Glancing on the left to the right, I perfectly  swatted my hair to my back without touching it as I held on the boquet on my hands tightly. My head is spinning and I felt like throwing up from the nervousness I felt.

Today is the day that I would walk down the aisle in a white gown but today is far from what I pictured that I will experience. With an updo hair and twinkling earrings and necklace, the not so bright smile I had on my lips are faltering.

"I've always wanted to walk in the aisle for a first time as a bride. That's why I avoid getting picked as bride's maid or maid of honor," I informed Meg whilst brushing my hair on the vanity mirror.

Meg has doing a part-time job as a wedding coordinator. She always spent time doing things at the wedding which I always envy. She just brought a new set of brochure with new gowns on it.

The cousin of my boyfriend, stares back at me—frowning a little from my dramatic illusion, "Y/n I am really not against on your wedding fantasy or what, but are you really sure that you're gonna settle on..."

"On what, Meg?" I rolled my eyes as our gaze meet on the mirror.

"A trust fund prick?" she continued, victoriously smirking when she witness how quick I grimace, "You should really get used on this asshit words Y/n. I was even suprise that 'til now you are still giving some respect to the Thrombey-Drysdales despite your knowledge about what and who they are,"

"Meg, I don't tolerate things that you've been calling my boyfriend and... I may be respecting Ransom's Mom but it doesn't mean that I am not defending my boyfriend. You might even forgot that you're also a Drysdale," I raise the two fingers in each right and left of my fingers as I move it up and down.

Meg fell into a silence as she layed on my bed, murmuring something I can't heard. The small friendship I made with Meg is sometimes adorable and occasionally stressing. 'Cause when we talked things it's either she'd up up cursing or insulting Ransom which causes a small problem.

"Okay fine, what ever you want." I heard Meg, sorrowly stated after a few minute of silence, "You've just graduated on college yet you're already thinking about your life few years from now. Weird but what can I do? You're my friend,"
"Ahhh!" I slightly squel on my seat when a brochure landed on my lap unexpectedly, "What is this?" I inquire without looking up as I scanned each pages with so much focus, "Oh, t-thankyou." I stutteredly added as I was astonish on the clothes that I am staring at.

The white gowns with different designs and shape are amazingly dazzling in elegance as all of it screams passion in love. I can feel my eyes twinkling in joy whilst I run a hand on each of them, Imagining my self wearing it.

I may be got lost in day dream because instead of startling by Meg's words, I was suprise by a presence I didn't look forward yet. A three knock on the door made me jump a little along with my furrowed brows, my head shifted from what I am spending my time with.

"Ouch!" A fake hurt scoff was slipped out from the pink lips of my boyfriend, he looks offended on how I react seeing him. "Wow, I guess I am not welcome here. Don't I?"

I gasp and jump out of my seat, settling the brochure aside before running on the door where Ransom is about to leave. Touching his arm lightly, I looked up with puppy eyes.

"I'm sorry," I softly speak, pouting a little but Ransom only look away and tsk. "I love you," I cooed him fondly because I know that he would give in when he knows that he was treated like a baby.

With furrowed brows and twitching lips, Ransom tried so hard to not smile on my words but he failed, "I love you."

I then laugh so hard when he blushed however Ransom doesn't accept defeat without a fight, that's why when he try to place his fingers on my side waist and tummy I immediately squirm away ready to run for his tickle.

"Come on baby, come back." The panting voice of Ransom was husky and addicting but I only stick my tongue out on him leaving him behind as I forgot that I left the brochure in the room, laying obviously on my table.

The ringing bell of church awake me from my reverie. I was staring back at my self on a vanity mirror, searching for the missing piece I has been seeking.

"Everything will be alright," Meg walks out from nowhere as I watch her on the mirror whilst she moves. She then stopped behind me whilst placing her hands on my shoulder at the same time, "You can do this." she smile before squeezing my flesh a little.

I didn't respond on her but I faint a smile and nodded. I should, I would—I need to.

