The team and I were doing really well at the moment. We'd played at Old Trafford against Austria for the opening game of the Euros and won 1 nil, scored by Beth. Our second game was played against Norway, which we also won 8 nil. The knock out rounds had begun and we won Northern Island 5 nil and now currently, we were standing on the pitch waiting for the whistle to blow so that we could play Spain in the quarter finals.

My eyes locked with Ona's across the pitch and a smile tugged on my lips. It was nice seeing her again after everything that happened. She was always a familiar face.

I'd sent her a good luck text before the game, which she replied to with a simple 'you too'. Ona and I hadn't texted one another since our break up so, comimg beck onto the empty chat to send a message took a lot of courage, but I could tell the closure she'd searched for I'd given her.

The ref blew the whistle and the game began straight after. It was a tight game. Spain kept the ball in their possession pretty well, but I was quicker on my feet than a few of their players.

I watched as Ona kicked the ball towards Mapi behind me, who began running for it. I didn't hesitate to run for it. I quickened my speed until I was beside Mapi and scanned my surroundings. Fran was ready for the ball on the right and so I sped up and kicked the ball towards her before Mapi could, unfortunately for me, Mapi tried kicking the ball at the same time as me, but since I got their first, she kicked me straight in the back of my foot.

"Ah, fuck." I hissed as I grabbed my foot, falling into the grass.

"I'm sorry, are you okay?" Mapi asks me and I nod. I feel a hand on my back as the person walks around and plaves their hand out for me to take. I follow the hand up until my green eyes meet familiar brown ones.

Ona pulls me up and the ref calls a free kick for our team. I don't pay much attention to the free kick as Ona eyes my foot and makes sure I'm okay.

It makes me realise how much I missed Ona. She was always so sweet to me even when I struggled to tell her things about myself. She waited for me to open up to her no matter how long it took. She treated me well, despite me not doing the same.

Hempo kicks the ball towards me and I immediately step away from Ona and get it before she can. I smirk back at the brunette as the game carries on.

When half time is called, the team and I go into the changing rooms to cool down before the second half, though we knew there would be extra time aswell.

I stand in a corner as I fix my hair. An arm wraps around my shoulders as I finish tying my hair up into a simple ponytail since I didn't want to ask anyone to braid it for me.

I hadn't talked much to the team so I understood why they were worried about me, but I just needed time to think for myself about everything. I needed my own time to get over everything with Caitlin because I realised the more I tried telling myself there was nothing between us, the more it hurts.

"You're doing well, Els." Rach tells me with a wide smile.

"Thanks." I give her a small smile back.

"It was nice of Ona to check up on you." I freeze at Rachel's words. She didn't know Ona and I were a token a few years back. The only person that did know was Caitlin.

"Yeah, she's a nice person." I say and move away from Rachel to go back outside to do some warm up excersizes again. I knew I was defintely warmed up after playing 45 minutes, but I wanted to leave the changing rooms.

Rachel had stopped asking me what was up, but I could still tell she was worried about me ans I hated that she had to feel like that for me, but she also had to understand I wouldn't tell her what was making me this cold person, who'd put her walls back up for everyone around her.

Kristie had texted me again before our opening game with a small good luck message and I thanked her. She knew I wouldn't stay mad at her and that I wanted her to respect my boundaries and she did. Kristie was always more of the person who would leave me be if I needed it whereas Rachel would try her best to find out what waswrong even if it was in less obvious ways. I was greatful for the both of them, but right now I needed Rachel to be a Kristie in this situation.

The game restarted and Spain scored in the 54th minute and we scored in the 84th by Tooney and then extra time was called. All we needed to do now was keep up our defence to keep it 1-1 and go to penalties, though it would be more ideal if we could make it 2-1 to us.

I watch as the ball leaves Kiera's foot and makes contact with Georgia's, who aims for the goal. I hold my breath as the ball glides through the air. I feel like the moments in a slow motion movie, but as soon as I see the ball hit the back of the net, I take off running to Georgia, who gets engulfed in hugs by the team. The score was 2-1, we could seriously win this.

Extra time half time was called and I saw the Spain team huddled together having a talk with one another probably about equalising with us, but we'd already had a talk about our defence. This is where our training would come into play. This is where all that time I spent on that grass wirh a ball at my feet alone would come into play.

We won. We were going to the Semi Finals.

I couldn't believe it, but the team and I were all buzzing as we celebrated. The Spain team came over and shook our hands, congratulating us, though we could see the disappointment on their faces.

I furrow my eyebrows when I don't see one girl come up and shake our hands. I look around, scanning the pitch with my eyes and then I finally see her.

Ona lays on the ground with her hands over her face near the net so I run over. I sit down on my knees next to her body and tap her shoulder lightly.

"You played well, Ons." I tell her with a soft voice. "It was a tough game." Ona moves her hands and looks up at me. I smile down at her as I stand up and place my hand out. She takes it and I pull her up into a hug.

