❛𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶❜

He's focused on his book, fingers flipping the pages as you could hear his soft breaths right next to you.

The room was dimly lit and you were laying next to Dazai, as he was sitting relaxed. You gave up distracting yourself with your phone almost 10 minutes ago when the sudden need to be close to him came to you, being unable to think of anything else.

Your eyes wandered over to his side profile from your lying position, his features very prominent, eyes slightly opened, not blinking too often, darting left to right with head not moving. Dazai loved books and he was always serious about them, trying to understand the message or think deeper and more profoundly about every book that he liked. He was always so immersed in every story, as if he was being sucked into another world, trapped in a trance, everything else around him a blur and let those characters or the writing distract him from his usual depressive thoughts.

You liked books too and would read the same books as his but sometimes it was too much. He spent too much of your time on some characters or black letters printed on simple white paper. He was too immersed to notice your wants and needs that a girlfriend rightfully should have and get fulfilled.

And today marked the day where you make him focus on you alone.

The plan was to go along slowly, not rushed, just first subtle hints to give him that you wanted something.

First, you started playing with a small piece of his white button shirt which was a bit unbuttoned from the top, tugging at it gently, as if you were a child. He didn't react and just continued his thing. Then you turned to him, still lying down, and wrapped your hands around his slender yet muscular arm, squeezing it and rubbing it out of affection. This sparked an answer from him.

"Hmm, you're touchy today, princess."

"Yeah, your arms are very nice," you spoke in a small but timid voice, eyes staring at his flexing arm which you loved wholeheartedly.

Again, no answer.

Now you slowly sat up, just to be about his height when seated and just stared at him. Even doing this forced no reaction from him. You huffed in annoyance, slightly frustrated and brows furrowed.

Your eyes then fell upon his pretty (and bandaged) neck with his very noticeable adam's apple that moved every time he spoke or swallowed. You could only see a portion of it, since his collar hid it from you. The urge to kiss it washed over you and you honestly couldn't hold back any longer as your body moved on its own.

Soon your lips made contact with his neck to which he tensed up slightly, still choosing to ignore your attempts again. His skin was soft as usual, he was especially sensitive around the neck but he got used to it ever since you started dating. Eventually you started with a few pecks, then proceeded with real kisses, gripping his shoulder firmly.

Your mind was only focused on him and his pretty neck as your lips moved upwards a little to meet his sweet spot and started sucking on it. You could feel him stiffen at that and a quiet grunt leaving him. Your other hand grabbed his jaw and pushed it away for a bit so you could have more access. Now licking his skin and sucking on it, making him tear his eyes away from the book, shutting them and let out a faint groan.

"Fuck (Y/n)-" his voice was deeper when he whispered those words, having stopped reading all together, shaky breaths leaving him.

You didn't reply and just kept doing your thing. You went over to his jaw, trailing your lips to his cheek and kept teasing him. From time to time you would grip his hair as well or put your hand on his chest.

And then, you just stopped.

Pulling away from him entirely, you waited as you stared at him. His hair messier now, a pretty hickey on the right side of his neck and a few smaller ones. You smiled at your achievement and saw how he slowly turned to you.

Lust.

That was written on his face. His eyes were hooded, lips parted, his collarbones on full display... God he looked so fucking good.

"What was that?" he asked with a husky voice.

"I wanted your attention."

He was silent at that and just kept his eyes glued to yours.

"I wanted you to think about me, look at me and do things with me. Because lately I feel like you've been too obsessed with reading and being barely home because of your work and I kinda felt left out? Of course you can do whatever you want but these past days were a bit too much 'Samu... I really love you and I was just... I needed you so much in those days and right now I..." your eyes travelled to his plump lips, "want to kiss you,"

"Then do it," Dazai said, a little bit of authority in his tone. Without hesitation, you leaned in, never averting your eyes from his beautiful face. Then, your lips connected with his.

Finally.

Finally you were kissing him. You didn't even wait to go slow and started quite literally to eat his face.

Smooching noises could be heard in the room as you made out. Dazai's hands made their way to your waist and set you on his lap, to straddle him, not breaking your kiss even once. The kiss was lazy, messy and simply needy.

You felt hot, feeling his body with your hands and so did he, pressing you against his body until no space was left. Dazai gently took your chin with his index and thumb fingers when he bit your lower lip softly, making you open your mouth for him to slide his tongue inside. A quiet moan left you as he sucked on your tongue. He squeezed your bottom with one hand and went to dig his other hand under your shirt, feeling up your smooth, bare skin, running it up and down.

"Poor baby. Wanted my attention," he went down to kiss your neck and not long after he sucked on the flesh.

You whimpered in reply, your chest pressed up against him, pushing his head into your neck. "Osamu..."

He also gave you a few hickeys, not giving a damn how much of a big size they had. His hands would squeeze your chest in affection as you both pressed your lips together for another time, sighing away your worries.

He was so addictive, so attractive, you couldn't ever stop showering him with your love.

Dazai pushed you down on your back and hovered above your frame, gazing deep into your eyes. He went to grab your leg and bring it closer to his face. Your heartbeat fastened at his movements. His nose barely touched your leg as he trailed it from down to up, making your skin tingle.

Taking one last glance your way, he attached his mouth on your leg, gripping it tightly.

"You're so beautiful, princess. So so good for me."

You groaned at that as he trailed kisses along your bare thigh, leaving wet traces. Repeating the same process on your other thigh, he wrapped both around his waist and went back to your lips.

"I could never put some book above you, you're too important to me. I love you so much baby, I wish I could kiss you like this all day."

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alright, i know i said i don't do spicy stuff butttt can you blame me when it comes to this man?? nah, right? i can't resist this man fr and this song y'all?? so sexy ugh but anywaysss, i hope you guys liked this. consider this a somewhat little present... the next one shot will be out in about 3 weeks? i have my big big exams in two weeks so i gotta give my all to that. ty for everything!

love you,

ㅡ evantaesce