Lou's POV:

I sat in the backseat with Maya while Theo was in the passenger's seat and Ryan driving.

'This is going to be good.' I really hope it goes well...

We soon arrived at the pack village, it was not a house, it was a damn little village. When everybody noticed Ryan and I in the car, they bowed down in a respectful way to salute us. I just smiled at them and waved from behind the window feeling very excited.

'Yeah, you waved like queen elizabeth waves, with your fingers glued together and all.' I was nervous okay? It's the first time a whole country salutes me.

These people were so nice though. I just can't believe Ryan is their Alpha, he was so...different.

We stopped in front of a house, it was much bigger than the rest of the houses in here, more like a hotel. This must be the pack house. Ryan and Theo got out of the car opening the doors for us, we followed them inside and Ryan suddenly started shouting and giving orders to a man who was already bent down in front of him, clearly not ready yet for whatever kind of bullshit Ryan's going to bring this morning.

"Get me John, Tyler and Louis. NOW!" He shouted at the man as he stood up and made his way out of the building.

I started looking around, we were currently in the entree of the building and there was a dark hallway with portraits of muscular men that I failed to know who they were.

"Those are the portraits of the previous Alphas and Lunas of this pack, Alpha Ryan doesn't have a portrait yet since the pack members were waiting for him to find...you. Eventually we all gave up on the idea of him finding a mate at this age, but I knew that the moon goddess had planned something special for him, and here you are." Maya whispered in my ear as I processed the information she's given me while we started walking slowly down the hallway.

"But he's still so young. Why did he give up on his mate?" I asked curiously.

"Werewolves find their mate at 18 years old, if the male wolf still hasn't found his mate after he turns 22 years old he eventually thinks it's impossible to find her, and so do we."

"That's nonsense!" I blurted out while she laughed at my reaction.

"You don't have to worry about our problems Luna. Whenever you're ready, you and Alpha Ryan will have a portrait of yourselves right on this spot." She said pointing at the empty wall in front of us.

"Alpha Ryan, you wanted to see us?" A deep voice said behind us where Ryan and Theo were standing. We all turned around and saw three very handsome men bent down in front of Ryan and I.

Are you kidding me? Literally all the werewolves I met were nothing but beautiful and hot! Isn't there a single werewolf that was ugly? That way I wouldn't be the only ugly living creature in here. Selfish I know, but what should I think when I'm surrounded with hot beings?

"All of you, in my office now." Ryan ordered them as we entered a room down the hallway. I'm guessing that's the office he's talking about. The room was big, there was a huge desk in front of the french window, just in front of the desk was a set of a leather black sofa and two leather chairs at both sides of it.

No one wanted to sit, we were all standing straight while John, Tyler and Louis formed a straight line.

"This is your future Luna." Ryan told the boys while wrapping his arm around my waist which I slowly removed. But he wasn't in the mood for my attitude and growled loudly as he wrapped both hands around me in a possessive way and placed his chin on my head. He bent down to reach me seeing how short I was compared to him.

When standing straight my head only reached below his chest, that's how tall he was. Let me reformulate that: That's how short I was!

I eventually escaped from his tight embrace and moved forward towards them as they were smiling at me. I tried my best to contain a straight face but seeing their genuine smiles I just had to smile back.

"We're so glad we have a Luna!"

"You are so tiny!" One of them said as Ryan growled loudly towards him, showing his canines which made the guy flinch.

I couldn't agree more, all the people here including Maya could tower over me. I still didn't recognize who was John, Tyler and Louis though.

"So...Who is the one who jumped and snatched the branch I was sitting on that night?" I asked carefully as I watched one of them step forward while scratching the back of his neck.

"That would be me." He mumbled quietly, turning his gaze to the floor.

"What's your name?" I asked, wanting to know which one of the three he was.

"Louis." He said quietly still staring at his feet.

Oh boy! They're going to hate me for this...

I lifted my hand up and slapped him right across his cheek. Why? I just felt like doing so since I can't slap Ryan. Oh wait no, I can.

Everyone stopped talking and looked at me in shock, I could tell Ryan and Theo were snickering behind me, these idiots.

"By the moon goddess!" Maya whispered while placing her hand in front of her mouth, her expression then turned into an amused one. Louis held his cheek tight and the other guys, John and Tyler looked at the floor.

"That's because you hurt me..." I told Louis.

"I'm ready to take all the punishment nee-" He didn't continue his sentence because I interrupted him by giving him a hug. You can't blame me! I just love hugs so much and he looked like a cuddly person to me.

Again, everybody froze and stared at us in silence. Ryan was now growling loudly till I shut him up with a don't-you-dare-do-anything-or-I-won't-talk-to-you-again look.

"And that's because you took orders from that jerk and it wasn't actually your fault." I said while hugging Louis even more. God! He was so warm!

'Not as warm as Ryan tho...' You have a point Lou...
But why was I comparing him to Ryan?

"Don't you fucking touch her." Ryan threatened Louis.

"It's difficult Alpha, she's like a soft little bunny!" He whined while looking at my smiling expression.

Ryan lunged for him but Theo caught him directly and I let go immediately of Louis to go calm that idiot down.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have hugged him." I whispered in his ear while placing my hands on his chest. He was still eyeing Louis but he was calmer now.

