It had been a month, no wait, 2? What did it matter? Nothing was important anymore. SeokJin had fallen ill multiple times due to his brand new living habits. Eating on the rare occasion, sleeping for far too long, and staying succluded in the safety of his house. Their house. He swore he would still awake to the sweet smell of the other man's cologne, to his heart-melting laughter, to his gorgeous face. But, as much as he searched and as much he tried to grab for Taehyung, he'd never actually be there.

It was apparent that his doctors had privately discussed depression and axiety, as one day he was given a medication to help soothe both, small tablets called 'Doxepin'. He took them as prescribed, day in and day out. Though, as one day he fell into an all too real and severe depression, he wondered why he should have even started taking them.

What's the point? Why should it matter? This is all my fault.

SeokJin's thoughts ate him away, slowly but surely. Until one particular day, he asked himself a question that would bring everything to a screeching halt.

Why don't you just end it already?

It was debatable. It would bring pain to those who still loved him, but would end it for himself. Was it too selfish of him?

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SeokJin lay on the mattress him and his departed love had shared, hugging Taehyung's pillow tight to his chest. Another day of crying, wallowing in his own tears and reminiscing the good times he had had with the boy he promised to protect with his life. How ironic.

"Taehyungie, I miss you. I miss you so much," SeokJin began, hoping that wherever Taehyung may be that he could still hear him. "And, I want you to know that we're going to be together again." The young man smiled a small one to himself, it was something he hadn't done in a while.

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He decided to make it tranquil on himself, not wanting to disturb anyone more than he already had with his sobs of agony.

He readied himself for what was going to happen. With his bottle of antidepressants in one hand and phone in the other, he poured the remaining tablets into his mouth. It took a minute or two before SeokJin mustered up the courage to swallow them. "Taehyung, we'll be together again, I promise."

He reclined back on the bed, lying there with a dainty smile. "Taehyungie," SeokJin mumbled, the pills hitting him like a freight train "Let's take a picture."

SeokJin readied his camera, smiling up at it. It may have just been from the medication, but he swore he could feel two arms tie themselves around his waist.

Click.

The flash went off, and SeokJin blacked out.

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SeokJin awoke from his drunken stupor, blinding daylight peeking through the angelically white curtains both Taehyung and himself agreed to buy when they had first moved into their rinky-dink apartment. "Good morning, beautiful~" SeokJin hummed, tossing himself onto his opposite side and feeling about for the smaller male. His eyes shot open, it was awfully strange as he clutched nothing but ice cold sheets that dared to replace his beloved's warmth. Taehyung wasn't an early riser, he was everything but that. "Taehyung-ah?" The now clearly worrisome man cried out in question, his ear-piercing ringtone making him flinch.

Jin immediately squirmed beneath the cream colored covers, reaching out and grabbing his cellphone from the couple's shared nightstand. Seeing Taehyung's name in bright bubble letters gave Jin a rush of relief, answering as quickly as possible. "Taehyung, Jesus Christ, you scared me..." A laugh came through, "Sorry, Seokie! I'm just outside, I didn't want you thinking I was an intruder!" The jingle of keys could be heard as Taehyung hung up, the front door squeaking open.

And just like that, SeokJin's life returned to it's regular, hectic, happy normality.

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A/N: Ho shit, boi. For my first angsty story I'm really digging the feels. Welp, thanks for reading, babes. 💕💕😌