Camila laid in her bed turned to wall.
She heard Shawn laying next to her and she stopped crying.

,,Camila are you sleeping?" She heard his voice. Tear rolled down her left cheek but she answered
,,No"

Sheets moved above her. ,,Are you crying?" She felt his breath and fingers moving her hair. Sitting up she turned lights on and looked at him.

,,Why are you crying Mila" she didn't say anything he knew the answer and it killed him. Hugging him tight into her body she sobbed on his chest.

,,I can't do it anymore Shawn" she said crying

,,Camila, listen" he moved her body to watch at her.
,,You're going to make it, you're strong! One last time. Just three more months. I'm going to make it you're going to make it too. Believe me everything is going to be fine!" He finished and wiped her tears. Moving towards to her, he kissed Camila passionately, slowly.

He laid down on cold bed moving sheets to let her lay down. Like a little child and cuddle with his body.

,,You know, this last month when you were home. Was best month in my life" he heard her saying. Moving his hands down her back and hair he said ,,mine too"

Kissing him one last time for tonight she hugged him and fall asleep in his arms like an angel.
Shawn, he did not sleep. He was thinking is this all actually going to end this time.
Is everything going to be all right?
When these 3 months are going to end?

Next day

,,Camila it's time to go" he took his keys and called her.
She got out of her bathroom with red eyes and nose.

,,Okey let's go" she stood in front of him. He moved his hands on her cheek and looked at Camila. Sadness in her eyes killed him.
He pulled her head on his chest and hugged her tightly.

Walking to their car. Shawn put his backpack in back seat. He drove through the streets of New York. Silence filled car.
Camila stopped crying, she looked through her window all the time. Just their hands were together.

Pulling the car they looked into each other's eyes. ,,We are here"

,,I know" she looked down and got out of car.

Tooking his backpack he walked to her.

,,Give me your hand" she did. Her left hand is in his right.

Airport is full of people who are going to travel. All happy, but not him. He's the guy who's going to another war another mission.

Flight 12
Flight 12

He let go of her hand. She looked at him and stood up. Tears already started to flow down.
She saw in his eyes tears too.
She hugged him and she did not wanted to let go of him.

,,Don't cry" he said to her ear softly. Moving from his embrace she kissed him slowly. Moving her hands on his neck. Shawn's hands were on her hip and hair.

,,I have to go" he said pulling form kiss.
,,Remember One Last Time and I'm back"
she nodded and cried.

,,Stay strong, bye" he kissed her one more time and let go off her body. Started walking to plane, tear rolled down his cheek.

She watched him walking there. Trying to not cry replying same words. One Last Time and it's over.

As he can't see her anymore she broke again in tears. Falling down on her knees she threw her phone on floor and cried her heart out.

She felt someone's touch on her shoulder. Someone's hand.

,,Hailee" she stood up and hugged her. Crying in her shoulder she said
,,He left me again"

,,Shh he's coming back soon" she said.

Shawn called her to be there for her when he left. He knew she can't go home on her own.

,,C'mon lets go home. To rest!" Hailee took Camila's stuff and walked with her to car.

Getting in their room. She felt how cold it was. Laying down on bed she saw on floor his hoodie. Making her way to it she took it.
Hugging it she cried into his hoodie.

2 months later

It was day Friday. The day she can finally call him. Only Fridays.
She is now little bit happier. Only one month left. Plus she got one news. It's happy one.

It's 4:30pm. Waiting the time she can call him she watched TV.
Making her way to the kitchen she took her phone and glass of water when she heard knock on doors.

Opening she saw one older man. Soldier.

,,Are you Mrs. Cabello" she nodded
,,Girlfriend of Mr. Mendes" she froze

,,Yes, he's coming back home for one month-" he cut her

,,Shawn got shooted" as she heard that words water and phone felt down. Breaking in 100 of pieces. Tears rolled down her cheeks.

Replacing her hand to her stomach she said

,,Why he?" She cried words out of her mouth.

,,Listen Miss!" She watched at man.

,,Why he, he's way too young" she screamed at him

,,He's alive stop! He's here in hospital, but in critical condition" she stood up taking her stuff with her.

,,Drive me there" she got out of apartment.

Crying her eyes got blurred. She sat in car.
,,What happened" she asked sobbing

,,You really don't want to know" man answered and turned the car on.

Driving to the New York hospital she held her stomach with her hand.

As car parked in front of it. She got out running she forgot to ask room number.

