It was two o' clock in the afternoon and you were getting the twins ready because you'll bring them outside along with Jaehyun and Jaemin. Eversince you were a month pregnant with the twins, the three of you siblings decided to meet up every month since the most of you three have busy lives: You, taking care of yourself and the twins, also add cleaning the house. Jaehyun having a hectic work schedule and a girlfriend to spend time with. Lastly, Jaemin being a college student and stress with school works.

All of you three are busy but still wanted to know each other deeply and that is why you three agree on meeting up every now and then in a month.

You looked down at the twins that are playing on the puzzled mat that you placed on the floor. You called the two, kneeling down and stare at them, waiting for them to waddle their way towards you. Turns out, only Dopyo went near you and wrapped his small hands on you.

And for Daisy's case, she was holding on a soft red block and avoided your gaze. She then faced the doorframe and let you face her back.

You puckered your lips at the action, finding your eldest avoiding slightly hurting your heart. "Daisy, come here baby!" you cheered, hoping the said female will look back at you. "Baby, come to mommy, we'll go outside with uncle jae and nana!" you said in an excited tone, trying to convince your eldest to finally look at you.

You frowned when there was no reaction nor gibberish words was heard from her. You used your left hand to guide your youngest as you slowly kneel walk your way towards Daisy. You felt relief that your daughter finally looked at you, but again, focus on crashing the two blocks she picked up.

"Daisy, we'll go with uncle Jae and nana, don't you like your uncles?" you asked softly earning some gibberish words at her. She let out a coo when she dropped the soft block and pick it up, innocent eyes staring yours. "Does my baby Daisy want to spend time with uncle jae and nana?" you asked again, this time earning a nod from her.

"Then, let's go to your room baby, I'll dress you up!" you said, hyping your voice up to make her comfortable but you let out a pout when she shake her head into a no. You have your brows creased and give her a worried look. "You don't want to go outside?"

Your daughter ignored your question and continued playing with the blocks, not minding you were waiting for an answer. You sighed in defeat, and watch her, the tip of your lip curved down at the sight.

"So, having a hard time with Daisy again?" your eyes shifted into the doorframe seeing Jaehyun smirking at you. He walked towards the said female and waved at her, Daisy saying loud gibberish words and giggling when Jaehyun kneeled down, a hand cupping the tiny cheeks. The special half then took her into his strongs arms, carrying her gently and carefully. Both of you cooed when Daisy let out a loud laugh."Guess I'm your favorite uncle, Daisy." Jaehyun stitter and caress her tiny soft hair.

"How about uncle nana?" you let out a laugh when Jaemin rushed over the place and went on the older's back, looking at Daisy who was still laughing. "Daisy also loves uncle nana right?" he gave your youngest the cutest smile he can offer.

Jaemin had himself whining loudly when Daisy avoided his gaze went on looking at Jaehyun, high pitch giggles heard across the room. The answer was quite obvious to Jaemin ans it stings his heart for a bit, whining more loudly when Daisy cupped Jaehyun's dimpled cheek.

Jaehyun giggled on hearin the younger's whine but continue to entertain the baby he is holding, a bread smile showing as Daisy was asmused at his presence. You looked up to the two, pouting at how Jaehyun manages to get Daisy's attention easily and you, the mother of the kid having such time to do so. "Maybe Daisy just loves me that much, don't dwell on that too much sis, she still loves you." he answered your thoughts, giving you comforting words as his focus is on making a little one happy.

Jaemin let put a huff before he proceed on finding Yangyang, making you and Jaehyun alone at the living room. You and your older brother sat down at the couch, catching up since it's been months you saw him. You kept worrying about him since, you know how stressful work is plus he has a girlfriend that he loves and take care of but you really appreciate the effort of him being there for you when you needed him the most.

"Noona," Your eyes trailed back to Jaemin, who has Yangyang beside him. He gave you a sweet wide smile and speak as he told. "Since you and hyung miss each other, me and Yangyang decided to take care of the twins while we finalize our powerpoint presentation." he suggested, throwing a hand on the Yangyang's shoulder.

"Are you guys sure?" you asked, doubting the idea of the younger. It's not that you don't trust the two males on taking care of the twins (they are very capable of doing so and you're proud of them.) but you didn't like the idea of you being separate from your kids, it's a worrisome thing for you to do. "I can bring the twins with me since Jaehyun is around and I don't want you two to stress out from taking care of them and flourishing your powerpoint."

You sat down on the couch and for seven minutes, you were listening on Jaemin and Yangyang's discussion on why you should leave the twins with them and spend time with Jaehyun freely. You find yourself pretty impressed on hearing the clear points the two made as if they were discussing their thesis and defending their stand. You were all ears, smiles showing through time to time. The way the two deliver their reasons is briefly astonishing, guess college taught them well and you were persuaded pretty good and in the end, you agreed on it.

