❝in the vampire realm, you need to break the rules.❞ 

"I think you should open that to find it kiddo." Kun said, sighing. It was difficult for him to hide the envelope that long, knowing you deserve to know about it at the first place. He look at you, cheeks raised as he wince. "I'll go at my room now, goodnight y/n." he sighed once again and left you, your mind drowning with a pile of thoughts.

You settle on a chair, sitting down as you look at the envelope. You were curious on what's inside. You have a hint what's inside but you were hesitant on finding it out and opening it. You were bothered on what Kun said.

"I could have give it to you when you fully move on but knowing you, you'll still cry about this."

You already know what you're getting inside because of Kun's words. You sigh, giving yourself time to breathe as you ready yourself. You slowly remove the seal, eyes staring at your name written in cursive. You remembered that you always wanted Doyoung to write you any letter for once with this fancy font and yet, he did. It was indeed a letter, you look into the paper, you let a sad smile. The paper was those faded brown that is slight teared, like how old books' pages. It was a simple paper but you were loving at how pleasing  it looks overall. You weren't really looking into  what he actually wrote, you were slightly scared on whatever he said that's why you keep on looking at it, admiring how neat Doyoung's penmanship is, it's too beautiful.

After a good minute of relaxing yourself, you finally force yourself to read the letter. You already tissues beside you, in case, you cry while reading it. 

Dear y/n,

You probably received this because, it was scattered in my drawer and I'm just overreacting on something that doesn't makes sense. Or, I shamelessly told you I wrote this because I was so embarrassed on writing this and wanted you to laugh at my stupidity and being too paranoid. Or, you received this because something really happened to me. Regardless the result, well, I just hope the reason are from the first two and not from the last one.

You stop reading and covered your mouth, muffling your sobs. You were already crying on reading it, "so he already know he will get killed? that's why he was too bothered to even tell me and kept assuring me that he was completely fine?" you thought, shutting your eyes tightly as you tear down. You calm yourself down, convincing yourself to finish the letter to get this over with. With your lips downturned, you continued reading.

If you ever notice I keep spacing out and look so bothered, please understand my action. Last night, that intimate night on you finally giving yourself from me. I got a nightmare, yeah it sounds too childish but it really was bothersome. I was with you, we went on a date and the kid I bullied months ago disrupted us and wanted to kill you because of my action. I stop him, fight him but I ended up being dead and that's when I woke up, shocked. The dream felt surreal and makes me worried, I have this gut feeling that it will come true but I kept telling myself  I'm just being paranoid and nothing will happen to me.

But I'll be honest, I'm really scared if it did happen and that's why I'm writing, nothing will hurt if I wrote this right? But I really hope you just pick this up because you were bored and miss me from work like you usually do. You really love me don't you, shorty?

You snorted loudly despite of crying. He really can't forget that nickname, that nickname he honestly love to call you and, you miss him calling you shorty.

But if something did happen to me, I hope you managed to be strong for me love. I know it's hard to do that but please do. You're a strong one y/n, a really tough shorty if you ask me. You managed to surpass your mom passing away, living all alone and facing difficulties in life, you even handled a bitchy co worker and once fight with her. You see, you're such a strong woman y/n and I know you'll move on from this and from me. Please forget about me too, I'm letting you go now even if it hurts me on writing this. You don't deserve to suffer on my death, you deserve to be happy even if the reason isn't me anymore. I know it's hard for you, I'm also finding this hard for me to write this because I really love you and can't even handle the idea of letting you go, but don't worry I'll be fine. Love, you are the greatest thing that happened on my life, you made me feel that I could feel love and can give love to someone again. You're my savior in my stubborn and boring life. You are a treasure that I adore and the short memories that I have with you will always be in my mind and soul for an eternity. I'm thankful to meet you and always remember that I love you even if I pass away. I love you y/n, please forget me and move on. You don't have to require yourself on staying a relationship with a dead me, I'm letting you for the sake of your happiness. You don't need to stay with me even if I instructed you that you can only date me and only me in your lifespan. y/n, I want you to keep smiling, please do and don't think about harming yourself. I'll be mad if you did, we all know doing bad to yourself will lead to anything. What's done is done and we can't change that y/n, we just have to accept things as it is, even if it's harsh. It's a bummer that we didn't last long because I  left you, unfair isn't it? the world was always unfair to everyone so don't feel bad, you aren't alone on that feeling. I hope you're reading this and be happy for me and for yourself. Please take care of yourself, don't get sick and keep living. You should push forward y/n and stop living to our past, if it bothers you, forget every memory of us too for your own sake of peace. You don't deserve crying on me, you should get a guy to treat you right okay? replace me in your life and heart, forget about me and find someone else to love. Who knows, you find a person that will love you and adore you more than I could have done. And, y/n, you shouldn't close opportunities if I really did leave you. I'm not the only guy in this world that could love you, there are many person there that can offer to love you, cherish you and most likely, wanting to settle down and have a life with you. Please don't ruin your life just for me, you deserve to happiness. You deserve this life you have and don't waste on me. You know how much I love you and want you to be joyous all the time.

