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“Haah? Kenma is..?”

Hinata stared at his phone
with big eyes, not believing
what he had just read.

Not living near the pudding head
had made it impossible to find out
any other way so Kenma has
eventually decided to text his
friend from Miyagi so Shouyou
wouldn't wonder in a few months
what the hell was going on when
they'd see each other at the
spring tournament again.

Maybe the baby would already
be there then, who knew?

“You're too loud, idiot.”

Kageyama slapped his boyfriend's
ass, making the redhead whine.

“But.. Kenma's pregnant!”

“Huh?”

“I know, right?”

“So Kuroo and him really did-”

“Oi, can't you think about
anything else?!”

Hinata turned to his boyfriend
with a glare, making Tobio grin evilly.

“No. Not when I have such
a gorgeous boyfriend.”

He chuckled as he rested his hands
on the smaller's hips, making
Hinata blush furiously.

“You two, get a room.
Nobody wants to see this.”

Tsukishima sighed before he left
the changing room, followed by
the couple and leaving a confused
Tadashi behind.

Maybe it wasn't really confusion,
maybe the strange feeling in his
chest was more of a mixture of
shock and heartbreak.

Kenma was having a baby.

Something he had failed to do.

How far along was Kozume now?

Maybe as far as when
he lost the baby?

Yamaguchi bit his lip harshly
as he rested his hand on his flat
tummy, his eyes getting glossy
just thinking about everything
he didn't have now.

Just two days after they had
decided that they'd keep their baby,
faith had just ripped their hopes
and dreams of their future out

of their hands so easily.

It had been very difficult
for the couple at first.

Both were still in the first year
of high school, such an accident
was scary and so unbelievably
overwhelming.

Tadashi had cried a lot,
making himself even more sick
like this while Kei had switched
to complete stand-by modus,
subconsciously ignoring the
whole situation in hope that it'd
just magically solve itself like this.

Having a child at sixteen wasn't
something they both had
planned for their lives.

Especially for someone as
structured and careful as
Tsukishima, it was a huge shock.

He had failed to protect his sweet,
fragile boyfriend somehow.

Going through these stages of fear
and overwhelm to accept the
situation, to actually start planning
a future with a child just to get it
all taken away felt unfair.

Tadashi didn't know what he
had done wrong, that he didn't
deserve a child but Kenma did.

“Yamaguchi?”

The green-haired boy hastily
wiped his tears away before he
turned to his bag, pretending to
intensively search for something
in the depths of his bag so whoever
entered didn't see his face.

But he was a bad actor and the
person standing on the doorway had
a seventh sense for such things.

Plus..

He was the only one knowing
it besides Tsukishima.

He had been there the day
Yamaguchi lost his baby.

He had been there holding the
younger boy, he had been there
rocking him softly while the other

had sobbed so painfully at his loss.

So when Hinata had walked on
the court still arguing with his
boyfriend while casually dropping
the news that Kenma was pregnant,
the first thing he had thought about
was where Yamaguchi was.

“Suga..”

Tadashi immediately teared
up again when his eyes met
the older's worried ones.

The silver-haired male was
immediately by his teammate's
side and wrapped his arms around
the crying male, allowing the boy
to cry into his shoulder as he
caressed his hair.

“Shh, I know.”

He didn't.

How could he ever know what
was currently going on in the
younger's heart and mind when
he couldn't even imagine how it
must feel to lose a child?

But what else could he say
to comfort the other?

Was there anything to say that could
ease this pain even the slightest?

“I don't.. I don't get it..”

Yamaguchi sniffled softly,
his fists clenching onto the
older's shirt as he cried.

“What.. What did I do wrong..”

“You didn't do anything wrong,
don't say that.”

Sugawara immediately replied
as he tried to let go so he could
look at the younger male properly
but Tadashi immediately tightened
his hold on the silver-haired boy,
not wanting the other to see his face.

He probably looked horrible,
swollen and bloodshot eyes,
slightly snotty nose and tear
streaks shimmering on his cheeks.

“But why.. why is my baby gone then?
Why.. why is he and I'm.. I'm not..”

Sugawara frowned when the

younger's knees suddenly grew
weak and moved his arms to
hold him a bit tighter so Tadashi
wouldn't collapse completely.

“I don't know, I really don't know.
But I do know that you did absolutely
nothing wrong, okay?
It's not your fault, Tadashi.”

Just hearing those heartbreaking
cries, feeling it physically how much
Yamaguchi was suffering made the
silver-haired boy tear up too.

He so badly wanted to make his
teammate and friend feel better
but there wasn't and would never
be anything to close this gaping
hole the baby had left in their
mama's heart after the miscarriage.

“I just.. I just want my baby back..
I only want my baby..”

But Sugawara didn't reply anything
to that and only hugged the boy a
little tighter, rocking him gently
from side to side to show him that
no matter how long and painful
this journey would be, he'd be
right there to hold him.

And outside of the changing room,
leaning against the door, Tsukishima
could only sigh as he took his glasses
off and wiped his eyes.

Even now he couldn't protect
his boyfriend from all the pain
he was going through.

He had failed miserably again
because it wasn't him holding
and comforting Yamaguchi
at the moment.

But how could he tell his boyfriend
that everything was going to be
fine when he himself couldn't
cope with the pain?

He didn't show it but yes,
he was hurting too.

He had lost his child too.

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Little Tsukiyama special chapter <3