This will be a relatively short chapter. I was inspired to do this after BTS' speech after they won Artist of the Year last night and I was feeling emotional.

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BTS just won Artist of the Year at MAMA. For the third time, actually.

But each time was never easy for Jisoo. Everything didn't feel real. It was like the first time each time.

Jisoo's mind went blank as she thought about their emotional problems as of late.

Just recently, Jisoo's grandfather on her mother's side was diagnosed with cancer. And it tore her and her family up.

No one in the fandom knew this yet. She didn't want anyone to know. She didn't want people to see her cry or weak. And amongst the group all going through their own problems, she felt like a burden.

And everything had gotten so bad for them in the beginning of the year, they thought about disbanding. Which scared Jisoo to the core.

What was she gonna do without them?

She didn't even want to imagine a life without the boys. They were her family. Her extended family.

Which sent her into a mild anxiety attack when the topic was brought up.

But even after all of that, they stayed strong and decided to not quit. Because they were no quitters.

And they didn't want to let the fans down.

When Jin brought it up, all of her emotions rushed and she began to tear up, seeing Taehyung starting to cry really hard.

The pain of the topic still hurt them all deeply. Just thinking about the group breaking up still hurt all of them.

After Jin was done, he handed the trophy to Jisoo.

She reluctantly grabbed it as they guided her to the mic, adjusting it for her.

The fans all started cheering and clapping as soon as she stood, staring at the trophy for a while before looking back at them.

"Um...." she mumbled. "Uh....um....first and foremost, this feeling will never change for me."

The boys all watched her, some still wipping tears away.

"You know, I...." she paused, feeling her eyes water. "If someone told me back when I was 6 years old that i would be up here...facing everyone with this award, living this life and being in this group....I probably would've not believe them."

Jisoo paused again, letting out a breath of air. Which came out shaky.

"Being just a girl from Incheon....ridiculed, shunned and even made fun of for my appearance and the way I was born.....I would not have ever guessed that I would ever....ever be able to stand on this stage and say I'm happy."

The crowd all clapped as she wiped her tears. "All my life, I had to hear everyone tell me that I will never make it. That they will never like a girl with eyes like mine...i have fought glossiphobia, depression, anxiety....only to say now that I'm happy....I finally love myself."

Once again, the crowd all clapped and cheered. Some fans even started crying.

By then, Jisoo started sobbing quietly. Jin placed his arm around her comfortingly as she started crying in her hand.

"And if I can help anyone....even just one person....that were as young as I was....if we could help everyone tonight and in this world learn to love themselves.....it will be the best birthday gift ever."

The cameras showed different reactions to Jisoo's speech.

Most of the idols had meaningful looks while some actually cried a little. Like Chungha, Jihyo, Nancy and even Bambam.

"Because, if it weren't for you, the 7 guys I call my family, and everyone that I've ever met.....I would not be here anymore." She said, tears still falling. "We would not be here. Thank you and remember to love yourself....always."

After that, the boys all circled around her, creating a big group hig as everyone clapped loudly and cheered.

"Thank you!" Namjoon said in the mic before they walked off the stage.

Many fans quoted Jisoo after that and saw her in a new and more mature light now.

It was truly an emotional year for them but at least they can say they had each other to go through it and still come out stronger than ever.