Farewell y/n, I will always love you and forever will be loving you in the underworld. Please continue on pushing forward in life and find true happiness, it's sad that I couldn't give that to you but I know you'll eventually find it soon, I don't advice you to look because happiness was never found, it will be felt when you stop looking. I believe that you'll do well without me and I'm happy if you do. This is my last goodbye y/n and hope you live happily, it's a struggle but don't lose hope. In the darkness, there will always be light for hope and you will find that soon. I love you and goodbye forever, love.

Sincerely,

your used to be stubborn bunny,

-Kim Dongyoung

You  bit your lip harshly,  your right hand clutching into the hoodie you're wearing as you felt being stab with pain in a lighting speed. You thought that the first few months after he passed away was the most agonizing thing you ever felt, the letter proved you wrong. He knew that he was dying but why didn't he tell you? why did he ask you out knowing that he was scared on dying? why did he manage to assure you he's fine even if the nightmare he has bothers him a lot?

You let out a sharp breath. You were starting to collect yourself and try to move on from him but here you are, broken again by a simple letter. You grab your phone, sighing sharply and remembering that song he played that made you question at first, all the lyrics from the song made sense now. He was hinting you from that time and you were to absorb to know about it. You open your phone and tried to search on that song and played it. You smiled bitterly on hearing the song all over again. You snorted on hearing the piano music started playing, the hum that makes you cry more, he knew this was a sad song and he have to play it as he slow dance with you that time.

yelling at the sky,
screamin' at the world
baby, why'd you go away,
I'm still your girl.

You let out a broken laugh as you heard the song, the lyrics hit so bad that you covered your head with your palms and cried. You remembered him singing the next line thus it made you sing too. "Holdin' on too tight, head up in the clouds," you sang, heart feeling broken. "The underworld only knows, where you are now." like what he did, you change the lyrics, a wide smile flashing as you feel so broken.

how do I love, how do I love again?
how do I trust, how do I trust again?

I stay up all night,
tell myself I'm alright.
baby, you're just harder to see than most.
I put the record on,
wait 'til I heard our song
Every night I'm dancing with your ghost,
every night I'm dancing with your ghost.

You halt when you saw a half coming out from his room, eyes staring at you, with a tipped lipped smile. He walk towards your sit and sat down with you. He knows that it's hard for you to move on and he feels sad you're this broken. He hummed along the song, eyes fixed at yours as he wipe the tears that keep flowing for almost an hour now. "It's fine y/n, I know it's hard to move on."

"Wanna get wasted?" he asked, making you stiff and glared at him, questioning the half.

"Did you and Johnny broke up?" you suddenly asked, eyeing on him from head to toe. Why will he get wasted anyway? The half laughed at your question and shake his head into a no."Then why are you asking me to get wasted with you?"

"Because, I'm bored and I can't sleep." He answered, humminga again at the second chorus. A long sigh escape his lips and look at you, with a serious gaze. "Also, I think you need it. Sure, it won't solve your problems but it can help you sleep easily."

"Isn't that suppose to be the opposite?" you asked, doubting Ten's words. The half assured you and went to the lower cabinets and bringing a large bottle, you weren't really into alcohol but you guessed maybe it's beer. He looked at you, using his ability as he get two glass shots for the two of you. He poured half one glass shot and gave it to you, you had your brows furrowed at the action. "You're seriouslly going to let me drink this out?" you scoffed in disbelief. You were slightly expecting that he'll just talk with you about the letter but he was Ten, what can you expect?

"If you wanted me to get scolded by Kun tomorrow, sure." He joked but had his eyes shut at the sight of you chogging the substance in one go. You only needed his words to go and drink. "Okay that hurts my feelings, nugget." he whined dramatically. He was actually offended that you took a glass because you wanted to get him scolded.

But knowing Ten, when was he not scolded by the older?

"It taste bad, gross." You commented, having a biiter expression. You never did get the idea of drinking and have no plans about it and here you are, regretting it as you felt your taste buds getting ruined. It taste awful.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I should have got some ice cubes to make it taste better but I have an out of the world idea!" He suggested and before you even asked nor stop him from his shenanigans, he already teleported somewhere. You tapped your fingers on the counter, waiting for him and the bottle of beer to be back. After three seconds he went back, body shivering intensely as he puts down the bottle. You let out a loud scoff, you don't want to validate the thought you have as you see a pile of snow in his head— "Antartica is f-fricking c-c-old."  Ten shivered as he speak.

