Heather's Pov:

Hawk and I went to our room, tommrow was thanksgiving. We were so ready. We didn't know what we were gonna make yet.

Alana started crying so i headed over to her, she calmed down as soon as i entered. I cleaned her diaper and breast feeded her, i sang her a song and she fell asleep peacefully.

"she's so cute," hawk told me when i walked back.

"ik, her eyes are so beautiful too." i said smiling.

"baby, i don't wanna go back anymore." hawk told me.

"i don't want you to go either," i said with a frown, "it i could go back with you i woukd but i have some photo shoots and ads to do here."

i came here for work too. since i blew up on youtube i needed sponsorships and shoots and everything.

"gonna be in pain for the next couple of months." he tells me sadly.

"don't say that, you'll survive. i'll facetime you!" i tell him.

"that isn't the same though, i cant hug or kiss u," he frowns.

"oh come on a few more months. then you can give me all u want," i say smiling.

he grabs me and kisses me a lot. and don't worry, we don't nothing because i just had the baby.

Later on, we sit on a couch i have and put a face mask on him because his face needs one no offense.

"it's cold" he tells me, "i know it was in the fridge," i giggle.

\\\ the next day ///

today is thanksgiving! Alana's first thanksgiving and my first thanksgiving far from home.

We decided on turkey, mash potatos, salad, and apple pie.

Yasmine worked on the turkey while i worked on the rest. Hawk took care of Alana because i was busy in the kitchen.

By 7:30 pm, everything was ready. I got dressed and so did everyone else. Alana wore a little pajama with a turkey on it, she looked so small!

We took a lot of photos, and then ate. thankfully everything was amazingggggg. It was a great thanksgiving. We played games, talked a lot, and got Yasmine to get along with hawk again.

Yasmine went to a party after eating with us, so the house was alone to us.

Hawk put on some music and i danced with him. it was nice. we drank a lot of wine like old couples too.

For a second everything stopped, or at least i thought it did. i was loving life, i had a kid, the guy who i was majorly in love with, loving friends and family, and an easy job. I was doing amazing in school and being my own person and i love it a lot.

"what are you thinking about?" hawk asked

"everything," i tell him and he looks confused.

"i love my life. it's amazing you know?" i tell him and he nods.

" i'm proud of you heather, you've worked your ass off to be where you are." he smiles

And then just like that the next day he has to leave. Another day of crying. Oh how much was i going to miss him. it was like a piece of me was going away.
it was such a sad day.

Even hawk cried, and he never cries at all.

"i'll see you soon ojay baby?" he tells alana, he turns to me, "don't do anything dumb okay? and facetime me when u can. oh and miss me a lot and don't cry? i love u" he says kissing me and hugging me

he wipes my tears with his finger and walks away to his flight.

sigh.

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the next four months we're working non stop. thankfully they all let me have enough time with alana. Hawk and I facetimed everyday but he was getting distant. maybe itbwas just him busy with practice and school.

I hit 9 million on youtube and i was so proud of myself. Alana was growing fast everyday, 7 more months and she will be one year already! how crazy.

i go back home in a month and so does yasmine. we both finished school a year earlier, so we woukd just be at home for most of the time. she was my fashionista. since that's what she studied for. and yes i do pay her.

Today was my day off, so i was scrolling through social media. I found a new account, that had lots of mutuals so i checked it out.

The girls name was Gigi, she had some posts with hawk and my friends. She looked really close to them. Espically hawk.

She had lots of pictures with him. What the fuck.... I looked at her highlights and she has gone out a lot with hawk and they both look very happy.

No one knew we were dating again, so i texted soph.

sophhh 🥇
h: hiii sophhh!!
s: hi heather! imy 💔
h: me too love! how are u?
s: amazing! thank u wbu? how's alana 🥺
h: we're both great ty! i found this account *sends ss* is she witg hawk? :(

s: omg! i'm not sure. she's super annoying though, idk how the group likes her. she's very pick me vibes.

h: oh, you don't like her???
s: oh god no! i can't stand her. i need u to come and fight her for me hehe
h: KMAO SOPH-
s: ikl get that info u want though, he'll be an asshole if he is with her and not you.
h: thank u soph, how r things w/ u n hardin?

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we end up talking a lot, hardin gave her a promise ring!! how cute. Though we didn't find much info on this hirl. she made my blood boil.

i needed the information quick and now. oh if hawks been cheating on him i will personally kill him.