My heart was torn into pieces this last month was a hellfire. But in everything I got back to what I enjoyed which was art. I loved art ever since I was little. Things weren't so bad now. I was healing. Most of the time if I weren't at the bodega, school, or with Maliik. I was by myself. I was getting my money and minding my business. I even bought myself a pair of shoes. I wasn't thing about all that happened. Over weeks Eli's funeral had come up. I had to go. Even though I barely knew his family I knew it was the right thing to do. I was told to speak. His family thought it was the thing he would .want. The night before the funeral I was writing like crazy I went through three pages of paper already. If I wasn't tearing papers due to the stress or the eraser going through the page because of the number of times I erased the same spot. I was crying. Even though I was going to therapy because of a series of unfortunate events. I couldn't mentally get over it. Everything was very hard to process.
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The next day at the funeral everyone has
paying their condolences to the family I paid my condolences to the Hughes and went to my seat. I was with my family except for Kay who was too young and she had school that day. It was a closed casket. The family spoke then it was my turn. I was very nervous. I felt everyone's eyes on me.
"Hello everyone, I know today is a very sad day as we mourn the death of Eli Hughes. Who was my boyfriend. I loved him very much and I do appreciate the limited time we had together. He was a smart young man and he deserved the world. He always tried to make everyone better. He was a caring young man with a love for Spiderman and action figures. The night he died he was over at my house and when he came over he would play with my little sister and help my mother with dinner. He told me that night that the next day he was going to introduce me to his mother and family. Sadly even though he isn't here with us currently I just wanted to say that Mr and Mrs. Hughes you have raised an amazing man. And even though we are separated physically doesn't mean that we aren't separated mentally. Thank you" I was crying mid-speech. They were all clapping tears rolling down my face.
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After the funeral, we went home and I took a shower and was now burning an incense and listening to Kendrick Lamar. "Knock knock" I looked at my door. "Hey Chrissy," She sat down next to me and looked at the design I was sketching. "Is that a new taggggg?" she said smirking. "It looks nice."  I looked at it sideways it was better than the one before. "Thanks I figured it was time for an upgrade." she sat down on my bed. "I just wanted to say that what you did out there was very brave of you. You held up and tried not to break down." I stopped working on my art to listen to her. "That takes guts Y/N, and even though he's not here with us right now I know he would be happy. Keep up the good work lil sis you are in  charge."  She patted me on the shoulder and then walked out of my room. She was right. I dropped Kay off at the bodega with Mom and I walked off to the spot where I started all of this.  "The spot where I met Eli"
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I painted until my finger had an indent from the amount of time it was pressed on the nozzle. "Nice memorial" a familiar voice had spoken from the darkness. "I should know I made one about my uncle when I was 13" He walked out from the black abyss. "Oh, sorry for your loss Miles."
He scratched the back of his head. He was wearing his spider suit and he got a new haircut.
damn he looked so good
I had to get the thought out of my mind I turned around and kept painting.
"You got some more stuff you're gonna throw up? Or is this just a last little thing before going back into retirement?" He smirked while he wrote the sentence. I rolled my eyes "This is just my way of celebrating him. His funeral was today..." It got silent as I put the spray can down. I looked down at my feet feeling the surge of tears coming. Just then I feel two arms embrace me in a tight bear hug. "I know how you feel Y/N" I hug Miles back. "He was so young everything was so soon." He hugged me tighter. "Come on let's get your stuff I don't want you to cry your heart out next to rats and roaches."
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We went to Miles's house. "Mami, I'm home!" He walked into the kitchen "Ai! Mijo." she higher him. I walked into their kitchen. "Hello Y/N! Long time no see. I have to get food for dinner. So you two will be alone. Is that ok?"
"Yes, Mom that's alright."
"No fooling around. Bye!"
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We entered Miles's room, sat down on his bed, and just stared at a wall. Well, at least I did. Miles was too busy gawking at the side of my face. "You know I can see you right?"
"Sorry-"
I chuckled a little bit. "You know what helped me with me loss of my uncle? Staying busy" I looked at him like he was a genius."I have been staying busy-" I did a quick elbow jab in his arm. "It has been working. You know a lot for someone who doesn't love me anymore." He attached his head. He looked off into the side window. "About that Y/N. I'm so sorry about how I ended things with you. It was shitty of me and I regret everything I said, I'm sorry." Miles took our hands into each other.
"Y/N L/N I love you as I always will. I have loved you since the moment I first saw you singing 'Empire State of Mind' You will always be the love of my life and no one else can change that." I didn't know what to say. I knew it was coming but it was too soon. "Miles I- I can't do this right now it's not you it's me. With everything bc going on I just can't think about falling in love with you. Or anyone in that matter." He sighed. He knew it was coming. "Maybe we can be friends?"
"Platonic only."
"well can i do this before we make that big step into healing our relationship?"
I shook my head yes. Miles leaned in and closed his eyes. He whispered
"I'm gonna be your boyfriend weather you like it or not"
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JUST A LITTLE BIT
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