You went upstairs and get yourself dressed up and went down after, pouting at the sight of your twins playing at the puzzle mat, not looking at you since the two youngsters were playing with them. You kneeled down and hug your twins, placing soft kisses on their foreheads and mumbling how much you love them. The twins are the reason you're still striving your best to live and take care of them.

"If anything goes wrong, call me okay?" you shot your eyes at the two youngsters, giving them a soft look as your hand travels on Dopyo's hand, intertwining it because of your prince standing up. You stand up and saw Dopyo staring at you, frowning. You can sense at his innocent eyes that he didn't want you to leave. He looked down, his head cocked to the side, and saw his twin sister playing with Yangyang and Jaemin. He then let go of your hands and went back to playing, now forgetting that you were about to go.

You didn't bother to say goodbye to your twins because if you do, they'll probably end up crying as they saw you leave. You and Jaehyun glanced at the four one last time before proceeding to the human realm.

You and Jaehyun were walking around the city, sipping to the drinks you two ordered. You were listening to Jaehyun's story about his work earlier, releasing his stress as he sigh loudly. You know that the work he have before is beyond different to the job he has now, it was a hard adjust to him since he didn't get a short training and directly started working. You know how hard the new assignment he has right now.

since, it was Doyoung's job before...

You shake your head and sigh, thought suddenly catching the picture of the twins in your mind. You started to feel worried. It was the first time you leave your twins and be separated by them and you can't help but to feel anxious. You were finding it quite odd for you to be this concern for no reason when you know that the twins are fine and maybe, it's just a mother instinct that you need to be used to it.

"The kids are fine y/n, please don't worry that much." Jaehyun read your mind and give you reassurance, a hand travelling to your shoulder and placing it there. You can see how cute his pout is, puffing his cheeks like a little baby. "You should really have a day off with them and loosen up, sis." he suggested, eyeing on you with concern.

"But what if something bad happens?" you mumbled, a sigh ghosting in your lips. It's not that you wanted something to happen, you love your kids and will always protect them at all cost but you were anxious on being separate with them, all through the year, you were pretty used on being with your twins 24/7 and you know that you shouldn't dwell that much since when they turn three, you will send them to preschool. You shouldn't worry that much but you just can't help it. "C-can we just go back for a good second?"

Jaehyun stop walking and face you, both hands on your shoulder. "y/n, nothing will happen to the twins, Kun and Ten is at the house so please stop worrying." he stated, eyes staring at you in a serious gaze. He knows how hard it is for you to be a mother since, you have no one to ask advises with and it was your first time. It was hard to raise them on your own, but you were glad that Jaehyun, Ten and anyone you are close with is there for you and helping you out. "we all know that everyone loves the twins and don't want them to be at harm so, please atleast for one day, chillax with me?" he asked softly. What he said was a fact, everyone loved the twins so much, you sometimes have your day preoccupied with some neos visiting at times, checking up on you and playing with the two kids.

Well, he was right, you really need to loosen a bit since you barely enjoy sleeping and your life in general. You were focusing on the twins and not really having a time with yourself since if you do give yourself time, you ended up remembering him and missing him badly.

It's not that you didn't want to, of course you will keep the memory of him and carry it in your heart for a lifetime. You don't want to find anyone else except for him, because for you, he's beyond enough. You have no guts nor courage to replace him at all.

But, you wanted to move on and stop crying about him being gone. You still blame yourself from happened even if you know that it wasn't your fault.

You wanted to move on, to accept that he's gone but a big part of you still wanted to hope that, he'll comeback.

You were anticipating for him to comeback, you were hoping for the impossible.

You knew that he's already doing good in the underworld.

Jaehyun read every thought you have and sigh, he knew it was hard for you to move on since, you have kids with him. But he's going to do his best to make this day with him fun and make you smile. Jaehyun really loves you trully, he really wanted to have a sister and was very delightful to have you, very delighted that he treats you so dearly, you were annoyed at times when he treats you like a little girl despite of having kids already but you let him be since, he really loves you and will make up for the times when you feel alone during your younger days.

He cling into your left arm and walked with you, his dimples showing as he smile, making cute noises as you two roamed around. Despite of being the oldest, you are finding him so adorable. He acts childish and still manage to be a good older brother to you. Another reason your annoyance on him babying you because you can't resist how cute he acts.

He shows you around the city while finish his drink, telling another round of stories he randomly thought of telling you. Jaehyun was a funny guy, you finding yourself laughing at whatever he's saying and his laugh makes you want to laugh too.

The topic ended up with your twins, you and Jaehyun had a great talk at how you two adore the little ones and mostly, Jaehyun giving advice how to get Daisy's attention since he always gets her's.

