FOUR MONTHS LATER....

WARNINGS OF RAPE!

Lia laid under the stars in France, the feeling of her past drowning her as the intrusive thoughts infiltrated her mind. Her writs were aching as she yearned too be within her girlfriends arms once more, the safety she provided was the cure to all the pain and suicidal thoughts she had. But they were thousands of miles apart, an ocean separating them from each other as Lia needed her more than anything.

MY LOVE

MY LOVE
i cant wait to come
home to you.

MY DARLING
what's wrong?

MY DARLING
it's 3 a.m where you
are lia. shouldn't you
get some rest?

MY LOVE
it's harder to
sleep without you

MY LOVE
i just feel so terribly
mentally right now and
all i want to do is be with
you.

IN COMING CALL FROM 'MY DARLING'

"Do you want to talk about it, Lia?" Olivia asked within her bedroom, the room slightly dark as the sun was beginning to set. The sound quality was a bit poor as Olivia shuffled in her bed and Lia was in the middle of France, lost within her own intrusive thoughts.

"I don't really know what's happening. I was doing so well Liv." Lia's eyes began to weld with tears, her eyes burning as the salt water began to roll down her fair complexion, "I just feel like i'm fucking everything up, I hate my body, I hate who I am." The blonde rambled on, the brunette feeling so heavily for her as her own heart was crushing from hearing how terrible she spoke of herself.

"Well, let's start with the first thing, okay?" Olivia asked, her voice soft and soothing to the girl, "Why do you feel like you're fucking up?"

No thoughts came to Lia, just everything felt like it was her own fault and that was crushing her. While she didn't care too much about in the past, she progressed to the part where she's finally self aware of her actions and that was the worst feeling she had ever felt in her life.

"I don't know. I just feel like everything's slipping out of my reach. I haven't talked to Faye or Rue in a month since the incident."

The couple and Lia had attended a party, Olivia trying to go but her schedule was so overwhelming that she couldn't make time to attend. During the party the two girls began to fight, Lia trying to defuse the situation as anxiety rose in her body. Her nails were bitten until there was nothing more to chew, her legs were trembling as her breath hitched every few seconds from the intense anxiety that suffocated her.

Once the girls stopped fighting things only got worse, sending the blonde into a full PTSD episode as she sobbed in the bathroom as the couple apologized for putting her in that situation. The few days afterwards were the worst, all the progress she had made had evaporated into thin air and the exhaustion she felt was so overwhelming.

The couple had broken up temporarily, getting back together a few weeks later as they tried their relationship once more. But nothing felt the same, the three girls going their separate ways as their friendship was fading from the blonde.

"That's not your fault, darling. They put you in a tough situation and though you may blame yourself for the friendship slipping away, it wasn't you. They're trying to work things out and once they do I assure you they're going to fix things with you."

Lia only sighed in response, missing her friends despite everything that had happened between them. She just wanted to do the stupid things they usually did, go to parties, ride through empty Walmart parking lots in a shopping cart, terrorizing random strangers with weird litter they found on the streets. But their interactions didn't seem the same, every time plans came up they refused to go out due to work or other issues, they hadn't seen each other in person since that night but Rue made time for Lia unlike Faye.

"What about your body? Why do you feel that way?"

"I think it's just really hitting me that I got raped." Lia sobbed harder, remembering her sleepover with Olivia and how she held her in her arms explaining that what she had gone through was rape, not actual sex. It hadn't affected her for the past few months but her body still didn't feel like her own. "I'm trying to change myself so I don't get reminded of her, so I don't see the parts of me she once loved but I can't really change my tits or thighs. It's just kind of rough seeing my body in the mirror and that it still didn't feel like my own even though it's been a few years now."

"Trauma doesn't have a time limit. Your going to have to recognize these feelings and try to cope with them even though you never deserved to go through that. I love you more than anything and thinking about how she took advantage of you needing her love disgusts me more than anything. I would genuinely take all your pain away if I could, darling."

"And not to mention I just feel really gross about who I am right now. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize who I am anymore. I made so many mistakes in the past and i'm trying to get better but sometimes my past behavior peeks in and I hate it so fucking much."

Lia's heart felt like it was broken with her chest, her entire body aching in pain as she just wished she was lying dead right now. She couldn't handle anymore pain, she felt as if she went through enough shit to last her a life time.

"The most important part is that you're getting better. Feelings like this will happen occasionally and you're not going to be fixed instantly. You just need to give it some more time and surround yourself by people who feel like home to you."

The two talked for a bit longer until Lia felt as if she was going to pass out. Her body carried her back to her empty hotel room as Olivia insisted on falling asleep on call with her. She wanted to provide any feeling of safety towards the girl as she could. The two fell asleep together, Lia feeling a bit better as Olivia did everything in her power to feel like happiness to her.

NOW INTRODUCING...
CALYSPO!

"It's really going to suck when you leave for the states again." Calypso groaned as she popped upon a can of truly, sitting upon the white hotel bed as she took a few sips before offering it to Lia.

Hesitant, the blonde took the drink in her hand. Her taste buds rejecting the alcohol as she always hasted the flavor of it. "I'm so homesick but at the same time I really don't want to go back." The blonde complained as she threw herself backwards, her body still aching from the night prior. "I just know when I return everything's going to be an endless cycle of working and self hatred."

Calypso nodded in an understanding manner, rummaging through her closet for an outfit to wear for tonight, "Might as well spend your last night here indulging in bad ideas!" The curly hair girl spoke as sarcasm dripped from her words as she threw a skanky dress over her shoulder to Lia.

The blonde rolled herself off the bed, grabbing the black satin dress as she stripped from her clothing and replacing it with the slim fabric.

"You ready?"

And that's how multiple tabloids of Lia Sterling came crashing down and ruining the one thing she ever loved.