winner or looser (ch.20)

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~Victoria's POV~
Time skip

It was the morning of the awards and some nights dreams wernt that bad and others would be bad enough to leave suicidal thoughts in my mind all day. The itch was horrible, trigger warning starts I just needed to take the blade and slide it across. I told the guys I didn't ever cut but I used to really badly. I would have huge scars across my stomach and across my arms. But I couldn't help it I had woken up from a dream around 3:30 and no one was awake, it was the perfect time because no one would notice. But since my dress for awards was short sleeved and I didn't want to wear a jacket I decided my collar bone and chest would be the best for now. I searched through the cabinets for anything sharp or that could easily cut. I found a razor from my bag and I removed the blades. I glided the sharp object across my skin leaving a sharp but warm feeling. Next thing I knew I had tons of cuts all over my shoulders and collar bone a long with a few small ones on my wrists. I would have an easy cover up for them because I'm a naturally clumsy person. Part over I cleaned everything up and returned back to bed. When I lyed down the fabric of my shirt hit the cuts a d left the worse sting ever. I should have thought that through first.

I woke up in a snuggled mess of Lex and blankets. Tonight were awards! That meant I had to be around people ugh. I immediately left my bunk because I just wanted a cup of coffee and to think about everything that has happened. There was a reason for me to be depressed right? I had or had to deal with these things,
Abused
An orphan
Adopted
Bullied
Constantly traveling
Became famous over night
I almost died
My boyfriend almost had to leave
I have horrible dreams
I would wake up crying
I had immediate surgery
Gerard is my birth dad
Frank and Gerard are dating
Suicidal thoughts
Committed suicide

I was allowed to be upset? No one is under the amount of stress I am under right? I practically spent the day thinking about my entire life and how my life would be a best selling book or something crazy. Maybe I should make a book about my life. And that's what I did. I grabbed one of my extra note books and just started to write.

"Watcha doing?" Gerard asked.

"I'm making a book about my life."

"Cool. So you know tonight it awards night right?"

"Yeah."

"Wear something nice please. We're going to be on live TV and I don't want you to look like you've been living on a tour bus for like 2 months."

"Yeah I already have my outfit picked out."

I spent my day writing then it was time to leave. We all were in really nice outfits that looked to fancy for our style.

Lex had on some tight white jeans, a black button up top, a leather jacket, some really cool maroon doc Martin's and his fancy glasses. (Lex's outfit↓)

(Victoria's outfit↓ and Victoria doesn't wear glasses there just fake ones.)

I had on a dress that covered my neck and shoulders perfectly. I also had on some black tights, white socks, a 'V' necklace, black fake plugs, white platform shoes, and a white pair of clear fake glasses. And I had my hair up into a fancy bun perfect for the occasion. I also put on some eyeliner, eyeshadow, and some mascara because it was an awards night and I normally didn't wear makeup.

All the guys see dressed up really fancy and it was really weird too because you could never imagine the guys wearing anything beyond a shirt and jeans. I thought that a bus was going to get us but we ended up with a limo to Chicago for the awards. We had our pictures taken when we got in and people were scattered throughout the place wearing super fancy dresses and tuxs. There were a few interviewers around talking to some people probably about tonight. One came up to us and asked if it was okay if they talked to us for a moment, we all agreed and they continued with there talking.

"Hello! And where here with the band of My Chemical Romance and there newest addition Victoria, but could you introduce him?" The interview held the microphone to me.

"Well this is my boyfriend Lex." Lex waved to the camera and the interviewer asked us about tonight and wishing us luck.

We all found our way to our assigned table. We were sharing a table with the boys of Twenty One Pilots. The boy Josh said he was a huge fan of MCR and that is was amazing that we got to meet them. The awards were about to start music started to play and te lights became dim but the stage lights were bright. The host come out doing hosty things. The awards night had started.

*1 hour later*

Awards were extremely long but it was almost over. They still had about 20 to hand out.

"And the Iheartraido award for best music video goes to My Chemical Romance for WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE!" everyone cheered and we all headed up to the stage.

"Thank you for everyone who nominated us for this award, it's truly amazing and we are all extremely exited and we couldn't have done it without the MCR community and um, were also glad Victoria could join us for her first award night. So thank you everyone!" Gerard said holding up the award. Everyone cheered once more before we returned to our seats.
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The night was over and the place was clearing out quickly. I was walking behind the guys just about a few inches away from them because they were super fast. Then a pair of hands wrapped around my mouth and waist before I was picked up and taken somewhere. I was kicking and screaming only muffled screams. I had tears streaming down my face and I was scared half to death. I wanted my dad. I wanted to go home.

I was taken into a dark alley where 3 men where. I was tied to a chair and all the men were surrounding me. I had a tear stained cheeks along with mascara all over me. I didn't have anything covering my mouth so that was a plus. The guys were speaking some sort of different language.

"SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE! GERARD FRANK LEX! HELP!" I screamed at the top of my lugs crying. One of the men turned to me and came really close to my face. He slapped me and began to speak.

"You better shut up and save your breath because no one's going to hear you on a buys night. Have anything to say for yourself?"

"Yes, there going to find me and there going to beat your asses because my dad is going to beat the ever living hell out of you and your little gang." I spat spitting in his face.

"Oh little girl you've messed with the wrong people." He slapped me once more before taking me out of the chair.

I was so scared I couldn't breath or move. I just let him push me around because I was so limp and scared. I started to scream and cry when he touched my shoulder tugging at the fabrics of my dress. I kicked and screamed hoping to buy myself some time to escape but this guy had a death grip on me.

"LET ME GO YOU ASS!" I screamed while trying to kick him.

My cuts were exposed to the entire world now.Then he fell to the ground. My vision was becoming blurred with tears as someone picked me up. I started to kick because it was my only was of defense because my arms were wrapped up.

"LET ME GO!" I screamed once more before I was set down. I tan to the wall and sat next to it with my eyes burried into my knees.

"Dont worry Vici, it's Mikey it's okay." I looked up to him and I immediately threw my arms around his neck and hugged him while crying into his shoulder. I could hear fighting and Frank's voice screaming at the guys. Lex soon met my eyes and came rushing over to me rubbing my back and humming into my ear.

I just want to go home.
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Song of the day: Thank You For The Venom by My Chemical Romance

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