•RANSOM DRYSDALE•

Witnessing on how gorgeous and breath taking she is. My eyes watered once I saw Y/n get out on the wooden door that seperates her to the altar on where I am standing.

Everyone says that you'd picture your wedding one someone when you know that she is the right one. It may be cliche to be heard but I started  picture it when I was young.

Y/n is the kind of girl that is very independent, she can do everything on her own and that scares the shit out of me. I am scared that she'd live happily without me, she'd  grow more if I wasn't on the picture. I am afraid to lose her and I am terrified to know if she does not feel the same.

Growing up in a love less marriage, I actually never imagine that I could love and be love. Everything that happens in my life since I was a kid is like a night mare except the fact that I had a princess who's always there to save the helpless me.

It's just sad to think that I may never had a chance to see her walking down to me as his groom yet atleast I saw her in the middle of the church with everyone we know as  a best man.

An earth shattering slapped was all I get after how many tries on calling Y/n out in our shared house. 

Mrs. Evans is gazing me with big wild and rageful eyes and this is just new from me because I haven't see her mad like this to anyone, she's usually a calm and sweet woman.

"I-I, what did I do?" I confusedly inquire as I stare back at my girlfriend's Mom, "T-Trust me, I am only here to apologize about the-"

"Affair you had?" Mrs. Evans continued my words whilst I stood in front of her with agape mouth, "You're surprised aren't you?" she raises her brows before scowling at me, "How dare you coming here to ask for forgiveness when you decided to cheat. How dare you to stepped in this house pretending like you know nothing."

I just accept and received the all screaming and throwing fist that the older Evans gave me. Even her hits sometimes pains me I still let her do it without any complaints.

"MOM, STOP THAT! YOU ARE HURTING HIM!"

A relieve sigh immediately leave my breath once Mrs. Evans move away from me and as I saw Y/n beside the door watching the commotion with sad eyes. "Ransom," she acknowledge me by nodding before she glance at her mother wit pleading orbs, "You can now  leave us Mom. Ransom and I should talk-"

"But, Y/n. You know what, did this man did to you." her mom argue, "Maybe because it runs through their blood. That he is like his father, a certified cheater and stupid!" she paused before yelling once again, "I should not supposed to agree with you to be with my daughter because you are nothing but a disappointment! I should have known better, I should-"

My eyes started to water as I listens to the words that Mrs. Evans describe me. Since I was a kid, I was looking up on her to be more like a mother and it just hurts to know on how  she thinks differently on me without giving me chance to clear my self.

I don't know why did they acted like I have done something to break their trust because as long as I know, I never cheated on Y/n.
"MOM! HAVEN'T YOU HEARD ANY WORD THAT I SAID? GIVE US SOME TIME TO SPEAK, PLEASE." she stated before pausing, "I am begging you..." and when she continued  this time it's in a soft manner.

Glancing from her daughter back to me repeatedly, Mrs. Evans dropped her attitude as she turned her back on us after sending me a death glare. The two of us remain in quiet manner, awkwardly standing up next to each other.

After a few minutes of earning a courage, I cleared my throat before meeting her eyes that is staring back at me but with sorrow and sadness.

"Baby—" I call her before scolding my self a little, "I-I mean Y/n. I'm sorry if I didn't follow you immediately when you leave, I just wanted to give you a space to think  but at the same time when you were  gone I instantly fixed the thing about Julia-"

The soft voice of the woman I love cutted me off when she spoke directly, holding her gaze unto mine with small smile on her lips. "I want us to have some time to talk not because I wanted us to be together again." she utter sadly as I felt my hands shakes in disbelief.

I was screaming no in my head yet still letting her to continue. Calming my self that, she won't cut everything we had. That I am just expecting a bad news but what she'd gonna tell me is the opposite. I am in battle in denial when I witness Y/n remove her engagement ring on her finger, everything went in slow-mo.

"but because, I wanted us to be okay before I end things. I love you Ran, I do and I am still inlove with you yet loving you isn't an enough reason to risk. You hurted me once and I don't want to be on that position again. I could only hope that you'll respected this decision of mine as you won't force me to things I don't."

