hi bubs:)) song of the chapter is - Fall out of Love by Alessia Cara. I think some of the lyrics kind of relate to how Y/n feels about her mother, sadly, and just the confusion she has about it all.

Anyways, enjoy!<3

Draco and I snuck back to the common room at about 12:30 A.M. occasionally talking, but the moments of silence, luckily, weren't awkward.

Once we finally arrived in front of the portrait, he froze, turning towards me.

"You should go in first, don't want any... suspicious thoughts," he says quietly, slightly gesturing towards the door.

I hesitated for a moment before realizing that it was probably a good idea.

"Right-" I stated, smiling weakly at him.

I quietly said the password, and watched the portrait door open up. The music immediately filled my ears, along with a mild scent of firewhisky.

"Goodnight, Malfoy." I smirked at him before turning back around and walking in.

I searched the crowd, looking for Pansy, Blaise or Daphne. After searching for a minute or so, I didn't come across any of them and decided to just head up to my dorm.

When I opened the door, the lights were off. I smiled as I saw Pansy and Daphne, sleeping peacefully in their beds. Pansy was sprawled out on her bed, with her clothes still on. I chuckled silently at the sight, heading over to my own bed.

I grabbed some pajamas from my trunk and walked over to the bathroom. I changed quickly, letting my hair out afterwards. I brushed my teeth, the night replaying in my mind.

I fell asleep pretty quickly once I got in bed. The whole night was pretty exhausting, the party, the emotions, everything.

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"Get up beauty sleeping!" Pansy yells, as I feel a pillow hit my head.

I groan annoyedly at her, shoving my face in my pillow. It takes a little for my mind to actually process what she said but once I do I furrow my brows in confusion, lifting my head from my pillow.

"Beauty sleeping?" I ask, never having heard that before.

"Yes, isn't that the princess muggles love?" She questions.

I laugh at her mistake, sitting up in my bed. I look over at Pansy who is brushing her hair, and realize she is wearing actual clothes and not her uniform. It takes a moment before I realize what today is. Saturday. Our first day going to Hogsmeade.

"Yep, definitely," I sneer sarcastically, trying not to laugh.

I pick out my outfit for the day, before heading over to the bathroom and hopping in the shower. Once I'm done showering, I put on a soft, dark blue and forest green sweater, with some slightly ripped jeans. I put my hair up in a ponytail, leaving some baby hairs out.

"Where did you go last night?" Pansy questions me once I walk out of the bathroom.

I realize I never got to tell her about the letter. I knew I could trust her with it, there just wasn't ever a time between when I got it and now, to tell her what it said.

"I got a letter from my dad," I started, sitting down on my bed. "I didn't know what it would say so I left the party to read it.. turns out that was a good decision." I frown slightly, avoiding eye contact with her.

"What'd it.. say?" She asks, hesitantly.

"Lots of good stuff, apparently he's doing good at home and he's been able to adventure into some new hobbies," I smile as I speak, lifting my head up to meet her gaze. I pause for a moment before I speak, wondering how to word what the letter said next. "But- but he also said she wants to send a letter to me. My mother wants to send a letter to me."

Pansy's eyes widened slightly, her mouth parting in shock. She seemed to be speechless for awhile, and looked as though she was processing everything.

"Are you- do you think-" she stuttered before ultimately taking a deep breath in. "How do you feel?"

I smiled weakly at her, playing with the necklace I had put on. I wasn't sure how I felt, honestly. Part of me really wanted to see what she had to say, or any life updates she had. But part of me also didn't want to forgive her. She left my life so why should I be apart of hers?

I bit my lip at that thought, regretting it ever crossed my mind. I was always one to forgive and forget but something about what she did, just made me not want to forgive her. I understand that it was her dream, but I couldn't keep my selfish thoughts away.

"I'm not sure, honestly." I respond, staring at the pillow that lay in my lap. "I think- I think I want a letter from her.. just to see what she has to say but what if-" I pause, taking a deep breath in. "What if it just breaks me more?"

Pansy sighs, getting up from her bed and walking over to me. She pulls me into a side hug, so my head rests on her shoulder. She rubs my arm comfortingly, before speaking.

"I think you should do it. I think that it would be nice for you to hear from her, and hear what she has to say." She pauses for a moment, clearing her throat slightly. "And if it doesn't go according to plan, then you don't have to read anymore of her letters."

I smile at her words, wrapping my arms around her body and hugging her. She doesn't think twice before hugging me back. Pansy was always good at comforting me, which was quite confusing but I wasn't going to complain.

We smiled sweetly at each other, before Pansy broke the silence.

"Now let's go have some fun at Hogsmeade." She grinned, pulling a coat over her body.

"Right!" I say, clearing my throat. As I walk over to grab my coat, the letter catches my eye. I think about it for a moment before deciding I need to write my father back.

"Actually- I need to write something real quick. Wait for me in the common room?" I turn around to look at her.

She eyes me suspiciously before nodding her head.

"Don't take too long!" She yells to me, before closing the dorm door.

I walk over to my trunk, grabbing a blank piece of parchment and a quill. I start writing, a smile on my face as I think about what my dad said. I was happy he was doing good, although I did still worry about him often. Especially what his reaction was when he got the letter from my mom, or what it even said.

Dear moon,

I have enjoyed my first few days at Hogwarts very much! I've loved all my new subjects so far, although I will admit, astronomy still has to be my favorite.

I'm glad you're doing well at home, please tell me if anything happens or if you ever need me. Also, I'm glad you're having fun with some friends, I always forget you have friends. Just kidding ;)

I've thought about it and I would like a letter from mom. Please tell her that she can write to me if she'd like to, and that I will read it.

I miss you lots dad! I love you so much more, make sure to keep going and don't give up. That house better be clean when I visit!

Love, your star

I re-read the letter one more time before folding it up and slipping it into an envelope. I sign my name on the other side, and give it to my owl. (His name is Crow, I know beautiful isn't it?)

I watch as the owl flies off with the letter, as a smile forms on my face. I excitingly grab my coat and run down to the common room.

"I'm ready!" I tell Pansy once I finally reach her. She was sitting on one of the coaches, with a confused expression on her face as she reads a textbook.

She looks up at me, smiling weakly before getting up and walking towards the door.

"Did you write it?" She questions me, opening up the portrait.

"Mhm," I nod to her.

As we walk out of the common room, down the corridors, I can't but help but grin out of excitement. My first time going to Hogsmeade, and even better, with my friends.

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heyyyy;)

Sorry about the short chapter but luckily the next chapter will be fun! I'm honestly so excited to write about going to Hogsmeade;))

Also! Quick question, do y'all care what time I post? Currently it's around 6:15 pm for me but I'm good with posting whenever! Do you like mornings? Nights? Noon? Afternoons? Idk lol

Anyways let me know if y'all enjoyed this chapter! Also thank you so so much for everyone who wished health upon my mother and family, I really appreciate it! Love you guys!:))<33