"Hey Jae," you called him out, eyes flustering in curiousity. "When will I know the breed of the twins?" you asked. You know it was possible to have them as vampires or halves but you don't know when to detect them. You were still curious if you really are a human or not after knowing your dad is a vampire.

Jaehyun blink his eyes a few times before he placed an idex finger onto his parted plushy lips, he never could have thought of it before you actually open up about the topic."I never thought about that but, since I'm a special type of half, I found out about my breed when I was in my early twenties." he mumbled, suddenly stop walking as he think about it.

"But in general, you can find their true breeds around the age of two to five." He answered, eyes fixed at you with a serious gaze. He then judged you by looking at you from head to toe. "I'm really unsure about the breeds of the two since, I highly doubt you being a full blooded human, y/n."

"Wait so there's a chance I'll be a half or a vampire?"

"Of course there's a chance sis." he answered, in a stony tone. "It's either your parents have the blood on the given breed or you get bitten by a vampire."

You quietly nod. You know that he  bit you once but nothing happened at all, and that's extremely weird.

You then question your true form and started wondering if upon why you were a human blooded being.  You were into deep thoughts, trying to do a punnet square on your genes but Jaehyun had to speak up making you look at him.

"y/n, let's go to that amusement park, it looks fun!"  he happily cheered and cling into you, acting like a little kid that is persuading you to go with him. He let out a pout, charms fully in display as he convinced you with it. You couldn't take his cuteness, agreeing with his idea because you have nothing to do at all. You looked on where his hand was pointing at and you felt your world stop on realization, it was the same amusement park that Doyoung brought you before.

Seeing the park made you remember every moment you spend time with him there, he was being too nice and too rude at the same time, his beautiful gummy smile that was widely shown when you won the pillow that was still om his room until now, the polaroids that you and Doyoung shared and take a lot of pictures, played a lot of games and Doyoung being a menace he is and making you avenge yourself on the guy who called you short.

It was the old good times and you can't help but to feel your heart being smashed by a hammer. You just miss, missing him when he was still alive.

You were called out by a panicking Jung upon realization you were already tearing up, eyes glossy and tears escaping your eye. "y/n..." he frowned. He didn't know that you and Doyoung once visited the said park. He could have known it if it will make you fall apart so badly. "hey, it's alright to be emotional sis. I'm here."

"There's too many people here Jae." you whispered and tried not to cry more as you wipe your tears. "I-i'm fine." you said, lying to yourself for the nth time of the day.

"I got your back, I can give you my red hoodie and wear that coat of yours. If you're worried about people seeing you cry." he suggested and slowly grab your arm to slowly guide you into a bench. He gently pulled you down to sit beside him. He remove his hoodie and only have a black T-shirt with him. He gave it to you, helping you to remove the beige colored coat you were wearing. He then put the coat onto him and stare at you, with concern.

You wore his hoodie and it smelled like actual peaches, since he is one. You let out a  sigh, you were trying your best to pass over your feelings and didn't want to ruin your day with your brother.

"y/n, I won't enjoy the day too if I see my little sister like this and I'm not being a brother to you. It's fine y/n, you can breakdown here if you want, I'm here." he assured with a serious tone, shifting forward to you and giving you a soul stirring hug, you felt your heart getting heavy and the memories of him couldn't stop from visiting you.

In an instant, you find yourself sobbing silently on his arms and covering your face with a hood. From crying your heart out, you can hear Jaehyun sighing and patting your back, mumbles here and there and assuring you it's alright to cry.

You started speaking on your feelings with full transparency. From the guilt you've been carrying for two years, for the nights you cried yourself to sleep, from spacing out as you watch the twins. Everyday, you seem to go back from square one, trying to move on but you know you can't.

It was difficult and you never know how to pick yourself up to start off without him.

"y/n," you slowly push yourself away from the older and stared up at him, your eyes glistering with pain and misery. Jaehyun look at the coat for a brief second before returning the sight to you. "I actually find this coat exteremely familiar..." 

"It's because it's his Jaehyun." you explained in sniffs, looking at the coat. You always seem to recall how frequent he wear it as if it was the only coat he owns. You somehow thought that maybe it was his favorite. "I wear his clothes when I get the urge to miss h-him." you admitted, you wear his clothes every now and then, hoping you can feel his presence but you were keeping your hopes up high from disappointing yourself all over again.

Jaehyun sighed from who knows how many, he cupped your face and bump his forehead into yours, eyes fluttering with concern with your misery ones. "I know that you've been acting strong for the kids and I just want to say you're doing great but, that doesn't mean you maintain having a strong aura."

"It's okay to be weak at times sis, especially when you feel everything feels so wrong. You can't just keep everything for yourself. You know what will happen