Y/n explain to me in a low voice manner, twirling the ring on her hands and tears are about to cascade on her beautiful face.

"Thankyou for everything you've done to me and thankyou for loving me. I know that there's a reason on why you did it and I also know that you wanted to explain your self but right now is isn't the right time because even what you did is reasonable enough or not, my ears are not open to your any words." my girlfriend bit her lower lip blinking her eyes away, "So, just save our selves from more heart aches." is the last thing I heard from her before I felt the coldness on my palm and a lingering kiss on my cheek.

I don't know if how many minutes or hours that I am standing on the close door of our shared house but I know that I am crying in the outside for eternity. Before leaving the place, I glance on the window of Y/n's room just to see her peeking on it and when our eyes met, she looked away and closed her curtains.

This is the first time I saw her since then, since before I send her the letter of my apologies few months before this day when I figure from my cousin that she heard and witness Joni and my Mother doing a sneaky thing behind my back that causes my whole life to fall apart.

"She looks so good," I heard the person next to me praise Y/n as I just rolled my tounge over my lips.

"She always is,"

•Y/N EVANS•

It's in the middle of April of the summer when a red letter from Boston was delivered to my parents cabin where we stayed for vacation. Three months had already passed since Ransom and I's broke-up and as expected, I haven't heard anything from him and that's okay for the both of us.

The time we had a part made me realize how inlove I am on him yet it also made me understand that what I did in turning his explanation down is right because I won't be openly ready to start again and love him whole heartedly when I don't trust him like before and it would be totally unfair on his side.

"Y/n, sweet heart... come on the brunch is ready!" The loud scream from my mother in the kitchen made me look away from the card as I glance on the sliding door where her head is peeking a little, "Ms. Evans?"
Shooking my head at my Mom, I forced a smile at her whilst intently gazing on her beautiful face. The words she'd been throwing in Ransom on that day repeatedly move through my head like as if it was dancing over and over again.

When she said it, I know that it causes an emotional damage to Ransom and especially to me. I never expected her to burst like it because she was never that kind of person. We also had a fight after he said it on him knowing that Ransom treated her like a Mother and Ransom grows up being abused emotionally.

Until now there's still some tension between us if the topic is about Ransom. My Mom and I haven't got along since then and it was for everyone's sake.

"I'll just follow on the dining later. Gonna check some important thing first," I respond before returning my attention back on the card. Even my fingers are trembling slightly, I stilled and open it slowly.

Dear My love,
I know that you are not expecting this since I never showed my self on you for the past months. I have been searching about the truth on the cheating issue your Mother think that she said that I did and I supposed you also think about it that I done that awful thing. Y/n, I cannot blame you at the first place when you started having doubts about my faithfulness and loyalty because I was the reason of it from the start. I did make you skeptical and I truly regretted it 'til today.

Julia was just a friend of mine and I may never realize that I am crossing too much boundaries with her yet the intention of my actions are purely innocent. I thought that I could do the thing you always did to me when I got no one to run however it turns out differently from what I expected.

Three months. It took me three months before figuring out that my Mother and Joni are the persons behind the scheme. I don't know on why they want me to have a miserable life like them. The picture you saw was different and far from reality, we never kissed. I never kissed anyone, I didn't cheat, I never cheated.

I am not mad or anything but if you're open or when you're ready to sort some things out. I don't know, maybe to try again? I want to? Yes but if you don't want anything to do again with me it's fine. I wanted to clear my name for you because I don't like when you think differently of me. I love you always baby.

From your bestfriend, Ransom.

As I flawlessly walk in between of two sides that are full of people, my eyes are fixed to the man in a black tuxedo with fresh shaven jaw and slick back hair. It feels like I am floating beside the clouds everytime I saw his face, living the dream that I always crave.

Yet everything stops when our eyes meet half-way, making me flinch from the friction that made by the eye contact. Removing my stare at him. I continue walking down 'til I stopped at the front before seating on the chair on the first row and I followed the bride's maid.

