we didn't stop this time.

the two of us stood there in the rain-
the cold droplets trickling down our flushed faces, leaving trails of cold.

that wouldn't stop us.
nothing could.
i wanted him.
i wanted iwaizumi.

sparks flew as we continued, and it wasn't like in the stories where they describe it as a moment frozen in time. the rain continued to pour, the noise didn't die down, the muffled music and laughter from the girls' dorm persisted.
all those things were still there.
the thing is,
none of it mattered.
and that meant everything to me.
it couldn't be represented with pretty words and precious metaphors, and maybe-
maybe that was okay.

never had i experienced such passion with elise. with her, our lips were always tinged with a hint of anguish- an almost inhumane sense of desperation- which was far too familiar to be a good thing. but iwaizumi-

he was different.
he filled me with what i craved almost everyday,
what i truly yearned for-

a place to feel the warmth of home.

•

late night classes began, and we fled to the dorms so we wouldn't be seen.
i was numb,
my mind spun with thoughts of his eyes and all i felt were the ghosts of his lips on mine.

our hands found one another in the bullets of rain and we ran through the showers of cold. by the time we arrived, we were soaked.

both iwaizumi and i stripped once we got to our dorm room. he, being the emotionless wall he is, stared blankly at me, who in turn, blushed at the sight of his toned body.

"i-i'm going to go t-take a shower, okay?"

i barely managed my words, stuttering on every syllable.

i'm so fucking gay.

iwaizumi nodded, then suddenly held me, pulling my entire being into his arms.

"i love you."

he whispered into my shoulder.

"i love you."

he repeated,

"i love you."

"i love you."

"i love you, oikawa tooru."

iwaizumi stopped for a second, he breathed heavily, waiting for my reply. but my mind was engulfed in embarrassment, barely letting my lips mouth out the three words i've always wanted to say to him,

"i-i love-"

i paused, taking in a deep breath,

"i love you, iwa-chan."

tightening my grip on his shoulders, i choked up, unable to hold back the overwhelming feeling of wanting to cry.

"i love you, iwaizumi hajime, more than anything else in this world."

he laughed.

"i was so afraid of that girl taking you away from me. i... i hated her."

as the horrid thoughts of elise flooded my brain, his embrace tightened. i took small, soft breaths, clutching onto iwaizumi like he was the only thing keeping me afloat in this town filling up with rain. the tears streamed down my face, and i opened my mouth once again.

"iwa-chan, did you hear-
about her-"

"i heard everything."

i gulped.

"aren't you mad?"

"not really, just really surprised you'd have the balls to do something like that."

we both chuckled softly, hand in hand.
i didn't want to let go.
i didn't want to let go of that warmth.

because i worried that if i did-
it would be all be an illusion.

•

as the stream of hot water dribbled down my back in the shower, i tried to recollect all that had occurred today; especially our long kiss.

'i love you, oikawa tooru'

those words kept echoing in my mind, making my shoulders slump as i put my head in my hands, feeling my cheeks go completely red.

how do you do it, hajime?
how do you manage to make me fall so much for you?

i shut the water off and wrapped my body with a short towel. i sighed, praying he wouldn't see me half naked. today wasn't the day to die of humiliation.

walking out, i realized my prayers were utterly ignored; he was sprawled out on his bed, his eyes darting to me once i entered the room.

iwaizumi flushed pink, and quickly turned around, stuffing his head into a pillow,

"don't make me want you even more than i already do-"

my face exploded,

there you go again.

"iwa-chan,"

i hopped onto his bed, enveloping him in my long arms, my towel beginning to fall off.

"why don't you want me?"

"sh-shut up, shittykawa."

"you can do anything to me i wouldn't mind-"

i leaned closer to his ears, my signature move.

"anything-"

iwaizumi shifted his body to face me and pushed his lips onto mine,

"you say-
anything?"

he said in between the flurry of kisses which completely overwhelmed me.

"don't try your pheromones on me, it doesn't work."

we continued for perhaps another hour, stopping before we got to any other base.

cuddling and out of breath, the both of us laid silent for a couple of minutes until we regained the ability to speak clearly again,

"i'm raising the kid."

"you are?!"

i heard the amazement in the tone of his voice.

"i can't leave them in an orphanage, it's unfair."

"it's unfair that they're being raised by an idiot still in his second year of college."

"you don't have to be mean about it."

i huffed and he nuzzled his head into my neck. i could feel his hot breath on my skin, which made my hairs stand on edge.

"tooru?"

"yeah?"

"i'll raise the kid with you."

a/n:

amy: OH SHIT YOU THOUGHT THERE WAS GOING TO BE SOME NSFW RIGHT U LIL HOES KYS

ash: guess you won't find the good succ over here, damn