A/n: I'm gonna put '***' before any possible thing that may trigger those who are reading. It seems to be more helpful than trigger warnings!!

18 weeks

Jaden walked back to his room after he had finally let go of Ally, softly rubbing his lips as he wanted to just run to her and kiss her again. He knew something was wrong with her but he didn't feel like asking..he knew she'd tell him eventually.

"Hey there kid, how ya doin?" His room mate Kalvin asked.

"I'm okay man, just worried about my girl is all." Jaden answered, sitting down on his bed.

"Trouble in love paradise?" Kalvin asked.

"Nah, she- I mean Ally just seemed so sad and exhausted. She held onto me like she could collapse at any minute. Like something finally broke her." Jaden said.

"Isn't she pregnant? Couldn't it just be pregnancy hormones or something? My baby momma got like that all the time." Kalvin said, sitting on his bed across from Jaden's.

Jaden sighed and shook his head. "Nah, she would've told me if it was the baby that was making her tired. It was especially different when I kissed her." Jaden said softly.

"How so?" Kalvin asked.

"It was like..she needed me. Especially when I kissed her." Jaden smiled softly.

"Dude, we all need to be kissed sometimes." Kalvin chuckled slightly.

"I think I could've kissed her all day." Jaden said quietly. "I could have swept back those loose messy strands of hair from her eyes and spent the day just like that. And maybe it was because I could feel her pain in her heart..she kissed me like she needed to be kissed. Like she was aching all over." Jaden stated.

"Damn..you really are in love with her aren't you?" Kalvin asked.

"I love her more than life itself." Jaden replied, biting his lip.

"I'd suggest you give her a call..it sounds like you both could use a long one. Go to Doctor Brock, he allows longer phone calls than just twenty minutes." Kalvin says.

Jaden nodded. He knew the older man was right. He grabbed his room key and headed out to Doctor Brock's office, to make a call to his girl.

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Ally pulled her into driveway after a long drive home and leaned her face against the steering wheel letting out every emotion as tears poured down her face.

Her heart broke into a million pieces. She let out every painful scream and cry as she slammed her fists against the wheel, crying out for someone to make it go away.

A small ringing noise from her bag interrupted her screams and she picked it up, reading the caller ID and instantly answering.

"Ally, baby, are you okay?" Jaden asked.

"No..I'm not." She answered.

"What's wrong? Did something happen?" Jaden asked.

"Yeah...my parents got a divorce and Anthony chose to go with our dad..he just left..when I needed him most...he's my big brother I can't do this without him." She said trying to slow her breathing.

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"What? When?" He asked.

"A week ago." Ally answered.

"I cant do this..I can't," Ally said hanging up.

She began to panic, feeling her chest tighten as more tears welled in her eyes. Her hands began to shake as the voice in her throat went silent. She began to hyperventilate and she grasped the wheel trying to focus as her breathing got worse. Her entire body began shaking and she tried to breathe but failed.

The car door was pulled open and Chaser placed his arms on hers, beginning to speak softly as he knew she was having an anxiety attack.

"Allison..shh. it's me, chase you know me, it's okay. Just listen to my voice okay? You're gonna be okay," he said as she looked at him. He held onto her hands and began to do a breathing exercise with her.

"You're okay, I'm here. I'm not leaving. You're just fine..in and out slowly like we practiced, blue skies in grey skies out." He spoked softly as she began to stop shaking.

Ally looked over at him and nodded doing the breathing exercises along with him as he helped her out of the car, holding onto her as she sighed, being able to breathe normally again.

Ally's phone began to ring and Chaser answered it hearing Jaden begin to panic and he sighed. "She's fine. She had a panic attack. Shell call you later." He said before hanging up.

"You're gonna be okay." Chaser spoke.

Ally nodded. However some small part of her felt as though nothing would ever be okay again...