,,I'm sorry. Shawn Mendes please" she said crying

,,Only family" Camila was furious ,,I'm his girlfriend"

,,Oh I'm sorry, 358" she started to walk fast searching for room

355
356
357

When she saw on doors 358 she stopped. Looking through the window of the room she saw him laying down half dead. Not moving just breathing. Her hands were on glass.

Opening the doors she got in. Throwing her stuff on floor she walked to him in tears. 

,,Shawn baby" she stood next to him moving her hands on his hair. He's not moving not taking not waking up.

As she missed his lips Camila kissed him slowly not feeling his kiss back she pulled away. Water drop was on his cheek she realised it's her tear. She wiped it away.

Doors opened and she turned to them.

,,Doctor"

,,You must be his girlfriend" she nodded her head

,,He has lost a lot of blood. I'm surprised he's even alive" as she heard that she looked down at his peaceful body sleeping

,,He's not going to wake up soon maybe even one week, month" he said and gave to Camila sad look.

As doctor got out of the room she sat down on chair next to him. Taking his hand she kissed it slowly ,,I miss you so much Shawn" she started to cry again
,,Please stay strong for me. I need you"

Hours passed away and she didn't even left his hand, she didn't even got out.
She knows how much she squeez his hand that he won't squeez back.

Her red eyes closed and she fall asleep with his hand in hers.

,,Camila" she heard next morning someone's calling her name.
Realising where she is and what happened she first looked at Shawn then at person who called her.

,,Aalyah" she stood up and hugged her tight. Crying into each other's arms they sat on chairs next to laying body of Shawn's.

,,How is he" she asked Camila.

,,Same, not moving not giving any sign of life" she said and looked at him.

Seeing inhaler on his nose, his face who's whiter than snow, his all body what's unfortunately not moving killed her.

Aalyah sat across Camila on chair, tears run her face sadness filled her eyes.

,,I'm going to leave you here" Camila said and stood up. Kissing Shawn's cheek she started to walk out.

,,Shawn, oh God" Aalyah took his hand in hers.
,,What am I going to do without you? Please be strong. For me for Camila" she couldn't talk how much she cried
,,I need you, you're the only one I have. Who's going to protect me? Huh? From who am I going to steal muffins?"
Wiping the tears she continued
,,You know I always wanted to have little boy who's going to be son of my brother. Or girl who's going to be aunt's baby"

,,Please stay strong" she kissed his hand then his cheek. Getting up her chair she walked outside. She saw Camila. Her head is in her hands, she's tired, exhausted.

,,Camila, let's go drink coffee" Camila nodded. They needed something that can make them feel awake.

Week passed by. No sigh of him showing move. Camila did not left the hospital this almost all time. She's all day next to him. Aalyah same. Holding Camila's hand and praying for Shawn to wake up.
Sadness filled their head. Thoughts were dark.
Feelings were broken.
Eyes hurt how much tears they let.
Hopes what were strong are now weak.

,,Aalyah, please go rest. You need that" Camila hugged her.

,,Here you go keys of our apartment. Now go. If there are going to be any new news I'm calling you" Aalyah nodded and kissed both of them and left.

,,Shawn, please'' she said sitting on edge of the bed.
,,Please" she begged, shaking his hand. But nothing.

,,Miss, can I talk to you" she heard doctor saying. Moving her body from bed she walked outside of the room.

,,Miss. I think there's no hope here anymore. Best thing is that to turn off-" she cut him off crying

,,I'm not doing that, you understand? How can you think I'm going to do that?" She screamed drowning in tears.

Doctor tried to say something else but she didn't listen she walked again in room and fall down on floor.
She can't believe it. What her life got her into.
She just can't.

Doors again opened.

,,Miss" she knew that's not voice of doctor.

,,yes" she asked solider who stood next to her.

,,I think you own this" he gave to her letter.

,,Thank you" she said looking at it.

,,Stay strong" Camila smiled on words for little.

As man walked out she sat on bed next to Shawn.
Turning letter she red.

For my beautiful girlfriend Camila

She opened it and started to read.

Dear Camila,

I really don't want you to read this, but if that day ever come, you need to know.

I'm Shawn, the boy who had the most beautiful girl on this all planet Earth.
God gave it to me like he saw in that moment when we met in that park that I needed someone like you.
When I saw you approached me that day to see am I alright. I fell in love with you.
Your eyes who were my light in dark filled with happiness were my favorite thing.
Your soft hair, lips...JUST YOU'RE PERFECT!

When we first time kissed under the moonlight at 10:26pm in our favorite place in world on beach of Miami felt like a dream for me.

When I needed someone, you were there. When I needed someone to laugh with you were the one.
The day when world got us apart I felt nothing then just pain and emptiness.

