I had a dream this night but the only thing I could remember was a black fog who could talk. 

And it said a lot but this stuck with me the whole night.

Do you know that feeling what life sometimes feels like? 

Like you're in the middle of a deep, blue ocean. All alone in the dark sea. A storm is raging, thunder is crashing. 

And you try to keep swimming but no matter how hard you try, everytime you catch your breath, another wave of salty water bursts over you, pushing you down again. 

You keep fighting but nothing is working, no matter how much you want to.

Until you float under water, surrounded by cold black emptiness. 

Alone. 

You can still hear the storm above you, but you're completely silent. 

You can't move, even if you wanted to. You tried so hard but failed. There is no way to go but down. 

You sink into nothing. You're tired of trying. Tired of fighting. 

And then you drown. 

This feeling when life keeps pushing you down and nothing works. You hurt yourself, you fight.

 But it seems to be worthless. 

Hopeless. 

I think this was a sign of God, telling me to get my shit together  :)