•RANSOM DRYSDALE•

The reception of Meg's wedding was fantastic, the whole view of the city can be seen as we all sat down on the top of the hill whilst  Joni is leading the event with her usual attitude that only irritates people.

Shoving my hands on my pocket, I stared at the wonderful scenery before me when a familiar scent of vanilla and coconut filled my nose then once I lifted my head to look beside me, a scent of familiarity engulfed my whole senses.

"The sunset looks beautiful, isn't it?" she, the woman who caught my eyes smile with her white teeth appeared at the process made my jaw fall. Even though I wanted to touch her and kissed her with passion, my body frozes in place and I felt like I am a hanging computer. "I miss our small moments like this," the confession added to my overwhelmed feelings making my heart erratically beat.

"Ransom, I missed you." Y/n confessed shyly but she still held her elegance whilst doing so, "Have you missed me too?"

Everything turn in slow-mo as soon as her pink perfect soft lips touches mine when the sparkling light of the fire works covers us from above. It was perfect, everything felt surreal yet happy ending isn't really for me.

"Ransom?"

Y/n and I pulled away from a kiss when our attention for each other was taken by an another voice of  a woman. Glancing at my back, I immediately muttered a curse as soon as the line of my sight was dropped on the blonde woman that is wearing a tight dress that probably would annoy my girlfriend—Ex—Y/n.

"Shiella, what are you doing here?" I confusedly inquire whilst running my hand on my jaw stressedly. Shiella is my date that was picked by my evil spawn mother, trying to force me with everyone although I always tried to say no yet she use the card of 'I would talk to Y/n about the issue with Julia and I'll admit to her'.

Which brings me here in the situation I am trying hard to not be and my instincts were right, my mother is really a trouble maker.

The blonde bit her lower lip before twirling her hair which made me frown on her actions. "Aunt Linda wants me to tell you that 'our' room for tonight is already ready,"

Staring intently at Y/n, the curse instantly slip out from my toung when she whack my hand that was about to touch her. The brows of Y/n was about to connect with each other but the forming tears in her eyes didn't go unnotice on me.

And just like what happens month ago, the feeling of hope in my system was automatically crushed. Glaring at the blondie, I yell at my Mother who's currently watching it not so far before storming out, following the love of my life.

Seeing Y/n in pain made me mad to my self for hurting her again. With her state like that, the only thing i wanted to do is to lay her  on my chest whilst I whispered sweet things for her, assuring that she's the only one I'm inlove with.

"Baby! Baby, let me explain-"

A slapped. A loud bang of palm touches my face as I clenched my jaw. "How dare you! You said you love me! You said you wanted to try again! I wanted to risk my heart for you once more but-but look." Y/n pauses from her hysterical rant before, sitting on the floor and crying, "I love you Ran but I-I don't know on what to think anymore."

With exasperated sigh, I sat next to her and laid her back on my chest. Explaining everything I need to, to clear her mind.

"Baby, it's nothing. It's not like what you think it is. Sheilla and I had a different room, I-I just don't know on why did she say those words like it mean something more." I nervously stated, afraid that my love won't hear me out again. "I promised, Y/n Evans. I never love anyone, I never cheated on you, Shiella was nothing and I-I," instead of continuing I clear my throat when it gets shaky..

A blank stare from Y/n made my eyes swell in tears but before a one drop could left my eye and touches my cheek, Y/n instantly catch it before kissing my forehead which I took enough courage to be relieved because I know this time I was listened.

"Yes baby, I trust you. I believed eveyrthing you said not because I felt pity or because I have feelings for you it is because I know that you are telling the truth." she admitted with sad voice whilst touching my cheeks at the same time. "I'm so sorry to for my out burst, it's just... I can't control my emotions or on how I should acted due to my mind that was clouded by Sheena's word-"

"Shiella," I corrected her by pressing my nose on hers.

"I don't care who that bitch is," Y/n the grumpily frown before grinning at me genuinely. "I love