I know now if you're going to read this that my wishes what I want with you are not going to happen.

I want to make new adventures with you what we couldn't make it.
I want you to call Camila Mendes
I want to make your dreams come true.
And the last thing what I want is the biggest one. To have child with you. To have baby what's going to call us daddy and mummy.
I don't want one child I want it more. To have more beautiful souls who are going to be mad at us when we won't let them do what they want.

I want to get old with you!

But if that day ever comes when you're going to read this. You need to know I loved you so much that I can't count.
And plus one thing if God takes me.
You have to move on!
Don't be sad because of me. Move on. Have person who's going to make you happy. You and your child what are you going to have with him.
I'm going to be happy. You need to know that.

Love you to the moon and back
Your Shawn.

Paper got wet of her tears. She took his hand and replaced it on her stomach. Camila's fingers between his. She kept reading words of I want to have child with you.

,,Oh god" she said and moved paper from her look. Their hands still together on her stomach.

,,Shawn, your wish came true" she said crying like she felt his hand move but she only imagine it.

,,Ca-camila" she heard him saying. Moving her head she saw him with his eyes opened.
She started to cry even more.

,,Oh my god" Camila moved her all body of the bed. And moved his inhaler. Kissing him she felt kiss back. Moving her hands on his hair and cheeks she looked at him and cried.

,,Don't cry" she heard him saying

,,You're always saying to me not to cry. Now I will. It's happiness" she cried her weakness and sadness out. She don't need it anymore. Hugging him she thanked the god.
His right hand hugged her back.

,,I missed you so much" she said to him kissing his cheek.

,,I'm happy to see you again" he smiled in pain.

,,Does it hurts-im stupid" she said and got out of the room

She walked back with the doctor.

,,Mr. Mendes how you feel" said doctor checking his breathing

,,Alive" Shawn said back made Camila laugh.

,,Can you go out please" doctor asked Camila and she nodded.

Taking her phone she called Aalyah.

,,Aalyah, he has woke up" Aalyah screamed from the other side of the phone.

,,Camila, I'm coming"

Fifteen minutes after she is here running into Camila's hug crying with happiness in her eyes and heart.

,,Camila, I'm so happy" she let go off her and walked in room.

,,Shawn" she cried and hugged him tight
,,My Muffin I missed you so much" Camila watched them and smiled
,,I missed you too" Shawn replied lazy.

,,You look so cute" he said to her she smiled. ,,You don't look bad" Aalyah joked with him and messed with his hair.

Camila sat on chair and held his hand. She squeezed it and felt squeez back what made her smile.

He stayed quite for 7 minutes.

,,Aalyah can you please leave me Camila alone" he asked and she nodded. When she closed the doors Camila stood up.

,,Do you need something?" He shocked his head

,,Sit here" he showed his hand next to his body where she sat. Making their hands together she smiled.

,,You look tired" he said to her.
,,Did you get any sleep" he asked her again.

,,Yes"

,,Don't lie" she rolled her eyes on his words.

,,You read the paper" he said to her and she nodded moving to his body more.

She started to cry

,,Don't cry" again same words

,,I'm just happy believe me" she moved her left hand on his cheek.

,,Now, tell me this" he moved his hand from hers and put it on her stomach. She looked down at it.

,,Is it true" Shawn asked and she nodded happily. He smiled and moved it up and down her stomach.
Moving her body with his hand to kiss her. She helped him and moved herself.

Kissing him slowly on his lips she felt sweet taste of it and his smile. Pulling from it. He asked

,,How long"

,,About two months" his hand was on it.

,,What two months" Aalyah got in asking

,,No way" she smiled on Shawn's hand what was on Camila's stomach.

,,My god. Thank you" she hugged Camila first and kissed her then Shawn.

,,I'm going to be aunt AHHHH" they laughed while Aalyah cried from luck.

It's night. They all talked but after some time Shawn fall asleep holding their hands.
What was cute.

,,Aalyah you should sleep" Camila said

,,What about you"

,,I'm going to be here"

,,No, I'm staying here too" she smiled

,,You both should go sleep" they heard Shawn saying.

,,No-" he cut off Aalyah ,,there's no "no""

Camila missed that boy who's word always was right. Aalyah got out "mad"

Camila leaned in and kissed him after ten seconds she pulled away. Her forehead on his. His hand made into her hair and on her cheek.

,,Sleep" he said to her.

,,You need to eat. For him or her. Just eat" she kissed him one more time and smiled.

,,Good night"

,,See you tomorrow Mila" she turned off the lights and smiled.