't have anything else to ask, you may take your leave now and you can start tomorrow." I exited the room as calmly as possible.

What? Dazai left the mafia? Without even telling me?? He's been staying over at my place then what? He just- just leaves just like that?? Is he serious right now? He tricks me into coming to the mafia. Messes with me everyday then after years of our partnership just goes?? I walked as calmly as I could towards the exit. "Chuuya dear, are you alright?" I look up to see Kouyou looking at me with a worried face. "Oh. Yes, yes I'm alright. Just a little tired." "Okay... Go straight home okay? I heard it's gonna rain today so be careful on your way back, okay?" "Yes."

As soon as I was out on the streets, it started to rain. "I need to have a drink." I thought. I looked for the closest bar I could find and entered. When I walked in, there was surprisingly no one inside besides the bartender cleaning a cup. Drinking always made me feel better and I really needed to calm down. I asked for a bottle and started drinking.

When the bartender left and went to the back of the bar, I searched my pockets for my phone and searched for Dazai's number (saved as Mackerel) and immediately messaged him as soon as I found it. I noticed we didn't talk much here. It was probably because we saw each other most of the time face to face. But when we did chat it was usually for work or some insults.

"Where the f*ck are you?" Message failed Number not in use "I f*cking hate you." Message failed Number not in use "I'm going to kill you" Message failed Number not in use ... 'Please come back.' ... I couldn't press send. I just couldn't. And before I knew it, tears were falling down my face. "Huh?" Why? Why am I crying? Why am I worried? Why am I so upset about that stupid Mackarel leaving without a word? I should be happy right now. I should be celebrating now that the waste of bandages is gone. So why? I hated him and he hated me. Stop crying. Don't cry. Please don't cry... Dazai, please don't leave me...

Damn it- I loved him didn't I? I gave a soft chuckle. No matter how much I try to deny it, no matter how much I try to push him away, in the end I still fell for him. In the end I still love him. I loved everything about him and I wanted him to come back. I didn't want him to leave. I want to hold him tight and never let go. I wanted him to be with me. I loved him and I know he loves me... Please come back. I'm not ready to let you go. Why can't you just stay?... "Damn this hurts... Damn it. Stupid Dazai..." I whispered while trying to wipe my tears.

Dazai pov

I was walking down the streets of Yokohama looking for shelter from the rain when I saw a familiar ginger head, laying face down in a bar through the window. I looked a bit closer to check if the boy was asleep or unconcious. I slowly walked in the bar making sure not to wake up chibi and walked a bit closer. I put my coat over the sleeping beauty to help him warm up. He truly was beautiful... But right now, Chuuya's eyes were puffy and his face was filled with tears... Why was he crying? Why did he cry? What made my poor Chuuya cry? I was 100% sure that he would be celebrating by now... What made him so upset? I caressed his face like I did on the first night I stayed over and this time, wiped away the tears off my darling's face.

I looked around to see Chuuya's phone in his hand with the name "Mackerel" on the top. It was our chat. I carefully took the phone out of his grasp trying not to wake him up to see what he was trying to tell me. ... "Chuuya... I'm sorry." For the last time, I met his soft lips with mine and left.

Chuuya pov

When I woke up, the bartender was back and a few more customers came. When I was about to pay for my drink the bartender told me "A young man came earlier and paid for your drink. Don't worry about it." I left the bar confused. But that didn't matter.