Yoohyeon's POV

And just like that, we had the best holidays in my life. It was the best month in my life. And soon. without me realising it summer was over. We soon started college. The maknaes were worried but we all helped them get used to how college worked and they soon were fine. Bora, Siyeon, Handong and Minji had finished college. Handong was working as a designer at Bora's company, Bora was the boss now along with her father, Siyeon was the vice president and Minji was the boss of her company now. Of course none of them let their dreams go. Handong still liked to sing same goes for Siyeon. They were both covering songs and uploaded them on YouTube. They had a channel together and they called it SiDong. Bora was still attending those dance classes. She couldn't make it that often cause of her work but she tried her best. She really liked dancing. As for Minji, well, she prefered singing for me and our friends. She wanted to focus more on her company. But she was sometimes singing in SiDong's videos as a guest. And she was also going sometimes to Bora's dancing team too.

It was October; afternoon. It was raining heavily outside. I was at my room studying. I had so many tests the upcoming week. It was Friday though. So I could still study at the weekend. But I wanted to study today too. I had so much stuff to do and I was getting anxious a lot lately. Minji was staying with me this past few weeks. I couldn't sleep without her. I also didn't have much time to cook for myself so I wasn't eating. Minji tried her best to convince me to take care of myself till she couldn't take it anymore and moved in with me to take care of me by herself. I had insomnia too, and of course I had panic attacks too. So she wanted to be there for me and help me get better. She had work too, so she couldn't take care of me all the time. But she tried her best, for me. And I was more than glad that she did.

"Aish!" I yelled frustrated. I was trying so much to study. But I was so tired to continue. I was studying all the afternoon. And before I could even realised it it was night time.

"Are you ok puppy?" Minji asked me. She was at my bed reading some stuff for work.

"I'm ok." I mumbled and tried to focus on my studying again. I fixed my glasses and started biting my pen out of frustration. I knew I could do this. It wasn't that hard yet...I was sure I was close to another breakdown... when I felt warm hands around my shoulders.

"You don't seem though." Minji said and rested her head on my shoulder.

"Well, I'm kinda tired."

"Yes you are. You are very tired, not just kinda."

"Fine fine. I'm really tired. College is so tough. How did you manage to pass the exams especially with everything that happened last year?" I asked her referring to her father and Seri. If you ask me where was Seri, well, she was back to Russia. She couldn't stay for more. But she promised she would come every summer for holidays. We were still in touch but she had to focus on her college too.

"Well, I tried my best. And I'm sure you will too. You just need a break now. Let's go eat something and then I can massage you. I can feel that you are so tense and tired." She said massaging my shoulders a bit. I moaned accidentally.

"I'm sorry." I said immediately.

"Don't be. You know that I love it anyway. I love everything about you Yoo."

"I know. I love everything about you too Minji." She kissed me softly and we headed to the kitchen. She cooked me something special and we ate talking peacefully. Then we went back to my room and she did as she had promised. I was feeling so good and relaxed after that massage. I really needed it. Then Minji cuddled me till we both fell asleep. I was glad she noticed how bad I was feeling and tried to help me for once again before I had my breakdown. She didn't like it seeing me like this so she did her best to prevent it from happening.

I was walking. I was in the middle of a big field. I was alone. And the place seemed old and abandoned. I was walking trying to find someone. But there was no one. And the field seemed that had no end. Endless. I then, felt like someone was chasing me. I couldn't see them. But I knew they were there, watching every move I did. I started walking faster. And then, I was running. I ran and ran and ran. But I got tired. My lungs were weak, I couldn't breathe. My legs were giving up on me and I could feel them coming towards me. But I still couldn't see them. I fell on the ground unable to run anymore. I was trying to breathe as much as I could but I felt like I couldn't. Then, a shadow came close to me. I wanted to stand up and ran but I just couldn't. I tried to breathe but I couldn't too. I was sweating and when the shadow came close to me I tried to shout out for help. But my voice didn't come out. I yelled and yelled and yelled till the shadow was so close to me and then...

"YAAAH!" I yelled and stood up. I was breathing heavily and looking around me. Where was I? I felt warm hands around me and I turned immediately to the person yelling again in fear.

"Baby, calm down. It's just me. You had a nightmare." Minji told me. I looked at her for a bit and then around me. She was right. I was at my place. At my bedroom. I then hugged her tightly. I was still sweating, my heart was beating rapidly and my hands were cold. Minji hugged me back and took my hands in her trying to warm them up.

"Are you feeling any better?" She asked after a while.

"I'm not sure." I said trembling. I could feel it coming. Another breakdown. And I hated that time of the day so much. I was so afraid lately. I was afraid of my breakdowns. I didn't like the situation I was in when I had those. So I was really afraid all day cause I didn't know when the next breakdown was going to come. And now, I could feel it so close. It was driving me insane.

"It's ok baby." Minji said and caressed my back. And then I felt it coming. I was so afraid and it hurt so much to feel like this. I was feeling so lonely and so afraid. I started crying and hugged Minji tightly.

