Millie's POV

That night was an accident, Jack and I shouldn't have even been in the same bed together. Especially because of what happened with Ellie and Jacob, the media would flip if they ever found out. I can't even imagine what they'd think, and our friends. The girls and guys, how would they react? If the kissing meant nothing to him I don't know how I'm going to feel. I needed someone to slap all these thoughts out my head, Y/n really set my straight. So I nervously walked up to the boys and saw how happy Jack looked having a blast with the guys. Maybe now isn't a good time-

"Millie!" Gaten says happy to see me.
"Oh hey guys." I awkwardly smile creeping closer to the group.
"You just got here?" Caleb asks.
"Late as usual." I smile.
"So are we getting fucked tonight or what?" Gaten asks.
"Definitely, I need ten shots and beer." I sigh.
"Ill go grab drinks." Caleb says walking towards the coolers,
"He never grabs the good beer, I'll be back." Gaten chuckles following Caleb.
Jack and I met eye to eye as soon as we were alone.
"Millie- can we talk about, last night?" Jack asks.
"That's why I came over here." I sigh.

"Come on let's find somewhere more private." He says.
We went upstairs to one of the empty guest rooms, then out into the balcony. There was a moment of silence as we both just stood in each others presence, I leaned against the balconies rails. Jack looked nervous,

"I really enjoyed last night." Jack says out of no where.
"I did too." I admit.
"Im glad you stopped it before it got too far." He sighs.
"Really?" I ask.
"Yeah, that was the smart thing to do. I wouldn't have been able to resist, your-" He paused mid sentence.
"Your very attractive to me." Jack finishes.
"I find you attractive too." I chuckle.
He smiled,
"We've both share the same hurt, I mean our significant others did sleep with each other. I feel like that's why I feel this connection towards you, you understand." Jack explains.

"I've felt so lonely since what happened, last night felt really good being able to talk about it with someone who genuinely gets it." I say.
"This is weird." He chuckles.

"It is." I giggle.
"I mean, you're one of my best friends and I kissed you in my bed." Jack smiles.
"I liked it though." I admit.
"Because we are such good friends, I don't think we should move forward with this though Millie." He sighs.
My heart felt like it fell to the floor.
"No yeah, you're right definitely." I say, trying to play off the disappointment.
"Im just scared we'll ruin our friendship. I don't want to lose you Millie, you're too important to me." Jack says coming closer to me.
"I feel the same way, but how do we ignore what happened Jack?" I ask.
"We can't, we'll have to hold it in. I'll still come over to your place and we can have our midnight talks, eat and watch movies. But from now on maybe not drink so much." He softly smiles.
"Oh yeah, I can't be trusted with alcohol." I smile.
Jack came even closer and pulled me in for a hug. I dug my face in his chest, enjoying the moment it while it lasted.

"I love you Millie." Jack says giving me a kiss on the cheek then pulling away slowly.
I watched him walk out of the room and finally was able to let out my tears. How stupid I was to think he'd felt the same way about me from that night. At first the conversation seemed to be going good, I got excited to express how I felt. Now I feel like drinking this shit away, fuck this. I tried to catch my breath and looked at the people coming into the house. That's when I spotted, her. Ellie. That fucken bitch. How could Jack and Jacob both want her and not me?! How dare she even show her face here, nobody likes her. Who even invited her, she always shows up uninvited to everything. I continued to try to calm down. I ran downstairs and took a shot. Every gulp of alcohol that came into my system made me forget more and more why I was so upset.
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