I had my face turned away from him not wanting to look. Not wanting to see the scar. To see him unfazed by time. To see what I could have had, had I not royally screwed up but it's not my fault! I didn't have a choice! NO! I will not just stand here. I could hear Ciel tell Sebastian to grab me as I dash past them and out the door as fast as a bullet. No I will not stop. No I will not go back. No I this isn't happening again...but it is. Isn't it? I'm running like I did many years before when I had to escape. When I had to leave so everyone could be would be safe. Selfish right? I know not to fall into the trap again now. But who's to say I don't want to? Who's to say I get a happy ending with Undertaker? By now a happy ending is just... a dream.  I've stopped running now. Only because I'm cornered like a caged animal.

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Edited: 7/2/17