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𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐒𝐭𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐂𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐞

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"𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐲'𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭?"

"𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰, 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨𝐨."

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Tears stained your puffy face as you peeked out from beneath your comforter in an attempt to get access to more air.

After fleeing from the class 1C dorms, you immediately went to hide away in your own. Thankfully, there were no interruptions and nobody seemed to notice you rushing through the halls.

You didn't expect Shinsou to break up with you. How could he go from welcoming you into his dorm so lovingly only to discard you. You thought you could work it out, that it wouldn't have to come to this, but I guess the two of you were on different wavelengths.

You hadn't been together for too long but you really did have faith in him. All the memories from before everything started to slip filled your mind, making the tears fall a little faster. Was it really all just a waste?

It was your first relationship, too. A part of you was almost glad you got to experience your first relationship with him, but another part wished you had never walked inside that stupid library in the first place.

Looks like you were back to studying in your dorm.

You continued to sulk, wrapped up inside of your blanket in your dark cool room. The moment you tumbled through the door you changed out of your date clothes and closed the blinds so you could just lay in bed.

Although, you had to admit that laying in bed after crying your eyes out was one of the best feelings. Your physical state felt so at peace, your mental state however, was confused and torn apart.

So much for your plans to talk to Katsuki today. Maybe if you haven't even gotten into an argument with him in the first place then he would be here comforting you right now. Everything was so fucked up.

You grabbed the handheld mirror that sat on your nightstand and brought it up to your face, sighing as you looked at your puffy features. After setting the mirror back down you climbed out of bed and walked over to your dorm bathroom to splash water on your face.

After taking a moment to calm down you could hear a faint knock on the door. You hoped that if you were quiet enough that they would just leave, you weren't exactly in the talking mood.

"Y/N? You in there?" Mina called from outside your door, after a few more moments of waiting Mina sighed "Guess you're still on that date with Shinsou, huh? Wait why am I talking to her she's not even-" Mina stopped speaking as soon as she realized she was standing alone in a hallway talking to herself like a weirdo.

After you were sure she was gone you stumbled back over to your bed to lay down. Or, so you thought. You ended up dozing off to sleep, tired from events that today has thrown at you.

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You were startled awake from a loud knock on your dorm room door, how long had you slept for?

"Y/N? Are you in there? It's dinner time and people haven't seen you in a while, we're a little worried!" The same pink haired girl from earlier leaned against the door.

You quickly stumbled out of bed and opened the door, "Sorry, I didn't mean to worry anyone." You whispered. Scratching at your nape, you looked at Mina who looked a little confused.

"Y/N, Have you been in here all this-"

"Shinsou broke up with me," You cut her off, continuing to awkwardly stand in the doorway.

Mina looked at you with concern. The way you stood there with a tired smile plastered on your face, your hair was sticking out in every direction and your baggy shirt was hanging loosely over your shoulders. Your background was pitch black and none of the lights were on in your dorm either.

In all honesty, you looked like shit.

Mina quickly embraced you in a hug causing you to stumble back a little. "I'm so sorry, Y/N." She rubbed her hand on your back as you just laid your head on her shoulder. You felt like you wanted to cry but it seemed as if you didn't have anything left in you.

"Are you ok?" She asked, earning a nod back from you.

"It's fine, I could feel it coming." You both pulled away from the hug and Mina closed the door behind the both of you so that you could talk about it in privacy.

"I guess, but that doesn't make it fine. You don't have to lie about your feelings, ok? Want to go get dinner?" Mina put a hand on your shoulder and motioned towards your door.

"I'm kind of tired, really, I don't really wanna go down there right now..." You fiddled with your thumbs a bit. You didn't exactly feel like talking to the whole class at the moment, and Mina was right, no matter how much you suspected it, it still hurt like a bitch.

"Oh... Ok, I understand, wait here, kay?" She quickly got up and fled from your room leaving you alone and confused. You sat on your bed and waited as she asked you to until you saw the door swing open again. The pink haired girl was holding two trays of dinner with an apologetic smile on her face.

"Let's just eat in here, you can tell me about what happened, I mean- If you're ready-" She handed you a tray of food and you thanked her and smiled.

"I really love you, y'know that?" You laughed lightly as you picked at your food with your fork.

"I know, I love you too," She laughed and smiled before biting into some food.

"The date started off fine, I thought everything was normal... But then he just... not even 3 minutes in, either- he just broke up with me!" You set your fork down and scoffed while Mina nodded in a sad manner.

"He told me it wasn't the right time, and he was stupid to get with me when he knew he wouldn't have time for us... was he stupid for going out with me??  Am I really that much of a handful? It sounded like I wasn't a priority for him anymore... it sounds selfish but it almost felt like he was picking being a hero over me. I don't know why I expected anything more, of course he would choose being a hero over keeping our relationship stable!" You furrowed your eyebrows at the floor.

"I'm so sorry, Y/N... I'm sure he didn't mean for it to come off that way...?" Mina fiddled with her fork and bit the inside of her cheek. She wasn't all too sure how to comfort you with this but she was defenitely trying her best.

"He still liked me, Mina. He told me himself. It shouldn't have ended like that!" Tears pricked at the corners of your eyes once again.

"Maybe it just needs time? Maybe you can try again in the future?" Mina tried to cheer you up and give you some sense of hope.

You sat in silence for a moment, not knowing how to respond. You weren't sure if that was what you even wanted; to try again in the future. As much as you wished you could say that you did, something in you kept telling you that it wouldn't be 'right.'

Why? What even was right?

The both of you continued to eat until you finished your food and set your tray onto your nightstand. "...I never apologized to Katsuki." You gripped the edge of your shirt tightly.

"Seriously, Y/N? Cut yourself some slack! You just went through a break up and now you're kicking yourself for not taking on another big thing! Take your time!" Mina grabbed your shoulder as your bottom lip started to tremble.

"Wha-What if it's too late and he doesn't wanna be my friend anymore?" The tears that you thought you didn't have ran out of your eyes and began to spill out once more. "What if he's better off without me?"

Mina couldn't handle the way you were so blind to the way Bakugou felt. She just wanted to rip the news to you right then and there so that you would finally stop being insecure over yours and his friendship.

"Stop! Have you seen the way he's been acting lately? Wake up, Y/N! He's been moping around without you! You were his best friend, he will always be there for you! He's not going anywhere!" Mina shook your shoulders as you continued to cry. "I feel like I keep having to tell you that, but you need to understand!"

You continued to sniffle into her shoulder as she rubbed her hand along your back, trying her best to calm you down.

How could you not understand?

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𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄

sorry for making y/n an idiot sometimes oops

anyways, my birthday was the other day so that was cool ig?

Word Count: 1480

Date Published: 3/15/22

Date Edited: 2/27/23