Y/N POV

I wandered the halls, barely paying attention to those coming and going until I found myself in the hallway of Yoongi's and Namjoon's studio rooms. 'Did Joonie really want me to leave?' I frowned as my vision started to blur from the tears I was holding back. Frustrated,  I wiped them angrily away. I would convince them another way, that was that. I stopped, feeling myself flounder, fight to stay or walk away. A wet chuckle escaped me as my vision started to blur again. 'Maybe...just maybe I was meant to be alo..." 

My train of thought derailed as an arm wrapped around my waist and guided me quickly towards one of the studios. The tears started to slowly make trails down my cheeks. I felt his arms wrap around me, as he pressed my face to his chest as he murmured "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry Y/N." Over and over again into my hair.

"Joonie..." I murmured out against his chest.

"No, Y/N I messed up. I jumped the gun without hearing your thoughts, plans and ended up being a complete hypocrite," Joonie said while looking down upon my face. I held his wrists gently as he cupped my face, using his thumbs to rub away the tears trickling down my face. He was being so gentle with me, which for some reason was causing more tears to fall down my face, I was so confused. I pushed his hands away, so that I could rub my own hands up and down my face bringing myself under control. I took a couple steps back to create space between us as I lowered my hands. I waited for the dots from rubbing my eyes too hard to dissipate before Joonie came into focus. I leaned carefully against his desk and gazed at him, before sighing.

"Joonie, it is okay for your first reaction to be protect your family," I said softly, as I wrapped my arms around myself feeling like I was heading back at square one, ALONE.

He was watching me carefully, and I knew he didn't like the space I had placed between us. "It is true that I want to protect my family, but you are family now, you aren't alone anymore," he said softly as he moved slowly towards me. He was afraid that I would push him away. "What I said earlier, was a knee jerk reaction brought on by years of trying my best to protect my brothers. I apologize for not thinking before saying anything. I don't want you to leave us, I would be heartbroken, we would be."

He was now in front of me, I wasn't trapped by any means and there was plenty of space for me to move around him. He was waiting for me to make my decision on whether to forgive him or not. "I had made the decision to fight to keep what we have before bringing the news to you because you guys had me convinced that you would not let me go and would support me where possible..." I was fighting a wave of disappointment and anger as I trailed off trying to reign in my emotions.

"I wouldn't let anything ever happen to you guys, you are far more important to so many in the world than I am, so I just want to know if you trust me to do so?" I asked, I hadn't moved towards him at all. This wasn't something that was just going to go away.

"I do trust you to do so, BUT I want you to remember that you are far more important than you realize not just to me, but to everyone else." Joonie said looking down at me, determined but there was warmth in his eyes.

I nodded, I was pretty sure of where I stood with everyone else, minus Kookie, he was throwing me for a loop. "Joonie... what do you want from me?"

He looked at me surprised and then turned thoughtful before answering, "I want for you to know your worth, I want for you to see yourself through our eyes, I want for you to be happy with the choices you have made in order to bring you to this moment, I want you to understand how loved you are..." he trailed off before continuing, "I want a forever with you that I have never really believed possible until meeting you and FINALLY I want for you to be in my arms right now."

I stood there stunned before finding myself taking those last couple steps to be where I belonged. "You have a home, we may be idiots sometimes, and will say something stupid but I hope you realize that we will apologize and do our best to learn to be better so that we can fight to keep you by our sides because you deserve all that and more," he said into my hair while I hugged him back. It felt like he had just battered down one of the last walls standing between us.

I don't know how long we stood there taking comfort in each others arms, when a chuckle slipped past my lips, "I don't plan on going anywhere, I was just going to have to think of a different way to convince you to let me stay."

He laughed against my hair, "That's my stubborn girl."

I gasped and tried to playfully pull away, but Joonie wasn't having it. He pulled me towards him, tilted my chin up and kissed me, stealing my breath away. I kissed him back, us both teasing each other until I found my butt on his desk and him standing between my legs.

"We should probably get back to the guys," I managed to gasp out, trying to collect my thoughts that were getting scattered as Joonie was trailing kisses down my neck.

I heard him hum a bit to himself like he was thinking a bit, "I think they can wait 30 minutes," he said as he tugged at my shirt a bit. "Hmmm... Joonie, not here," I managed to squeak out. He leaned back and peered down at me with darkened eyes.

He sighed against my lips, seeming reluctant to stop but he kissed me softly, "I love you Y/N, you have no idea how crazy you drive me."

"Oh Joonie," I pulled him back against me, breathing deep and calming my heart. "Thank you for being you..." I trailed off as I looked up at him. He had no idea what he did to me, what they all did to me. 

He gave me some space so that I can hop off his desk and fix my shirt a bit. He took my hand, linking our fingers together and we made our way back to everyone else.

