ghost of you
03 | goodbyes are bittersweet

calum pov

" i'm sorry for you loss. "

thats all people said to me today.

i hated it. i hated the looks of pity and sympathy that were sent my way. they barely knew you the way i did, they didn't deserve to be there when all they did was fail you when you needed them most.

i stood at the front of the funeral awaiting for your arrival, your coffin was pulled from the hearse by several men. the silence dwelled as they entered the church carrying it to front and gently placing it down. everyone had their heads down, maybe they were showing respect or they knew that once they looked they had to accept the fact that you were never coming back.

the coffin was dark stained cherry and it was perfectly polished with a cushioned and silky lining. It seemed peaceful. It was good to know that at least you were resting in a comfortable place.

mali held my shaky hand the whole time i was on the podium giving your eulogy, we always said if anything happened we would want each other to give an eulogy. i was going to read of the cards i prepared, but i realised that wasn't me.

i tried to kept it together, but when they passed a picture of you to everyone that's when all the memories came flooding back like a tidal wave. all the moments i took for granted came rushing back reminding me that i'll never get to experience that again with you. your face seemed so alive and happy in those memories and i couldn't help but wonder what you looked like under that closed wooden box. i stared blankly at it hoping that a miracle would happen and you'd rise again and come back to the world, come back to me. But nothing happened. no matter much i hoped. you were gone.

today really got me thinking. it's crazy how things can change so fast. i saw you every single day and suddenly, you were gone. when you left, you took a part of me with you, you took pieces of our shared life with you and now i have to live a life that feels incomplete.

i wonder how you're doing up there in heaven, i like to believe that the place is inviting and calm and there's nothing but good in it. i hope heavens treating you good bubs, i really do.

i'll see you soon my love.

authors note
hi so this is a filter chappie that's why it's so short, but imma upload another either today or tomorrow, we'll see. i'd get ready emotionally for the next one if i were y'all !

also thank you for all the support on this book it mean a lot <3 i love y'all so damn much <3

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