After my meeting I head to River's apartment. 

When I get there he opens the door, wearing nothing but sweatpants. 

Oh wow. 

I saw him half shirtless earlier but fully shirtless?

I didn't know men like him existed in real life. 

His muscles are defined but they aren't those gross huge bulgy ones body builders have. 

His tanned skins has droplets of water on it and I raise my gaze to see his hair is wet as well. 

He must of just stepped out of the shower. 

When I meet his eyes he's already got a knowing smirk on his face. 

So like maybe I was checking my boyfriend out, sue me. 

He looks mighty fine if you ask me. 

I want to run my tongue along his abs

Wait what?

"Do you plan on coming in?" He asks and I nod slowly. I am sure my jaw is hanging on the ground right now. 

He opens the door wider and I step into his apartment. 

"Did you want anything to eat?" He asks and I shake my head. 

"Dez and I got food." I say and I hear him shut his door. 

I turn to him, wrapping my arms around the back of his neck. 

My heart thumps erratically in my chest as I say, "I was thinking we could start where we left off this morning."

He makes a deep throaty noise and in an instant his lips are on mine. 

His hands cup my butt before squeezing. 

Woah. 

He lifts me up and I wrap my legs around him. 

Slowly he carries me into his room and lays me down on the bed. 

Butterflies erupt in new places as he comes to hover over me. 

He captures my lips again in a deep kiss. 

I feel his hands skim my exposed skin on my stomach where my shirt had risen up. 

"So soft." He mutters against my lips. 

His hands trail up and I sit up slightly so he can remove my shirt. 

I've never been this exposed in front of a mans gaze before. 

His face dove into my neck and my my hands found his hair. 

As his body began to rub against mine the nerves started to stir again. 

The fear of not being good enough for him. What if I suck at it? I mean how do people know how to move their body?

He pulls away clearly sensing my nerves. 

"You ok?" He asks and I nod, "Just nervous." I say honestly. 

He laughs but it's not the kind that says he's laughing at me. 

"I'm nervous too." He said and my brows furrow, "How come?" I ask. 

Was he nervous because I was nervous?

He looks down almost timidly before shaking his head. 

I run my fingers through his hair, and pull his head up to look at me. 

HIs eyes shining with vulnerability and it clicks into place. 

"You too?" I ask and he nods. 

I smile before placing a kiss to the side of his mouth. 

"I'm sure you'd want someone experienced for your first time." He says as if I'd want to do this with anyone but him. 

"No, it actually makes me feel better." I say honestly. 

The weight of having to match standards has lifted off of my chest. 

He gives me a surprised look, "Really?" He asks and I nod before leaning up and kissing him. 

The nerves I had dying down as his hands slide down and unbutton my shorts. 

Slowly sliding them down my legs I feel his knuckles skim my skin. 

Goosebumps erupt as his hands slide back up my body. 

He's level with me again and his hand stop just below the bottom of my bra. 

They go around before unclasping my bra. 

I pull the straps down and he removes the bra completely. 

He doesn't look down though as I feel his hands run over the curves of my waist and hips before his fingers hook until the waist band of my underwear. He pulls that down my body as well. 

Now I lay there beneath him completely exposed. 

I feel like I should feel self conscious but I don't.

Not when his eyes scan my body like it's his favorite thing in the world to look at. 

A satisfied noise leaves his lips and then his lips are back on mine.

Not for too long though as they travel down leaving open mouth kiss on my neck and collar bone. 

He sucks on the swells of my breast before finally he pulls my left nipple into his mouth. 

The sensation sends pleasure shooting through me. 

"River." I gasp out as his other hands toys with my other breast. 

My legs bend and my back arches as he pulls the nipple between his teeth. 

Then he works his way over to the other breast doing the same magic on that side. 

Once he's done he places kisses down my stomach. 

It tickles slightly near my belly button and I try to contain the giggle that wants to escape. 

He passes the place I want him most and kisses the inside of my right then. Then he moves on the left. 

His arms wrap around my legs and he finally kisses that place. 

I gasp and my butt goes to shoot of the mattress but he keeps me grounded with he weight of his arms. 

"Stay still baby." He says against me. 

His mouth trails kisses down my slit before his tongue runs through it. 

One of his arms unhooks from around my leg and I know what's about to happen. 

I feel his finger run through the my folds before he slowly slides it into my opening. 

My head flies back onto the pillows and a low sound escapes me. 

His mouth finds it's way back to my clit as his finger works in and out of me. 

Now I understand why woman love this so much. 

I'm squirming beneath him as I feel a build up deep inside me. 

"Riv." I moan out and he works deeper and faster. 

He inserts another finger and the pressure is too much. 

With his name on my lips I let go, my back arching so far I wonder if any part of me is still touching the mattress. 

He pulls his fingers out and I open my eyes, my breathing heavy. 

Looking up at me with very hooded eyes he slides his fingers into his mouth, sucking them clean. 

He works his way back up to me and our lips meet. 

My hands slide down and remove his pants. 

I want to feel him inside of me. 

He slides his pants the rest of the way off and I look down. 

Whoah. 

Fumbling with his nightstand drawer he pulls out a condom. 

"Why do you have those?" I ask curiously.

What was he doing with condoms just sitting in his drawer. 

He looks down sheepishly, "It was Spencer's house warming present." he says as if he's embarrassed. 

Now that the green monster inside me has disappeared knowing that River hadn't bought those with the intention of using them with another girl, my hand grips his length pumping it once. 

That's all I get before River grunts and removes my hand. 

"I'm not coming unless I am inside you." He says and I don't miss the way my insides flutter at the thought. 

He opens the foil packaging and I watch as he rolls the condom on. 

His eyes meet mine again and I feel him at my entrance. 

I grip onto his shoulders to brace myself and he kisses me as I feel him inch his way inside of me slowly. 

The feeling foreign to both of us as he slides in all the way. 

I don't know what people meant about being in pain, I just feel a slight stretch and discomfort. 

I mean River is inside of me right now. 

He places his forehead on mine and I know he's trying to ground himself. 

"Do you understand how fucking good you feel around me?" He asks and I don't why I feel shy all of a sudden. 

"You feel so deep inside me, I can feel you hear." I poke my skin where I feel him and he groans. 

"Ava baby you can't be saying shit like that." He sounds almost in pain and that's when I realize he hasn't moved yet. 

He's breathing heavy and I wait with him. 

A few moments pass before he slides out of me and slams inside of me again. 

We both release a noise in pleasure. 

His thrusts start slow and calculated as his forehead remains resting on mine. 

One of my hands trails down his back as I feel his thrusts speeding up. 

His one hand leaves the mattress and I feel his thumb on my clit, rubbing circles. 

"Fuck, baby." He says and I lean up to kiss him. 

His tongue slides in my mouth and his thumb works faster as he continues to pump in and out of me. 

"River I-" I start before I am taken over by a euphoria of pleasure. 

He soon follows releasing into the condom. 

His head rests in the crook of my neck and our sweaty bodies stick together. 

"That was amazing." I say. 

He chuckles, "You're not wrong."

When he pulls out of me there is a little twinge of pain but nothing major. 

Plopping down beside me we both catch our breaths. 

"I want to do that again." I blurt and he turns his head to look at me, his hair falling in his eyes. 

"Just give me a few and then we can do it as many times as you want." He says and I can't help the smile that takes over my face. 

River fulfills his promise, we only get two more rounds in before I am so worn out I can't keep my eyes open. 

He tucks me into his side as I fall asleep.