"You're dismissed, thank you." I told the three terrified guys behind me as they walked out of the room and closed the door behind them.

"WHAT THE FUCK LORRAINE?" Ryan roared at me, Theo still holding him tight. For the first time I felt a twinge of pain when he called me by my full name and not by those cute nicknames he gives me.

I looked directly in his eyes and saw the hurt in them. Even though it was just a hug, I felt guilty, like I made a huge mistake.

"I'm sorry but I slapped him, and I wasn't going to leave him like that!" I sighed hopelessly.

"WHY DID YOU SLAP HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE?" He asked and yelled at the same time.

He was right. Why did I slap him? Why the hell did I do that? I had no answer. I couldn't answer this question. One other thing about me is that I am stupid. Stupid Lou! I don't think before acting, and that's why I regret everything I make. Every decision I made, every word I said, everything I did was because I never thought before acting. And I was stupid!

Oh but I'm not going to let him see that.  
Another thing about me is that I was stubborn, so so stubborn I would never admit my own fault. And that was really selfish of me, but seeing Ryan explode at me that way, it was infuriating me even more and I'm definitely going to regret what I'm about to do next.

"I THOUGHT YOU WERE LAUGHING WHEN I DID THAT! WEREN'T YOU PLEASED?" I yelled back at him.

"YES I WAS, UNTIL YOU WRAPPED YOUR HANDS AROUND HIM! YOU'RE MINE. ALL MINE!" He screamed back at me making me yelp. He was so possessive, jealous, selfish and damn protective.

'He's still a guy Lou, he's eventually going to hurt you. You know from experience that you shouldn't believe everything they say...' She was right. I always have those insecurities and doubts because I eventually end up getting hurt, and I'm sick of it.

I knew why I hugged Louis, I was teasing Ryan and wanted to see his reaction. Was this what I wanted to see? I felt happy that he was protective and reacted this way, but I regretted it because it ended up in a fight. Things between us always end up in fights.

We are not meant for each other... 

Oh Gosh! I am so complex I'm even confusing myself. The problem is, I didn't know what I wanted.

I want loyalty but I cannot trust easily.

I want respect but I've always been treated like trash and I'm not used to being respected.

I want the truth but I'm living in lies.

I don't know what I want.

But I definitely know what I don't want though. And I don't want this! This was a whole different world and I'm not ready to live in it when I can't seem to accept it.

"Thanks for everything, but I'm out of here." I mumbled before sprinting to the exit. I ran away, again.

'What else is new?' Oh will you shut up Lou? It's basically because of you that I'm running towards the woods right now. I know he's going to catch me eventually, he always does. But I wanted to be alone for a second, just to think about everything.

Not a minute passed and here I was, on the floor, a sobbing mess and Ryan straddling me.

Why was I even crying? Stupid period emotions.

"WHAT'S WRONG? WHAT'S GOTTEN INTO YOU? TALK TO ME!" He screamed at me face and all I managed to do was cry even harder.

Maya and Theo caught up with us.

"Give us a moment guys." He told them calmly which made them go the other way, back to the village.

"Fucking talk to me Lorraine. Talk to me, tell me what's on your mind and we'll find a solution together. Angel, it pains me to see you hurt like that, it's fucking killing me to see you hurting while I'm...the reason. If you don't want this," He hesitated a bit but proceeded, "If you don't want this you can fucking reject me for all I care, I just don't want to see you hurt anymore." He whispered silently while getting up and helping me up but still not looking at me. He was staring at the ground, finding his shoes more interesting than me. I couldn't blame him, I look like a rats ass.

Reject him? Did I want to reject him? Hell no, that's for sure. But I didn't want to be the one rejected either. What should I do? What should I say?

'You don't need to say anything. Silence is the best treatment after all Lou...'

I chose exactly what I said to myself, I didn't say anything. I stayed quiet the whole way back to the village, and thank god Ryan didn't want an answer, he didn't need one right now.

The way back home was filled with an awkward silence, and I never saw Ryan broken like that in my entire miserable life with him. This time he was miserable because of me and not the other way round. I end up getting hurt because I hurt the people I care due to my thoughtless actions.

I don't deserve to live...

We soon arrived at his house, Maya and Theo were about to leave but Simon showed up and joined us.

"Yo what's up guys?" He smiled at us but it soon faded away when he saw our faces.

"Seriously what's wrong? Why do you all look like someone just died or something?" He asked more seriously.

"Lou?" He looked at me, waiting for an answer because I was the only one he could get an answer from.

"It's nothing, don't worry about it..." I said but it turned out as a whisper.

"Alright, if you say so. I was actually heading towards the supermarket, I need to buy some things. Does anyone want to come with me?" BINGO! Good thing Simon was here because I totally forgot that I needed to buy myself some necessary sanitary products.

"Yes! Thanks for reminding me Simon. I need to buy some things too." I squealed in excitement because Simon was just Simon, and I never succeed to not laugh when he's around. He is the funny guy of this group and he'll end the tension between us eventually!

"Actually we need some toilet paper, 'someone' finished them quickly, again..." Maya said while air quoting the word someone and giving Theo a deadly look.

"Fine, I'll drive." Ryan said quietly as we entered the car again, he was still not looking at me. Why did this pain me so much? Why was I craving his attention?

Why wasn't I able to figure this out...