A/n

This chapter's for all the Catradora shippers out there XD

(Don't get your hopes up—it was really late when I wrote this so it's probably gonna be trash)

————-Catra's POV————-

"Where did they go?" I demanded, racing over to the hall Double Trouble went down.

"I don't know," y/n said. "They just... vanished."

I let out a flustered sigh. "Great, now we've got a shape shifter on the loose. There's no way we'll ever find them!"

"We'll just have be wary of any suspicious people," Scorpia said. "Come on, we should go join the—oh, shoot! I'm supposed to be guarding the pass right now! Bye, guys!"

I watched as Scorpia ran down the halls to start her shift. I would have loved to have something to do, but Hordak didn't even know I was back yet. So instead, I turned to y/n.

"Hey, you wanna go train, or something?" I asked. "I've got nothing better to do, anyway."

She raised an eyebrow, but then she smiled. "Sure."

"Uh... why are you looking at me like that?" I asked.

"No reason," she said quickly. "I'm just glad to see you have a soft side."

"What?! I am not soft!"

Y/n laughed. "It was a compliment, Catra!"

I frowned and folded my arms.

"Come on, let's go," y/n said, grabbing me by the wrist. "You can teach me how you fight in the Horde."

I sighed, but I didn't pull away. Y/n had referred to me as a friend while we were talking to Double Trouble, and... I guess I liked that.

"Y/n! Where were you?" Lloyd immediately asked once we entered the training room. The six of us were the only ones in here.

"I, uh... went to the bathroom," she lied, gazing at the wall of weapons. She picked up a shock gun. "What's this?"

"Be careful, that's—ah!"

I didn't stop her fast enough—she pulled the trigger and electrocuted me.

"Sorry! Sorry," she immediately said, then helped me off the ground. "Are you okay?"

"I'll live," I grumbled. "No more touching something you've never seen before, okay?"

She nodded, and grabbed a staff off the rack. "This doesn't shock people, too, does it?"

"Nope," I said, talking one too. "But it will sting if you hit someone hard enough."

"Good to know," she said, then got into a fighting stance. "You ready?"

"You're going down," I taunted.

"Ha! Yeah, right!"

We fought for a bit, but we actually seemed pretty evenly matched. We each landed a hit on each other a couple times, but neither of us had a major falter.

"So," y/n said, staring up a conversation. "What's the deal with you and Adora?"

"Huh?" I wondered. My heart skipped a beat at the mention of Adora's name.

"Scorpia told me stories of the battles between the Horde and the rebels. She said you always go after She-Ra alone, but why? I highly doubt that you could take down an eight-foot tall legendary warrior by yourself."

"I'm a good distraction," I said. "I keep her away from the main fight."

"Then how come you never come up with a plan to actually hurt her?" she asked, blocking a kick.

"I... I guess I'm just waiting for the right moment."

"Maybe," y/n said, but she didn't seem to believe me. "But I don't think so."

"What's that supposed to mean?" I demanded.

"Correct me if I'm wrong, but I don't think you want to defeat Adora. I think you just miss her."

I hesitated, and unfortunately, that gave y/n the opportunity to knock me to the ground with her staff. She smirked, but then offered me her hand. I stared at it for a second, then I took it.

"What happened?" y/n asked. "Why'd you stop?"

"I, uh... I don't know."

Once I started thinking about Adora, I couldn't stop. When she left me, I didn't know what do. She meant everything to me.

Y/n was right; I didn't want Adora gone... I just didn't want her to be a rebel. I wanted her back here, with me.

Argh, what was this feeling? I clawed at my chest, trying to get rid of it. This happened every time I thought of Adora, and I didn't know what it meant. I didn't like it... it made me feel weak, scared, vulnerable.

"Catra?"

I looked up, almost forgetting y/n was standing there.

"What do you want?" I growled.

"Nothing... is there something wrong?" she said gently, coming close to me. "You look upset."

"No! I'm fine!" I said, my voice raised. But my mind was screaming at me, telling me that things could never be more wrong than this.

I tried to push y/n away, but all I ended up doing was scratching her in the arm. She grimaced, but didn't say anything. I instantly regretted it, but I was never one to apologize.

I was suddenly hit with a bunch of memories of me and Adora together as cadets. As they played in my mind, I realized that I would give anything just to have that life back. I collapsed onto my knees, staring at the floor.

"Catra!" Y/n exclaimed, crouching next to me. "What is it?"

"What's happening to me?" I whispered. "Why am I feeling this way?"

"What do you mean?" Y/n asked. "Catra, what's going on?"

I started trembling, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't control it. Y/n took my hands to stop them from shaking, but it didn't calm my mind. Tears started to fall without my consent.

"It's okay," y/n whispered, wrapping her arms around me. "You'll be okay."

"I... I don't u-understand," I sobbed. "What's happening? Why can't I control this feeling?"

"Sometimes this happens when you get overwhelmed," she explained. "It builds up over time, and eventually, it all boils over."

"H-how do I m-make it go away?"

Y/n breathed a quiet laugh. "I wish I knew... I won't pretend to know exactly what you're going through, but just know that I'm always here for you if you wanna talk."

"Uh... t-talk?" I questioned.

Y/n pulled back and looked at me sympathetically. "Sometimes expressing your feelings by talking can help you feel better."

"It can?"

She nodded. "What's on your mind?"

"Adora," I said without thinking, then I clamped a hand over my mouth.

"Adora?"

I buried my head in my hands.

"Hey, hey—it's okay. What about Adora?"

"Everything," I grumbled. "Why can't I get her out of my head?"

Y/n laughed and put a hand on my shoulder. "Catra, that's called love."

"What?! No! I don't like Adora."

"Right. You love her."

"No! I don't!" I exclaimed, pushing her away.

"I'm starting to get tsundere vibes from you," she joked, but I didn't know what that meant. "And I'm pretty sure you do."

"Okay, fine," I whispered as I hugged my knees into my chest. "Maybe I do like her. But it doesn't matter! Adora doesn't want me... not like I want her."

"You sure about that?" Y/n questioned. "I have reason to believe she loves you back."

I scoffed. "I seriously doubt that."

She smirked. "Why do you think it's so easy for you to keep her distracted?"