"Thanks, Elena." She says to me, though her voice is filled with dissapointment.

"Don't beat yourself up." I say to her as I pull her away and hold her shoulders.

"I won't." She lets out a chuckle and pulls me back into a hug. We didn't care what videos were being taken of us or what words were being said, we just enjoyed the comfort of one another's words because right now the world went quiet. It was just me and Ona because Ona needed this hug and so did I. I really did. "What's wrong?" She asks me while we're still hugging.

"What do you mean?" I ask as we finally pull away again.

"Come on, Elena." Ona's voice is thick with her spanish accent.

'God, I love how my name sounds when she says it.'

"I know when something's wrong with you. So, what's up?" I stop to think as Ona's eyes look into mine. No one knew about Caitlin and I which was why I didn't want to tell them why I'd stopped talking to people, why I was eating less and why I'd been kicking a ball around to get my mind of things, but Ona did.

Ona knew about Caitlin. She knew because she's the reason I realised I liked Caitlin in the first place.

"Can we talk after we've showered and stuff?" I ask.

"Okay, but don't take too long." Ona tells me ans I playfully roll my eyes at her. She knows me too well. She knows I'd purposely stall so that I wouldn't have to talk about it.

After I've showered, the girls go back to the hotel to celebrate together, but I tell them I'll be there a little later. It takes me a while to convince Sarina I'll be back at a good time before she finally agrees.

I wait outside the Spain changing rooms for Ona, but it already seems to be empty so, I knock on the door. When I get no response, I slowly open the door just to make sure, but instead I hear the water from the showers on.

I close the door quietly behind me and the water stops. "Ona, is that you?" I call out, hoping it is or this would be very embarrassing.

"Sí." She calls back and I smile at the Spanish. She's taught me Spanish while we were together, enough to keep up an easy conversation. I understood it way better than I could speak it though.

"And you told me not to take too long."  I say with a genuine chuckle.

"I know, but everyone got into the shower before me. Can you pass me my clothes?" She asks me from the showers. I go to where her bag is since it's the only one in here and pick up her joggers and shirt from inside.

I walk over to the showers with the folded clothes in my hand while Ona steps out with a towel around her body. I feel my heartbeat faster as she takes the clothes from my hands, our fingers brushing and I go and sit down while she changes.

I pull out my phone while I wait and go onto instagram, but I only feel a pit grow in my stomach at the first thing I see.

Why did Caitlin get to be happy when she'd hurt me. Why was she smiling, why wasn't she crying. Why had I been wearing myself out so I would go to sleep at night without my thoughts consuming me, but she looked like she slept peacefully each night.

"Is that what this is about?"

I look up at Ona who stands infront of me with her towel in her hands while she dries her hair.

"Yeah." I swallow. Ona sits down beside me while I comtinue looking down at my phone, biting my lip.

"Did something happen between you two?" She asks while my heart beats out of my chest. I don't answer. "Elena?" My vision blurs with tears and my chest rises and falls faster with every second. "Elena, mírame. (look at me)" But I can't, my eyes are fixed on the phone in my hands. Ona pulls my phone away and places it behind her. I look up at her and she pulls me into a hug as soon as she sees the tears in my eyes. "Tómate tu tiempo, cariño. (Take your time, baby.)"  Ona says to me while I shake slightly in her arms.

I choke on my tears as I sob into her shoulder. Ona rubs my back soothingly, letting me cry out all my feelings that I've been holding in.

We stay like that for a while until I feel no more tears leave my eyes. I finally pull away from Ona and she holds my face in her hands while she wipes my cheeks.

"Are you ready to talk?" She asks me softly while keeping a hold of my now pink face.

I nod, slowly. "After we talked, I realised I did like Caitlin and we went on a walk and we kissed. We decided to keep it hidden since she only just got out of her relationship with Lia Wälti a few months back and I thought it would be good for me aswell since I wanted to do it right this time." Ona listens to me with a gentle gaze that makes me feel comfortable to carry on speaking. "We were together for a while and it was getting too hard to hide from the team so, we decided we'd tell them at Leah and Jordy's party. I walked out onto the balcony to see her and Lia kissing, Ona."

"Elena, I'm so sorry." Ona says to me with sympathy in her eyes and voice. "I wish I could help you with that, but you need to work out your feelings yourself." The spanish girl tells me as she continues holding my face and running her thumb up and down the side of my face. "I'm moving to Barcelona so, I'm back in Spain now. After you're done with the Euros, whenever that is, if you need to get your mind off things or you need a quiet place to think, you can always fly over and come stay with me for a bit. Okay?"

I nod my head quickly. "Thank you, Ons." I move forward and wrap my arms around her again.

"If you need someone to talk to, no matter what it's about, siempre estoy aquí. (I'm always here)"