"I hate it Minji. I hate feeling like this. It's so stressful. Everything is so hard! I feel so helpless." I said between my sobs.

"Shh, everything will be fine." She only said and kissed my forehead. After a long while I was feeling tired and also, empty. There were no more tears left to cry and I was trembling, trying to cry more. Minji rested her hands on my cheeks. She wiped my tears away and kissed my forehead again. And then my wet cheeks.

"I'm tired unnie." I said.

"Are you feeling any better at least? Crying it all out?"

"I don't really know. I still feel hopeless."

"Don't. You aren't alone. You have friends around you. And you also have me. We are here to help you Yoohyeon. I'm sure Dami is stressed too. And Handong is there to help her too, right?" I nodded.

"It's just a hard period in your life. It will pass. And you'll be alright. You'll be stronger." She said smiling. I nodded smiling weakly.

"I love you unnie." I said feeling already sleepy.

"I love you too Hyeon ah." She said sweetly and kissed me on the lips. I smiled and then we cuddled and fell asleep.

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And just like that, months passed by quickly. I and Minji's relationship was only getting stronger. We loved each other and our love for each other could only grow stronger. Around Christmas holidays, Minji moved in with me. For real this time. Last time she was just living with me for a few weeks till all those tests were over. But then, I felt so lonely without her in my house and she felt lonely without me too. We wanted to take it slow but at the same time we couldn't just be away from each other for long. So we ended up living together in the end.

Now, it was June. I had just finished college two weeks ago. And if you ask me if my relationship with Minji had moved on, well, now I could kiss her more, without feeling that shy anymore. And she was kissing me on my neck too. Her hands were moving on my body freely now. Well, so we were a bit closer now. But lately, I could tell that she was up to something. She was being really clingy and touchy two weeks ago. And last week she started doing the opposite.

We were now at a cafeteria. Me and Dami and the maknaes. And then, the unnies come in and sat with us. Minji greeted us all and sat next to Bora. Not even next to me. I frowned.

"Unnie come and sit next to me!" I pouted.

"We came here for just a bit Yoohyeon ah. I have some stuff to do in a while." Minji said. She only gave me a glance and then looked back at the girls. What was with her?

"See? That's what I'm talking about." I whispered to Dami. She nodded observing Minji.

"What if..."

"No Yoohyeon. She isn't cheating on you. Don't ever think of that. Minji could never do that to you. You know her more than I do! How did you even think of that?"

"I don't know what else to think Dami! She just...She doesn't even call me by my pet names!"

"I don't know really. Just talk to her about it."

"I tried. But she always says she is busy with work or tired. I'm her girlfriend. Shouldn't she give me at least a bit of her time?" I said feeling so hurt. Well, I understood her. Completely. That's why I was talking to Dami about it and not her. Cause I didn't want to be one more problem to her. She already had so many things on her mind. I was feeling like a burden to her and if she knew, she would kill me for feeling like that because I wasn't something like that to her. But at the same time I felt like I was. Cause she had so much stuff at work so I thought that my problem wasn't that serious to talk about it.

"What are you two talking about?" Bora asked. Minji barely looked at us.

"Nothing. Dami is helping me out with something." They nodded and kept talking. What was wrong with Minji? She would have asked me what was wrong even if it was just a fly annoying me! But she didn't. Maybe I was overthinking it and she was just really busy and tired with work. Maybe that was it.

After a little while Bora and Minji stood up and left telling us that they had some stuff to arrange.

The rest of my day went out smoothly. I was busy at the agency. Fortunately I had that thing too, to distract me from my thoughts. I returned later on at home. I had eaten dinner at the agency so I just wanted to shower and sleep. I wasn't that tired. But I wasn't in the mood either. I didn't even know if Minji was at home. She had stuff to do and lately she returned at home late at night. I hated sleeping alone but I was falling asleep trying to wait for her to come home, cause I was tired.

As I went in my room, I left my bag at my desk and I opened the light at my desk. I started arranging some files and papers and when I was done I was about to head to the bathroom to shower, when I felt warm hands touching my waist and dragging me close to them. At first, I was startled. But then, I realised who it was.

"Minji..." I said. She didn't answer me. She just rested her head on my shoulder. Feeling her so close to me after a whole week made me feel weak, already.

"Why were you avoiding me all this week?" I asked her what was on my mind. I couldn't wait to ask her that any longer. She didn't answer me again. Instead she dragged me and pushed me on our bed. And that's when I saw her face. She was...SHE HAD DYED HER HAIR RED!!! She was looking sexily at me and her gaze was so intense. She was on top of me breathing on my face saying nothing.

"Wow...Red. So...beautiful!" I said and caressed her hair. She smiled.

"Thanks." She said.

"So that's what you went to do with Bora, wasn't it?"

"Yeah..." She almost whispered and came close to me. Her gaze still so intense. I was feeling hot now. Really hot. My body was on fire just by her stare. I kinda knew now why she did what she did all this week.

