A:n- hello to all! This part is purely based on Kaiser POV.

Either way thank you all please continue to read.

Warning: Blood, Self harm (I guess). Kaiser.

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"You loved me so I engraved it on me. Is it because It disappeared? Is it because I let it disappeared?"

--Michael Kaiser---
(Will Michael be his first name?)

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It hurts...

As my hand was on my stomach, I couldn't breathe the pain... Everything feel painful.

'Why? Why?' My thoughts were a jumble mess. My eyes glance around in the dark room.

'It hurts... Someone please... Save me..'

"やあ、大丈夫か" (hey, are you alright?) A voice I heard alarming me as I look around but saw none.

"Huh?" I was confuse I didn't know who was speaking to me have I really lost my mind?

"Who are you?" I speak out as there was silence. I mist really have lost my mind.

After a while I went to my room to lay down I heard the same voice but this time they were speaking to me...

"I... Do not know if you understand probably... But are... You alright?" The voice was uncertainty. It wasn't fluent.

"Yeah..." I mutter out, "who are you? Why are you inside my head?"

"I? Well I am not in your head but... Communicating."

"Huh?"

"I'm... From far away country... But somehow fate seems to make you connected with meh"

"Fate?"

"Yes"

I didn't know the voice who he was. I do know he was a boy. He talk to me every night or sometimes in morning.

It brings me a sense of closeness... His words were gentle and he became quiet fluent in my language.

We talk for hours sometimes even in school inside my head I talk. He was the only one who knows my past and everything.

"Have you heard about soulmate string?"

The story of soulmate string make my heart quickens.

'Is it possible he and I are... Soulmate?' I thought to myself in joy.

I couldn't communicate with him unless he does to me.

He reach out to me whenever he hear my cries.

He always wish me happy birthday. He make me feel wanted...

He always help me in my homework too. And sometimes I hear him complain about school.

"Man... I just want to play soccer why does it have to rain"

"Soccer?"

"Yeah"

From that day I realise he love soccer it make me curious...

I ended up collecting money for it.

"What's your name?" I ask as it went silent as if he doesn't want to tell me his name.

I wonder why. Before I say my name he refuses and told me when one day we meet we will say each other name.

I was too naive, didn't realise... He never truly wanted me.

He never truly care for me...

It was not my fault... He didn't talk to me... I hated him. I told him that. And from that day...

I cried the day I heard no reply from him when I reach ten. It was like he stopped. Stopped caring for me.

I started to hate him despise him even to leave me like that. Depend on him like that. It was a mistake for me to say I hate for ignoring me... But now I truly do.

The string around my neck was a symbol of it. It was black unlike red. I heard from others... He broke it off? Did he?

I don't understand... It appear when I was thirteen... Taunting me of my past.

When I was choked, I could only only think to run to escape from them.

Maybe maybe... Is that why I heard your voice one last time that day?

"愛している (love you)"

You were saying it to me... I don't understand what you meant that's the word I need to find out.

"Ai shite iru" (that how it will sound like so) I quickly ran away but I knew I have to write it down somewhere somehow to remember his word.

So I grab the shard of glass that was shattered my hand tremble but I have no where to write it. The ball in my hand but I know I can't write it because it is a hard surface the glass shard will break and I will lose my chance of writing it down.

It was his last message for me... Only for me.

Somewhere... Somewhere where I can always... Somewhere someone can translate it for me one day...

For now...

So without a second thought the glass shard pierce on my arm. I held back my tears as I write it down. The blood drip from my hand yet I didn't care. The pain was too much but I can't let it be forget.

I wash it off from the water sink as my arm tremble the blood drip down from my arm as my breath was frantic.

I let out a soft laugh seeing the word.

I succeeded on keeping his last word.

We lost contact when I was 10 now I am 13

He sent me the last message.

I lost my conscious that day and my life change.

I frantically unwrapped the bandage the moment I woke up not caring where I was. As I sigh in relief.

The word still stay on my arm.

I knew it won't stay too long on my arm after some months.

I ask the man who help me about the word.

And one day he did before the word disappear from my arm.

"Love you. It is Japanese word" he said as I could feel myself breath. For first time I finally smile to myself.

He loved me... He loved me... Then why did he stop talking to me?

I did not understand.

Until you came around... Ryouzen.

Ryouzen...

"Hmm? Are they the ones we are going to train with?" His silver grey eyes stare at me with his arm on one of his member shoulder.

"Yes"

"Hmm?" His eyes boredly stare at me. But I wasn't staring at him I was staring at the string on his ring finger. I knew he was the one... Right? No maybe not.

He hold my chin as I winch by the sudden electricity felt on me.

As I could hear his word in my mind.

'Hmm he remind me of someone' and I knew you were him. The person I was talking to. My soulmate. My everything.

Before I utter another word you left with your team.

I have to be patient I have to during the training.

There I met someone... Around my age.

He seems intruide by soulmate string. He knew a lot so I ask him a lot. He mention it was magic of fate.

He really loved magic.

But... Ryouzen was different.

He wasn't the soft spoken boy who lulled me to sleep and talk to me for hours since I was 6.

He... He was rude. Cocky. And doesn't really care.

I didn't understand. His words and tone it was mocking.

He... He didn't love me...?

No... He just doesn't realise its me.

So I just have to tell him.

It was in the evening after practice as I cornered him.

He was older then me wasn't he since he played way earlier... And seems taller. (No y/n is younger then you. Your 19 a bout to be 20, y/n is 18 on present timeline of blue lock.)

"You remember me don't you?"

"Huh?"

"It's me... We talk when I was 6 in my head you always talk about school and all"

Ryouzen stare at me with widen eyes as his gaze around quickly.

I cornered him. He was so close to me.

The locker was enough for us. You were sat down while I make myself comfortable on top of you.

You struggle to move but I won't let you.

"Kaiser this is not funny. