' i think i might have fallen in love, what am i to do? '

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instagram !

therealtoria: happy wilbur recording again

comments . . .

user1: the classic wilby head tilt
↳ therealtoria: oh you don't know how many photos i got of him doing this

user2: couple of cuties
↳ wilbursoot: agree
↳ karljacobs: agree
↳ user3: wilbursoot oh?-
↳ tommyinnit: strongly disagree
↳ therealtoria: shut it bitch boy
↳ tommyinnit: sorry mother just gotta speak the truth sometimes

wilbursoot: i see you only kept the bad photos of me
↳ therealtoria: hey i could've kept worse, plus all the photos of you were good, my photography skills made them good ofc
↳ user3: AWWHDHDHSHF

in real life !

'user2: couple of cuties
↳wilbursoot: agree'

i stared at wilbur's reply in utter shock. does he mean that in a friend way? obviously. but it certainly could've meant more. i'd been wracking my brain the past week trying to figure out my feelings for this boy. i've tried to ignore them but they kept getting stronger. but he was my best friend, it could never be anything more. right?

i had to forget any possibility of a relationship with him because he does and only will think of me as his best friend. although there had been times in the recent past that showed indications of any romantic chemistry between us, it had only fed my hope more, which is just going to lead to a larger inevitable heartbreak.

this love stuff is so incredibly confusing. i've only been in one other relationship and even then i didn't have as strong feelings for that boy as i do for wilbur. it's a new type of feeling. it's warm and comforting. the butterflies don't make me feel like anxiety has taken over my stomach anymore. but this time, makes me feel overly joyful, like everything is complete. every cute action he does makes my heart flutter, like butterflies.

i was miserable. miserably in love.

as i was mindlessly gazing around the room i was sat in, something caught my eye. my guitar. it had been a while since i'd picked it up to play it as umotivation washed over me months back. i never had the interest to actually ever play it again, but something attracted me to it today. i swiftly lifted it off the wall and sat on the couch in my recording room. i checked the tuning of the strings and at first, i only half-wittedly strummed random chords but after a while, my mind wondered to actually creating a song of my own.

' i think i might have fallen in love '

' silly me to fall in love with you '

' what am i to do? '

lyrics kept spilling out of me, all about the situation between me and wilbur, they wouldn't stop. grabbing my phone and pressing the notes app, i wrote down all the lyrics i already had and tried creating an actual song with them. with many failed attempts, the small phrases slowly started forming into something.

i finished the last line of my song and had one last run through of it before i decided to turn on my pc to stream. i was quite proud of the song i had just produced and thought some people could relate. i clicked onto twitch and very hesitantly started the stream.

no one's pov !

"hey chat! welcome back to the stream, and new comers hello! today is only going to be pretty quick because i'm not actually playing anything! i wrote a song and thought i'd show you guys, hopefully you guys enjoy and i hope some of you can relate," the girl rambled on. she was excited yet uncomfortably anxious about showing her twitch fans the song but there was no turning back now.

"this song is kind of about the fear and confusion of being in love. you don't really know what to do because the feeling is new and you don't know how to deal with it. i explained it really badly but i'm just going to sing it," she nervously giggled, quietly hoping wilbur will never see this stream.

little did she know the boy was witnessing everything from the other side of the screen.

she went silent and picked up her guitar, strumming it once to make sure it sounded loud and clear enough for her fans to hear.

' i don't want it
and i don't want to want you
but in my dreams i seem to be more honest
and i must admit you've been in quite a few '

her best friend sat in his room, quietly watching her stream in complete awe. his eyes were glued to the screen. he was infatuated with her angelic voice and her ability to piece this incredible song together.

' halley's comet
comes around more than i do
but you're all it takes for me to break a promise
silly me to fall in love with you '

she fell in love? he thought. sadness and curiosity controlled his mind. he wondered who she could have fallen in love with. he kept his eyes on her the whole time, secretly wishing he could've been the guy she so beautifully sung about.

' I haven't slept since sunday
midnight for me is 3am for you
but my sleepless nights are better
with you than nights could ever be alone
i was good at feeling nothing now im hopeless
what a drag to love you like i do '

this was definitely one of tori's songs. wilbur knew tori was never the type to fall in love. in the whole four years that he'd known her, she never fell in love once. anyone would be fortunate to have her fall in love with them, because then you know you're someone undeniably special.

' i've been loved before but right now in this moment
i feel more and more like i was made for you
for you '

wilbur thought that was one of the prettiest lines she composed. he felt blue when he heard it though, because he believed the pair were made for each other, but this song proved him wrong.

' i'm sitting in my recording room
haven't slept in a week or two, or two
i think i might have fallen in love
what am i to do? '

tori was most proud of the last two lines because it really portrayed how she was feeling at the time. as she strummed her final chord, she started looking at the chat which was mainly filled with heart emotes and 'POG' messages. the girl giggled at her fans and watched more comments roll in. her viewer count was surprisingly high, i guess they liked my singing then, she thought.

at this point most of the dream smp was watching her stream as she unknowingly made conversation with her chat. they all witnessed her singing and we're all wondering the same thing, who could she be singing about? obviously some of them had a faint idea but they never confirmed their thoughts.

"well i'm going to end the stream here, thank you guys so much for tuning in and watching me sing. the viewer count was really high! let me know if you want me to sing more because i definitely enjoyed this, bye guys!" she waved to her fans, smiling and ended her stream.

as soon as it ended she got a facetime call.

wilbur soot.

oh.

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a u t h o r ' s n o t e

song : halley's comet - billie eilish

hey guys! i really like this chapter ngl. btw i am aware billie wrote that song, the songs ill be using will be written as tori's in the story. i hope you enjoyed this now i need sleep bc its 2:30am lmfao. thank you sm for reading this book!! <3