*TW* *Mentioning suicide*

(Don't play the music until I say please)

*November 16th*
-11:20 A.M-

~The wheelers residence~

*Mike was looking in the mirror with no emotion*

~It's been 4 days ever since Will's death and Mike hasn't came out of his room for ANYTHING~

~If his mom came up to tell him to come eat he would tell her to drop it off outside the door~

~if he needed to use the bathroom he would go but then he'd go straight back to his room to lock the door~

~Mike hasn't sleep either, the only time he got to sleep was last night but it wasn't a good sleep either, it was just for an hour~

~he has big purple bags under his eyes from exhaustion and crying~

*Mikes mother, Karen, walks in the door*

Karen: Mike honey? It's time to go.

Mike: I'll be down in a second. Just give me a minute.. *he says in a low and quiet voice*

*she nods*
Karen: Of course. *she says quietly and smiles*

*she shuts his door and walks back downstairs*
*Mike puts his hands over his face before walking downstairs*

*he walks to the front door where his dad, Ted, his mom, Karen, and his sister, Nancy were waiting*

Ted: Ready to go bud?

*Mike slightly nods and everyone walks out of the house*
*they walk out to garage and Ted unlocks the car*
*everyone gets in and Ted drives out of the garage and towards downtown Hawkins*

*as Ted was driving, Mike was looking out the window when he sees the Cinema that Will and him used to work at*

*he starts getting a flashback*

*4 months ago*
-8:43 P.M-

~Will has been working at the Cinema for a couple weeks while Mike just started~

~Mike and Will were making a tower of the small boxes of candy~

*once Mike carefully puts a box on it, it falls over*

Will: WHOOO BOOM! You owe me 10 bucks!

*They both laugh while looking into eachothers eyes*

~Will could only be himself around Mike, Mike didn't know why, but Will just wasn't himself when Mike wasn't around, Will was a quite "freak" everyone thought he was~

*Will and Mike walk outside to the ladder that leads up the roof
Mike climbs up it first then Will*

*Mike helps him up on the roof while Will was on the last step*

*they both walk over to the middle of the roof and they lay down next to eachother*

*they both look up at dark night sky and star-gaze*

~Even though it was the middle of summer, it was cold that night~

*Mike turns his head over at Will and sees him slightly shivering*

*Mike sits up and takes his jacket off*

Mike: here, wear this.

*Will sits up half-smiling*

Will: Thanks mike. *he puts the jacket on*

*they both lay back down and continue looking at the stars*

Mike: Wait.. Do you see that?

Will: see what..?

Mike: The stares over there are shaped like a dog print!

Will: where??

*They both sit up and Mike points up into the air*
*Will trys finding it but fails, Mike notices so he moves Will's head towards it*

*they both slightly laugh once Mike places Will's head in the right spot*

Will: Oh my god I see it!

*Will smiles while looking up at it*

Will: I see it...

*They both look at eachother in the eyes, they were closer than before*

*they continue gazing into eachothers eyes*

Will: Mike?

Mike: yes Will? *he says slightly smiling*

Will: Mike!!

*Back into reality*

Nancy: Mike!

*Mike snaps out of his thoughts and sees they're at Will's funeral*

Mike: S-sorry...

*Mike gets out and they all walk inside the building*

*Mikes parents talk with Will's parents, even though Will's parents are quieter than usual*

*The party was already there, and once they seen Mike they run up to him*

Max: Hey, how you feeling?

Mike: Fine.. Thanks.

*Joyce calls Mike up for his speech*
*Mike looks at the party and they nod, they walk to the front of the room and sit down on the chairs*

*Mike walks up next to Will's picture and everyone takes their seats and looks up at him*

Mike: Will Byers came into my life when we were in kindergarten. I was just a scared little boy with no friends, and it was recess. I just walked around awkwardly until I saw Will. He looked alone as well. So I walked up to him and I asked.. If he wanted to be my friend. He said yes. He said yes. *Mike chuckles as a tear falls down his face*

Mike: It was the best decision of my life. And-

*Mike "see's" Will walk inside the building*
*Will was wearing a blue striped sweater that was tucked in into jeans with a black belt and long yellow socks*

*Will sits down in the back row and smiles at Mike*

Mike: Will was smart, he was so, so caring. He always cared about others rather they liked him or not. I loved him. I loved Will so much. I wish I could ask him why.. He did it. But I can't.. And he left us lost, confused, angry.. And empty. And I know that anger won't ever go away. And there won't be a day passing by where I don't blame myself for what happened. *a tear falls down mikes face*

Mike: Will was so special. He was like nobody I've ever met. There's nobody like him, which means nobody can replace Will.

*Mike sighs with a shaking voice*

*Will smiles as he gets up*
*he turns around and walks outside of the building*

*Mike watches, knowing he was hallucinating*

Mike: T-thank you for listening..

*everyone claps and gets up out of their seats*
*Mikes eyes were filled with tears as the party walks up to him*

*Lucas hugs him as Mike quietly crys over his shoudler*

*1 hour later*

*Mike was sitting at a table with the party, everyone at that table was silent, until..*

Jonathan: Mike?

*Mike looks up at Jonathan and notices something behind his back*

Jonathan: I think you should have this.. *he holds out a folded up paper infront of mike*

*Mike slowly takes it*
Mike: T-thank you, what is it?

Jonathan: Just read it..

*he walks away leaving the whole party confused*

Dustin: You heard the guy, read it.

*Mike opens up the paper shaking and sees a bunch of words written on it*

~and it was Will's handwriting..~

*Mike begins to read it*

~Play music now :) ~

"If you're reading this.. I'm dead. And theres a reason for that. School is literally hell. I hate forcing a smile on my face all day every day. I mean I suppose sometimes I can be happy. When I'm with friends and they make me laugh with their sense of humor, but at the end of the day, My smile turns to an unexplainable sad grin. I'd just lay in bed, drowning myself in music and my sorrows, wishing I could admit to people about myself, and about who I am, but I couldn't. People are homophobic assholes who like to think they're right 100% of the time. They think being gay is disgusting and if you come out as gay or trans they'll treat you like a disgrace to the world. And nights like these make me realize I am MANY things. I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm outgoing, I'm shy, I'm a disgrace, and I'm alone. But mostly, I'm completely empty. Now I didn't kill myself because I didn't love you guys.. I did it because the longer I stayed, the more I hated myself.. Mike, you want the truth? Fine. I liked you. Alot. And it honestly really scared me. I really didn't wanna screw up the friendship we had, and I fell pretty damn hard for you. The truth? I loved you. And I never wanted to admit it because you had somebody who was smart, intelligent and beautiful right infront of your eyes. I wouldn't blame you either, I would choose El over me too. Now whoever's reading this.. Mom, Jonathan, Mike, the party.. Thanks for caring, But I just wished you all cared a little bit more. Love, Will."

Max: Mike? What does it say?

*Mike looks up from the paper and realizes he's now standing up*
*His friends watch as tears flood down his face*

*Mike folds the paper back up and slips it in his pocket*
*he runs out of the building while everyone watched him*

~It was now pouring rain~

*The others tried chasing him but Lucas stops them*

Lucas: Stop! Just give him some time.

*they all watch as Mike runs off in the pouring rain while sobbing*

*Mike runs out of sight while crying uncontrollably*
*he runs into the woods until he finds Castle Byers*

*he walks inside while shaking and sits down*

*he continues screaming and crying into a pillow Will had in there*

~Mike wasn't only crying because he lost his bestfriend..~

~he was also crying because he felt the same way about Will, but he never got the chance to tell him..~

A/N: I'm so sorry this is so sad IM CRYING AHHH😭💔