-Your POV-

"So we need different size stirophome balls and paint and all of that" I say and grab a basket "Okay, where's the crafts isle?" Finn asks

"Right there" I point and we walk over, "stirophome balls are right here" Finn says

I take some and feel a ball hit my head, I turn around and see finn giggling like a little kid.

I pick it up and throw it back at him, we grab different sizes and go over to the paints

"So we need red, blue, green, white blah blah blah" I say, we grabbed the paints and dumped them in there.

"Look I'm Ms.Rogers" Finn says grabbing a mustache "Stoppp" I chuckled.

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We payed for the stuff and skating over to the gas station.

"So uh why are you so scared of me?" Finn asked as we walked out the gas station with some snacks and drinks.

"I'm not scared of you" I said. Finn walked closer to me obviously I stepped back. "see you are" he smirked. "its nothing finn" I sighed.

"Um okay, is it because of your dad?" "wait what? how do you know that?" I ask "I heard you mumble something in your bathroom that I remind you of your dad or something like that" he said.

"You were eavesdropping?!" "Well you were taking long!" "Oh my god, that's why you're being weird and nice you know about my dad and now you're gonna torture me about it! Why am I even here with you? I fucking hate you, I'm going home"

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I silently walk into the house and quickly ran to my room and broke down.

This can't be happening, Finn knows he can't know, I was so stupid for letting myself go with him.

I thought moving here and escaping my crazy father and escaping that pain but I didn't. Finn was like a teenage version of my dad.

I thought this feeling my dad gave me was going to go away, but it didn't. I only knew one way to numb the pain.

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I dug my nails into my skin. it hurt but it wasn't enough. I got up and grabbed something sharp from my desk.

I closed my eyes and cut my wrist. everything just came back to me.

Blood came out, I looked down at it and cut more, I put my head against the wall and cried.

-Finns POV-

I got home and looked outside my window and saw y/n crying.

I saw her get up and grab something and put it on her wrist.  I quickly ran downstairs put on my shoes and ran out the door to her house

I quickly knocked on the door and her mom opened it.

"Hi Ms.L/N is y/n here?" I ask "yeah she's upstairs" her mom says and I quickly run up the stairs

I heard crying and I opened the door making it hit the wall, I kneeled down on the floor where she was and grabbed her hand throwing the object across the room

"Finn w-what are you- doing here-?" She said between sobs "why are you doing this!" I ask and pull her into my arms

She sobbed into my shoulder and I held her, I totally forgot about everything I just hugged her

"I hate my life, I hate everything, I hate you" she sobbed out.

-YOUR POV-

The door swung open, it was Finn. He grabbed the object out of my hand and threw it across the room

Next thing I know I sobbing into his shoulder, he held me close to him, I hated this but he was here

"I hate my life, I hate everything, I hate you" I sobbed.

"I wanna die I just want to leave" I say "shhh shh" Finn says and stroking my hair

We just sat there in silence, I didn't know what was happening but I just let it happen. I stopped crying, and awkwardly pulled away.

"Y/n... why are you hurting yourself?" Finn asks "You" I say, "Me?" Finn asks

"Yeah you because you make feel like shit like how my dad did!" I pushed him "My dad didn't treat me with love, he treated me like garbage, he was always drunk and told me I was useless and no one would ever want me! He hurt me okay I moved to get away from him and now I met you and you are just like him! You remind me of him!" I yelled.

"I didn't know i-" "yeah you didn't know, and that's why you shouldn't bully people because you don't know their home life or past"

"I'm sorry I-" "No this is a joke you're just a-acting nice for fun but then you'll just go back to your horrible self"

"Y/n just shut up and let me help you" Finn say "how? Make the pain go away in a snap?" I ask "hit me" he said.

"What?" I ask "Just do it." He says

I push him aggressively making me stumble back "You can do better" He says, push even harder and punch his shoulder and slap his face

"There you go!" Finn exclaims "Hit me harder" Finn says

is this guy a masochist or some shit-

I nod, and push him once again making him fall back on my bed

"Okay I think that's enough"  finn groaned. I hit his shoulders and kicked him in the balls making him groan out in pain. "okay, I think that's enough"

"are you okay" I asked. "yeah I'm fine don't worry, are you okay" "yeah I'll be fine, you can leave" "no you just hurt yourself, i wanna make sure you're okay" "well I'm going to sleep"

I  crawled into bed and turned my back away from him and slowly fell asleep.

-Finns POV-

I sat at y/n's desk staring into space, chilling as she falls asleep.

I looked over to see she's sleeping, I so was going to regret what I was about to do

I walked over and softly kissed her head and walked out the door.

I think I've caught feelings for y/n.

But then I remembered what Jaeden, Wyatt, Jack and I decided to do. I don't think I'll be faking

This might be real...

A/N what was thisssss I don't even knowww it feels rushed😕. I'm sorry if you've gone through this before please dont come at me for this I put a trigger warning :)