**

I bounded into the house, completely forgetting about the need to talk to them as I was still riding the feelings that Joonie had made me feel. I hummed to myself standing out of the way of the guys as they moved about. Most moving to their rooms to shower and change since they were a bit sweaty from dance practice. Joonie pressed a kiss to my temple as he walked by, before proceeding down the hallway to his room.

"I'm glad he was able to make up with you," Jin said as he stood next to me watching people walk past and down the hallway.

I hummed in agreement, looking up him before squeaking out as I was scooped up and thrown over someone's shoulder. I lifted my head to see Jin laughing and waving at me as I was carried away. I smacked the butt that just above my head while trying to figure out who had me. I got a return slap on the butt as I was carried into what I noticed to be Kookie's room. 'Wonder what's got Kookie all worked up?' I thought to myself as Kookie kicked the door shut before turning full circle and sighing out in frustration.

"Kookie luv, mind putting me down?" he grunted at me before gently leaning over so that my feet touched the ground. I tilted my head so that I could look up at him confused, only to find him looking down at me just as confused. I reached up and poked his cheek in hopes of getting his attention back to the here and now as he seemed to be lost in his own mind. His eyes focused on me, causing me to raise my eyebrows at him before he grinned at me and pushed me hard enough for me to step back before his bed hit the back of my legs. I fell back onto the bed, waiting to be tackled but nothing happened, so I tilted my head so that I could peer at Kookie who was just staring down at me.

"Don't move, I'll be right back," he said pointing at me before moving to gather some clothes and walk into the bathroom.

I put my arms behind my head and stared at the ceiling, kicking my legs that were still hanging off the side of the bed. I let my mind wonder before quickly remembering I needed to talk to the guys about things. I sat up and pulled out my phones that were in my back pockets and started comparing schedules trying to find time for all of us to sit and discuss things. I frowned at my phones, why the heck are we so busy, just 15 minutes at a minimum and I would be able to breakdown my thoughts and some of my plans to them. I started grumbling to myself not realizing that Kookie had come out of the bathroom.

"Y/N?" Kookie asked softly, trying not to startle me much with his closeness.

I jerked my head up, pulling myself out of my thoughts to give Kookie my attention. Something was going on with him and he was finally ready to discuss whatever it was. I smiled at him, tossing my phones to the side and scooching myself more onto the bed so that I could sit more comfortably. Kookie watched me get comfortable before crawling onto the bed himself.

"Take your time Kookie, I'm not going anywhere," I said as it seemed he was struggling to find the words he was looking for. He looked at me in relief, which caused me to smile at him.

"How can you be so perfect?" he mumbled out, causing me to chuckle.

"Oh, I am nowhere near perfect and struggle everyday with my choices that I need to make," I said as I tilted my head back and stared at the ceiling.

"But you are perfect for me, even the parts that you deem to be flaws or weaknesses, I see them as your strengths since you don't let them hold you back," he said softly.

I looked at him surprised and touched by his words but didn't say anything since he didn't seem to be finished. His hand covered mine, linking his fingers with my own as he continued, "I have thought long and hard about my feelings and I know I have been confusing these past couple weeks," he stopped as he ran his free hand through his hair before turning to look at me. "I just wanted to make sure that my feelings for you were true feelings and not the exaggerated feelings of a fan... I also wonder how I can be a part of your life when you have the rest of the guys and I know I shouldn't compare us, but it is still a concern." He finished up as he looked at me.

I let his words turn over in my mind before smiling softly at him, "Kookie, don't ever worry about what someone else is or isn't doing, just be yourself because you are more than enough and I love you just the way you are," I said, giving his hand a squeeze.

He looked at me, "Do you think you'd be able to balance all seven of us?" he asked causing me to laugh.

"I've been thinking about that almost every day, but all I can do is my best to make sure someone doesn't feel left out and that each of you feel loved," I chuckled out as I flopped back on the bed.

I rolled over onto my side so that we were now facing each other and watched as he propped his head up so that he could peer down at me. A smile spread across his face, while his free hand reached over and cupped my face, "Y/N, can I please be your boyfriend?"

I nodded, leaning into his hand, all while hoping my heart didn't pop out of my chest. He inched himself closer, planting a kiss on my forehead before enveloping me into a hug. I returned the hug, breathing in his scent as my face was pressed into his chest. "You still need to tell us more about the rumors surrounding the disappearances of Anomalies," he grumbled out.

"Yes, I do," I said pulling back a bit. "You guys will have to trust me because you might not like my plan."

I watched him frown, but a knock on the door interrupted anything more. The door opened and Jin popped his head in, "Sorry to interrupt but since have some spare time, would like to pick up things where you left off before?"

I sighed and nodded, quickly giving Kookie a peck on the cheek and rolling off the bed, while pulling him up with me. Today has been roller coaster of emotions, all I could hope is that I would be able to pull off the most spectacular finale and that what was to come wouldn't be the end of us.

Sorry for the delay. It has been a rough few weeks health wise. Hope everyone is taking care of themselves. Stay healthy luvs.