"And you were avoiding me on purpose."

"Yeah..."

"Cause?"

"Cause I wanted you to want me more." She said smiling. She came even closer, if there was any way possible for that, and now I could feel myself burning for real. I was trembling too. My heart was beating rapidly.

"Minji...I..." Yet I couldn't say it. I was sure of what I wanted now. It was just...I felt shy to say it out loud. Minji was looking at me smiling warmly. She always waited for me. And so she did now too.

"I love you unnie. I really do. And...I...I want you." I said breathlessly and looked away immediately. I was feeling so shy now. Minji turned my head so I was looking at her now.

"Are you sure?" She asked me. I nodded. She kissed me deeply. Oh how I missed this. She would just peck my lips lately. And that wasn't something she would do so often. I moaned not even feeling shy about it. I missed her and I loved her and I wanted her to know it. She smiled and broke the kiss.

"Just how much did you miss me?" She teased me.

"A lot. You just can't imagine! Did I also tell you how much I need you now?" I said. She smiled and shook her head.

"I need you. So much." I said breathlessly again. I wasn't shy anymore. I just wanted her. It was just that.

"Since when was my puppy so bold and needy?" She teased me again.

"Since her unnie ignored her for a whole week!" She laughed.

"You called me puppy...it's been so long." I said. It was just a week but it felt like ages to me! She smiled and nodded.

"I did. Cause you are my puppy." She said and kissed me again. Deeper.

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The next morning, I woke up feeling weird. I was naked, and I was hugging Minji tightly. She was also naked. I blushed at the thought of that and then at the thought of everything else that had happened yesterday night.

"Good morning puppy." Minji said, still sleepy. I smiled and nuzzled on her neck.

"Morning babe" I mumbled into her skin.

"What did you call me?" It was true. After all this long I never called her pet names. Except from Minji and unnie. I was the shy type of person so I wasn't that good with those things. I blushed harder and nuzzled even closer.

"...babe." I mumbled. She laughed.

"Did I hear it right? You..."

"Yeah you did. I wanted to call you that too, for once."

"Awww, I love you so much Yoohyeon!" She said and caressed my hair. I nuzzled even closer to her.

"Awww! Is my puppy shy?" She teased me. I then bit her neck. She already had marks there. And that made me blush even more.

"Ouch! My puppy knows how to bite now, huh?" Minji teased me.

"Yeah, I do. Just look at your neck. And everywhere at you body actually." I teased her back.

"Well, you aren't any better." She said now blushing a bit.

"But you loved it yesterday night!"

"You loved it too. I still remember you moaning my name SO loudly!" Minji teased me. We were both blushing so madly.

"Enough with the teasing." I said between my laughs. She was laughing now too.

"Yeah, are you alright though? I mean..."

"I feel a bit weird to be honest. But I'm not that bad like Gahyeon was." Minji nodded.

"Now let's go to eat. I'm hungry." I said excitedly. But as I was about to stand up that was when I felt how sore my body was. So I just lied down to bed again.

"Oh right. This is going to hurt for a bit." Minji said.

"I'll bring you breakfast here." She said. I smiled shyly to her and she left to cook us breakfast. She then, came back with a lot of food in her hands and lied down next to me. I was about to grab something to eat but she stopped me.

"I'll feed you." She said.

"Minji, my legs hurt, not my hands!" I said laughing a bit. She insisted though and she even told me I liked it anyway so I gave in.

We had a really beautiful day. And if you ask me if I regretted it I'll tell you no. I didn't. But if you ask me if I was afraid, then yes. I still was a bit. Giving all of you to others it's a bit scary sometimes. But I trusted Minji. We talked about it cause she knew I was still a bit afraid. And I even ended up crying about it. But at the same time I felt guilty. I didn't want Minji to feel bad. She did nothing wrong. We talked and talked and talked, I wasn't crying anymore and I tried my best to make her feel that it was alright, that I was alright and that it was just me being insecure like always. She also did her best to ease my pain on my legs. And just like that we had a wonderful day.   

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Author's note:
I wish I had a Minji by my side in every breakdown or whenever I got stressed for exams :(

And honestly, when I wrote about Yoohyeon's breakdown I really felt it. I was like that too. I don't know if I'm over it completely now but last year I was. It was awful and that was why I could describe her situation that well. Because I had already expirienced this before. One thing that helped me a lot was music. Kpop was always there to save me. From everything. Sometimes maybe not but some others it really helped. A lot.

Also, we are two chapters before the end! I feel sad because I really liked all this journey. Your comments helped me a lot too and always made my day. All the love and support you gave for this book is just amazing! So, I thought that since the next chapter is a really small one to post it today as well! 

Anyway! Remember that English is not my first language so there might be mistakes. I hope you all liked it! Don't forget to like the chapter, and comment, if you want. It helps me A Lot. Bye!  Dream of Dreamcatcher!