casually making

his way back into your
life...

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It's as if nothing ever changed.

Here, in the moment, our eyes are almost like... speaking unspoken words.

Like I said 5 minutes ago, I can take a hint. They were talking about me. Mattheo saying he hopes I wasn't hurt.

If only he knew.

"You wanted to talk?" I break the silence. Its been 4 minutes and he hasn't said anything.

"Yeah... yeah, I just wanted to apologize." He says, stumbling om his words.

"For?" Oh you know exactly what for, Y/n.

"I should've been loyal to you. We wer-"

"Loyal? We were just casual." His own words against him.

I've decided to put on the act of didn't affect me, don't care.

He sighs. "Y/n."

"Mattheo."

"I haven't even looked at another girl since I... broke it off with you. I don't even know what I was doing; hanging around with other girls. When you're the one I want."

I don't know how to feel, honestly.

I should be happy. The guy that has seen, feel, heard and had every part of me is telling me that he only wants me.

But, the problem is that it's Mattheo. And I know this man. Like, I know him.

Did he argue with that blonde and now he's running back to me?

"Mattheo... I genuinely really like you as a person but how can I just trust that? You haven't proven otherwise in the past."

He fiddles with his fingers.

It's true; has he ever shown to me that I'm the only one? Has he ever shown to me that I should trust him?

Well, partly yes. He's a trustworthy guy. I know him inside and out, some of his biggest fears.

What makes him happy, what makes him sad. I know some of his favorite childhood memories.

Like I was saying, some of the talks we had were pretty deep. But after he goes deep inside of me he forgets who I really am.

No, I'm not going to shut up about the fact that we couldn't just go on a date, or soend some time together without me giving him something in return.

Maybe I was being used and maybe I was just an idiot.

"Y/n, I... I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry making you feel uncomfortable or like you can't trust me. I genuinely, really only want you. You're literally such an amazing girl and I don't know why I didn't go after you earlier. I should've told you how I felt and I'll do anything to earn you back."

He continues.

"It's 'cause I don't want you to just say it's okay. I want to prove to you that it'll be okay. That we'll be okay. Together. Like, a couple."

I giggle a little at his bluntness.

"Surely you don't want that." I say, chuckling a little. He grins softly.

"Always have, always will."

"Mattheo, you're like... such a good guy. Really. And it's not about who you are as a person, but I can't just put all my bets on you hoping that nothing will go wrong again."

I continue.

"And I have my own life too, maybe I've met some other guys." His face twists u in disgust.

"And have you?" He pushes.

"I will neither confirm nor deny." I say, which makes him purse his lips.

And, yes actually. I had found someone else. Well, obviously not a boyfriend, but I was speaking to someone.

I'm sure that Mattheo probably knew him - Daniel. He was also in Slytherin and just a really good guy.

He was a pure guy. Innocent, almost. We're been talking for about a week, sitting together in class etc..

Opposite of Mattheo.

"Well, forget about him." Mattheo says, crossing his arms.

His biceps flex and I feel my nippled tighten, biting my lips just at the sight.

I think I haven't mentioned that the sex was very good. Yes, there was a lot of it but it was good.

Focus.

"We'll see, Mattheo. About everything." I say, getting up and straightening ny shirt back down.

He looks me up and down, wetting his lips before speaking. "Let me walk you to your dorm?"

I nod, smiling. "No funny business, though." I warn in advance.

"Of coouurse. I'm a respectful gentleman, don't you know?" He says, winking.

I laugh, and we chat on the way.

I hug him bye when we get to my door. "I'll see you around okay. I promise we'll be back to normal. And you'll be mine."

"Yeah, we'll see Mattheo." I smile.

-

"Are you sure it's just a cup? I thought it would be 2." I say to Daniel as we measure some ingredients for potions.

"It says here just one." He says, pouring in the lavender. I shrug.

He dips in two sprinkles of this blue powder with his fingers and I joke about how funny it would be if it spilled.

About 3 minutes after, it's on my nose and his cheek and we're throwing it around everywhere.

"Stop!" I squeal, laughing and he swiped it over my cheek too. The door of the classroom opens and we both turn to look.

Mattheo.

"I heard her say stop, buddy." Mattheo says, walking over to me and harshly using his sleeve to rub it off of my face.

"We were just playing around." Daniel mumbles and I shoot him the most apologetic look I can.

"You two are done playing then." Mattheo snaps and grabs my wrist, pulling me out.

"Let me go!" I say when we're out of the classroom.

"Who the fuck is that prick?"

"He's not a prick."

"Wasn't my question, sweetheart."

"For fucks sake. It's just my friend."

He scoffs. "Okay, now be honest."

"Riddle, you have no right to be questioning me right now! Are you really gonna ruin everything we talked about 2 days right now?"

"Y/n, I've been trying! Well, not even trying I've been doing as I promised! I don't even talk to other girls. If you don't want me anymore just say that!"

In a turn of events, something inside àof me clicks and I gran his face, hands dirty and all, smashing my lips onto his.

"Don't even say that. You're all I want." I say in between kisses.

He smirks into the kiss. "Fuck- Missed you so much." He says, hands all over my body.

And we both show eachother just how much we missed eachother.

-

After lots of talks, arguments and making up, me and Mattheo are good. Yes, like a couple.

We're obviously not perfect. Trust is earned, not given. This goes both ways and I've - also obviously - cut everything off with Daniel in the most respectful way I could.

Things are good, really good.

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AGAIN: im on holiday and

im writing loads on the plane
so ill try and post some :)

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