Attention-Warning: This chapter, and the next one too, have that TW symbol, which means trigger warning. It warns the readers that the following chapter may have scenes that includes mental disorders such as eating disorders, /injury, and bipolar. Of course we won't see something like that here. Mostly depression, and a bit of violence.

Yoohyeon's POV

"It's fine Yoohyeon. You did great." Minji said and took my hands in hers. I wasn't looking at her all that time. I was too afraid. Too weak. I couldn't stop breathing rapidly. She hugged me tightly and that's when I started breathing even more rapidly. That's when I released all my emotions. All my fears. I ended up crying in her arms. I was holding her too tightly afraid of everything and crying so hard in her arms. Blurred images flushed in my head.

"No... Please..." I whispered and cried harder in her arms. She caressed my hair and that's when I jumped up in fear falling down from the couch. I was looking at her, scared. I could still see his face. No!

I put my hands on my face to stop watching his sick, smiling face. I was crying on my own. Then, I felt soft arms wrapping around me. And I cried again in Minji's arms.

"Yoohyeon. I want you to listen to me. Take deep breaths. Breathe in, breathe out. Do it for me baby." She said softly. And I did as I was told too.

Breathe in. He is in jail now.

Breathe out. He can't hurt me anymore.

Breathe in. He is in jail now.

Breathe out. He can't hurt me anymore.

"Are you fine now?" She asked me softly. I nodded slowly. She wiped my tears away and smiled softly.

"Minji unnie... I-i... Thank you" I said breathlessly and hugged her again.

"It's nothing baby." She used that pet name again. I knew I heard her right from the very first time she called me 'baby'. I just couldn't believe it.

"Let's go upstairs. It's late." She said. I looked around me and there was no one.

"Where are the others?"

"They left before the show ended. They were too needy for each other." She said laughing a bit.

"Even Yeri and Gahyeon?"

"No. Gahyeon panicked and left running. She was the first one who left actually. Yeri thought she fucked up. But she didn't. Gahyeon has just panicked too much. Like you. But... You panicked worse than her. You were yelling, 'he is in jail' while you had that anxiety attack. Who is he? What did he do to you?" We were upstairs now. I held her hand tightly. It was time to tell her.

"My step father. I was referring to him. He... He used to hit me. And... Rape me." I whispered the last part. She didn't say anything. She just hugged me tightly once again.

"I'm a loser. Right? I'm sure you wanted to do all these things the others are doing now, am I right? But no! Instead, you are here babysitting me." I said sarcastically.

"No! What are you even thinking? I'm not babysitting you. And I didn't want to do anything like that with you. We agreed that I'll give you time. And that's what I'm going to do. I'm here now as a friend. Your best friend. And I'm here for you cause you need me now. You just had a panic attack! What are you even saying?" She sounded serious and also mad.

"I'm sorry..."

"Don't be. It's ok. You did nothing wrong anyway. Now, should we lay down?" She asked me.

"Yes." I said softly and lay down with her. I hugged her tightly nuzzling my head at her neck. She smiled caressing my hair.

"I didn't mean to push you away, before. I just... When you caressed my hair, the only thing that came to my mind that time was my step father. He used to do that. Before or after raping me." I said in almost a whisper. Her eyes almost teared up.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Yoohyeon ah. What do you want me to do to heal those scars?" She sounded so hurt by my story.

"It's ok unnie. It's in the past now. You can still caress my hair. It was just... That moment when you did it. I couldn't see clearly and all I could see was him. So what you did made it even worse." I said and went even closer to her hugging her more showing to her that I was ok now. She nodded.

"If you need anything else, anytime, you tell me. Ok?" She said softly. I nodded.

"Do you want me to sing you to sleep?" I nodded happily. And she did. It was the best moment in my life. Being this close to her, listening to her beautiful velvet voice singing to me and only me.

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The next few days passed by with us having so much fun. It was like my life was a dream. Minji was so sweet and caring towards me after that night. She never pressured me and never talked to me about us. We were just best friends for these days. And I had fun with all my friends. But as every dream, it had to end soon. So it did.

We were back in Korea, since yesterday. It was night time when the following events happened. I was at my apartment with Minji. Watching some movies. Handong had already left for China, this morning. The marks on my neck had faded a long time ago if you ask me. It was peaceful until someone knocked on my door. I stood up to go open the door when that someone knocked again impatiently.

"Yoohyeon! Open that damn door! I know you're in!!!" Bora yelled. I opened the door and she came in furiously. She was mad. I could see it in her face. But her face was also broken. Her eyes teary, red and puffy from all the crying she did before she came here. She was wearing only a sweater and some shorts which meant she didn't even take care of herself. It was cold outside. All these meant one thing. Siyeon had told her everything... Just why so much drama in our life? Couldn't we rest for a while? Maybe I was selfish though. Cause we rested a lot in those vacations...

"Bora?" Minji asked worried.

"Don't 'Bora' me! You freaking monster! Was she telling the truth? Tell me!" She yelled as she grabbed me by the collar of my shirt.

"Hey! What truth? What are you doing to her?" Minji interfere.

"Minji, please! Just stay out of it for a second. She will tell you later. You will all know it anyway. In a while. Just stay out of it for two damn minutes cause I'll go insane if you don't and I'll break everything in here!" She yelled. Her eyes were sparking. She was mad. More than how she was at me the previous time.

"Tell me the truth Kim fucking Yoohyeon. NOW!"

"What did she tell you?" I asked her.

"Everything you know! Now tell me! Is it true or not?" She asked. I took a deep breath. I tried to think what I should say to her. Why did you do this Siyeon?

Bora punched me.

"TELL ME!!!" She shouted once again.

