{𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 0.4}
BEST FOR THE FAMILY

  "we almost made it, we should have."

-𝐮.𝐤

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WE ARRIVED  back at the institute Izzy and Jace headed to their room's Alec headed to his office to heal his wound after contemplating on if I should follow after about 5 minutes I walked into his office closing the door behind  me when I turned around to face him his shirt was halfway off making his abs visible he looked up at me.I guess you could say that I was stunned to speak I walk over to him and grab gauze and bandages.

"Need a hand?" I asked, raising a brow he simply gave me a smile. "You don't have to do this" Alec hesitated, looking at me as I cleaned his wound he whined a bit. "And if I want to?"

"Then.. I guess I'm a lucky guy." He comments with a smile.

Smiling as he continued to stare at me. It kinda distracted me. I was finished cleaning him up and I was beginning to get up to walk out the door when I felt him grab my wrist. He pulled me back around to face him. He pulls me closer. We were only a few inches away from one another.

He pulls me in even closer, attaching our lips. He grabbed my thighs pulling me around his waist. My stomach had turned into a galaxy of shooting stars which reminded me of one of my dad's favorite poet's quotes;  "𝑇ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑏𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑐ℎ," 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑦'𝑟𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 stars.''

Knowing no one could deny the obvious chemistry between Alec and I, Izzy Saids you senses it as soon as you step into a room with us. It's true Alec and my new friends were my reason to smile again before,  I found nothing but the dread of waking up everyday after my dad died. I thought I had nothing to live for, nothing to look forward to each day.

Alec pulls back a bit to speak; "I—I just could just destroy my life without doing this" he breathed.

"Doing what?" I asked kissing him. "....I really like you..Christina..maybe even more than that."

" I like you too..Alec more than think we both know." I state, look into his eyes.

Alec told me how he felt...the same as I. I couldn't help but think about my father. I hadn't really considered love, nor letting myself down get emotionally attached to someone else..i just couldn't yet here I was. Mother Teresa said " I have found the paradox..that if you love until it hurts,there can be no more hurt, only more love." By the angle be right..i'm sick of the hurt.

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"Chris," He trailed on as I kissed him. "There's something I need to tell u" I heard him say, ''I've been wanting to do this since the day I met him. I didn't need anymore words...at least not at this moment.

"Uh-hu" I reply incoherently, my fingers going and playing threw his jet black hair. "Are you even listening?" He asked, for my reaction.

"Sure" I breathed, wrapping my hands around his cheeks. I took off my jacket caught up completely in the moment, forgetting about how my mom would feel about what I was doing. I was finally doing something I wanted to do. Daring to defy the Diana Blackthorn.

"I'm engaged!" He shout as was kissed I felt stupid in the moment are you kidding me? Is this really happening?  I thought. "You're joking..right?" I question, staring into his eyes searching for some sort of im kidding guilt only to find..that he was telling the truth. Pulling away from him he got up and rushed over to me. As I looked into his eyes once more I couldn't tell you what I saw.

Walked past him grabbing my jacket and putting it  back on "Chris wai-" I almost smacked him right then and there the nerve of him to think that he could call me that after him kissing me and then telling me he was engaged.

"𝐍𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐓 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓" I spat at him holding back a river of tears that wanted to consume me and flow down my face.

"𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐓 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆" I spat with more venom in my words then before.

""𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔?-𝐈 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐀-" I shouted I could let myself finish my sentence the tears were being to run as I ran out his office.

He ran after me "Chris! Please he called out, chasing me to my bedroom door which I slammed in his face without hesitation. All I wanted at that moment was to cry in my dad's arms once more. "I broke down that wall ..for him—maybe my mother was right, love will be my downfall."  

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I woke up the next morning. I got dressed; gray blazer and pants set with a white bodysuit underneath. I grabbed my bags and called Mags for a portal...my mother wanted me to stay until I learned how to run an institute..I've learned love hurts and I'm done being hurt.

I walked through the portal to see my home, the Los Angeles institute. My mom and sister greeted me as I entered the institute.

"Christina, your home..!" Roslyn exclaimed, giving me a hug but was confused as to why I was back so soon.

"Have you learned?" My mother asked in a stern tone.

"Yes mother..you were right, love hurts you and if you're hurt  you can't run an institute luckily I'm ready to give my all for the institute. You can't give it your all with your heart. " I state  taking a deep breath when I saw my sister was disappointed and couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"I'm happy to hear that Christina"she insured, bringing me in and kissing my forehead before walking away. My sister walked towards me grabbing my hand.

"What are you doing Chris?" "Something happened with you and Alec?"

"I'm doing what's right for the BlackThorn name,the family." I inform, avoiding her Alec question.

"Bull" She spat "Something happened"

"That's irrelevant I'm dedicated to spending the rest of my life running this institute it's what da-" I started "𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐓 you say it!" Dad would want you to be happy. She shouts just loud enough for me to hear her. Not spending the rest of your life loveless, alone in this place.

"Pain changes people" I say holding back my tears at her words she was right my father wouldn't have wanted me to give up on love but out of 3.97 billion I...I only wanted one but I'd rather give up on love then saying forever to Alec LightWood and it being a lie. It was like everything I love, I lost through death, lost love.

"Oh we know that first hand look at mom..so you're going to be a heartless loveless vampire running an institute?" She asked as she scoffed and looked at me.

"You know Chris.. I still remember you as a little girl. When you could figure out a skill you would work on it until your knuckles were bruised..even as a little girl you were a fighter who loved harder and that's why you fought."

The tears I had been holding back finally rolled down. "Alec LightWood means nothing to me." I insisted , wiping the tears that fell from my eyes and walking away from her.

Thank youuuu sm too everyone who has commented and just read these few chapters it truly means sm too me !! 💓😫

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