You don't know if you'll crack up or be disappointed by the the stunt he just did. It was beyond crack, you witnessing how crackhead Ten is and you don't know how to react at all. Instead, you let out a smirk, shaking your head in disbelief, sighing in disappoinment. "I can't even look at you right now. Gheez, you're such a crackhead Ten." you mentioned the obvious.

The whole time is you drinking while watching Ten suffer from shivering. You couldn't help but to space out, not minding the half as you think deeply. You were sadden at the fact Doyoung kept that nightmare away from you, he meant well but you still feel broken about it. You started saying how you feel, the dash of alcohol in your system. You weren't  even denying that you still can't move on from what happened and everyone know you can't.

You really can't seem to let go of him even if he requested you, you just can't find someone better then him because you know, he's the very best thing you could ever have and he was all you wished for, wished for to come back.

"I just wish he c-can go back and be alive with the kids." you sniffled, eyes shutted as you drink.

It was another day at the corp and there is Taeil, staring at intently at the few papers in his desk. It was eight in the morning, his eyes squinting as he was still feeling drowsy. He was a ruler for hundred of years and still feels drowsy because of his irregular sleeping schedule. Being a ruler is a big responsibility. Other than you have to be updated around the whole realm and give instructions, the schedule was very hectic and it frustrates the vampire, he just wanted to spend time with his only daughter and grandchildren today but he can't, his duty kept calling him.

He sighed sadly. He received a phone call from Kun, the younger telling that Ten was such an idiot to let you get wasted. Taeil was blinking at the news, and wasn't aware that Dongyoung hid a letter about the stubborn vampire knowing he'll die, it was a secret that he kept from everyone.

"You should go here hyung, your daughter needs you." Kun asked in the other line, he was pretty worried about you and was still mad at Ten for doing such thing. He even found out that the half even went to antartica for a few seconds just to make the beverage to be cold instantly.

Taeil really want to ditch work and be there for you but he's paying the price on the slacking off he did when you were younger, he was trapped at his own schedule. "I really want to Kun but I really can't, I'm really busy." He said, annoyed. He even cussed when he heard the telephone beside him ringing but was relieved that it went off, Jungwoo, the receptionist probably answered the call for him and he was thankful about it.

"Can you atleast go here for five minutes?"  Kun requested. He knows that you needed someone to talk to and the only best way for thag is talking to Taeil. He was concerned at your well being. Sure, you didn't passed out nor drank too much but you were drunk. You didn't do anything stupid like Ten's shenanigans and Kun was relieved but he knows you were still broken. "y/n really needs it."

"I wanted to, but I can't I'll just send Jaehyun there. I'm sorry." Taeil mumbled and sighed, ending the call. He feels bad that he couldn't be with you and comfort you like he always wanted but, his hands are tied to work.

He went back to work and answer  a few calls whilst he signed some papers. After that he then called Jaehyun on the telephone, asking him to go at his office. It didn't took long for a Jung to come over and knock at the door.

"You called?" Jaehyun asked as he sat down on the chair in front of him, eyes blinking. Usually, Taeil uses his own phone when he calls the younger but now, he doesn't. "May I help you Mister Moon?" The special half asked, formally for no apparent reason, everyone at the office was casual and there's Jaehyun, being questionable.

Taeil knew that Jaehyun has work to do  since he replaced Doyoung's position. He knew about the task the younger has and he can let someone fill it up for him, most likely Johnny will since the tall male doesn't have anything to do for today. "Go to your sister and comfort him for me, please?"

Jaehyun instantly froze when Taeil mentioned you."Did something happened?" He asked, worried. The half spend time with you and made you happy yesterday and it's startling to be called early at Taeil's office because of you.

The older rest both of his elbows on the desk and looked at the Jung, eyes serious. "Apparently, Kun gave her a letter that was from Doyoung, written two days before he passed away. Your beloved hyung was keeping a secret from all of us about Donghyuck killing him in his dream and didn't want to believe it because it was just an awful dream. Long story short, your sister feels broken about the said letter that Dpyoung gave."

The Jung bowed goodbye before he disappeared at the office, making Taeil space out. He know that you wanted to bring your boyfriend back to life so badly. He know how you wished for your late bunny to be alive again and Taeil was trying.

He was trying to break one dangerous rule just for you.

"Taeil-hyung?" The vampire squint his eyes as he was startled by a tall male, it was Johnny. The younger went across the table and placed down some portfolios. "Here are the things that you asked me to bring."

"T-thanks." Taeil sheepishly smiled and look at Johnny as the tall male opened the door. "Hey John,"

"Yes?"

"Is Hyuck still up to what he came back for when my daughter det him free?" He asked softly, he was still pissed at how the younger managed to escape because of you forgiving him. But, he was impressed that Donghyuck came back along with Mark and wanting to fix the ruckus the human made at the vampire realm.

"You mean reviving Dongyoung? Yeah he is, Mark says the