"Bora! Was that necessary?" Minji said a bit angry.

"It was! It freaking was! Siyeon lied! She LIED to me Minji! She said she was over that bitch over here! She said she only loved me! She made me feel special! And all of that was only lies!"

"She didn't lie to you. She loves you." I said.

"Shut up! She did! She freaking fucking did! She LIED! She said Yoohyeon was the one kissing her. When in reality she was the one that made Yoohyeon drunk. And she even kissed her back. She even kissed her, for the second time, when she wasn't drunk telling her that she loved her. Can you understand?" She was yelling all this time tears streaming down her face uncontrollably.

"I HATE HER!!!" She yelled and took a vase I had in my living room and threw it at the wall. It immediately broke into pieces. Like her heart.

"And I hate you too!" She yelled at me, fell down on the floor and punched me harder this time.

"Why didn't you tell me? Friends are supposed to tell the truth! LIAR!! Why did you leave me thinking all this time that you were wasted by yourself? Why didn't you tell me!?" She yelled on my face.

"Cause I didn't want to hurt you! I didn't! I told Siyeon to forget it too. And the second kiss too! She promised me she wouldn't tell anyone! Yet she was the one telling you at the first place! I told her Bora, that I will help her move on! That she will move on with time! I told her that she shouldn't break you like this! She could just forget it! Damn it!" I shouted back at her with tears in my eyes too.

"Guess she couldn't just forget it! Bitch! Both of you! I don't want to ever see you again!" She shouted, stood up from the floor and left. I was left on the floor crying my eyes out. Minji came and hugged me.

"Why are you still here?" I mumbled.

"You are hurt. Let me take care of it." She said softly and took me by my hand and we went to my bathroom. She pulled out some ice and creams and started taking care of my eye and nose.

"Why aren't you mad or hurt too?"

"I still can't believe what I heard. I'll need time to think about it. But I can't leave you here alone being hurt. You don't deserve that."

"Yeah. I deserve worse."

"No! You don't! Don't ever say that again!" She said seriously and I just looked away not saying anything.

When she finished taking care of my injuries we headed to the living room.

"I think it's the best for me to go now. I still need time to think. And you need time too. I'm not mad at you. And I won't be. I understand completely what you did. I just... Need time to think about it. And especially time to help Bora with her break up." I just nodded and let her go. And just like that, I said goodbye to my happiness.

Weeks had passed by. Christmas holidays were over. Handong had came back and she heard everything too. I wasn't leaving my house at all. I was all day at home. Too afraid to go outside. I was a really bad friend. I tried to contact Siyeon but she never answered me. Dami came two days after the incident. She was taking care of me. Bora wasn't talking to her either. I was feeling so broken, so alone, so lifeless.

As for Siyeon, Dami told me that she left a letter to Bora the next day of the incident. She was saying to her that she will give them time to think. That she mostly takes time to herself. To become a better person and move on from me. We didn't know where she went. But she got disappeared. Her number was lost too. We couldn't reach her. Bora said she was too afraid to face the situation so she runaway. Maybe it was that too. Maybe it was her ego talking for her.

College has started but I hadn't gone to any of the classes. Dami was trying to make me go to at least one class. But I was too weak. In the end, I gave in cause Dami was trying really hard to take care of me.

It was Monday. Two weeks after the incident. My bruises had faded away since few days ago. I was at my desk with Dami. My head was already throbbing and I was feeling terrible.

"Hey." Handong greeted us. Things between her and Dami were weird too. But I could say it were better than mine with Minji..

"Hey."

"Oh Yoohyeon! You are here!" Handong said. I nodded. Handong talked a bit with Dami. I wasn't paying attention to what they were saying. The only thing I could hear to now was my throbbing head and my broken heart, which was screaming in pain.

"Yoohyeon!"

"Mh?"

"Let's go at the cafeteria to eat something." Dami said and took my hand. We sat at our table. My eyes fell on Minji's table. She was there with Bora. Bora seemed like a ghost. Her eyes were dead. They were red too. She seemed tired and also lifeless. Minji on the other hand looked fine. At least she was fine...

We went to take our food from the canteen. Bora and Minji were in front of us. Handong was talking to them. Bora wasn't talking at all. But when she saw me and Dami she got pissed.

"What are you doing here?" She said in a low voice. She was so scary.

"Bora, they are students in this college too, you know." Minji said softly and greeted us both. I was glad she did. She smiled to me. A weak one. But at least she wasn't ignoring my existence. I need your hugs Minji, don't you get it?

"Aish Minji! I hate you, you know that?" Bora mumbled angrily.

"Yeah I do." Minji answered her unfazed by it.

"This can't continue any longer! Bora, we are friends! For goodness sake!" Dami said.

"We are? What are you talking about ? Do you perhaps mean were?"

"Bora! Seriously? I don't care what you are going to say anymore. Minji, bring her to Yoohyeon's place after school, you too. Handong you come too. We need to solve things out. I'm sick of this. And all of us are!" Dami said seriously, she took my hand and Handong's and left the canteen.

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Later that day, my door rang. I opened it and it was Siyeon's father.

"Hey uncle. Any news from Siyeon?" I asked him immediately. I was asking him every day about Siyeon. But he didn't know either.

His face was unreadable. Something was off. No, don't tell me...

"Yoohyeon, your... your mother... left us. Forever."

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Author's note:
I know I'm evil. After a hot chapter here we go with all the drama again! But meehh! That's how life is! You never live peacefully for long, unfortunately...

Anyway! Remember that English is not my first language so there might be mistakes. I hope you all liked it! Don't forget to like the chapter, and comment, if you want. It helps me A Lot. Bye! See you on Friday! Dream of Dreamcatcher!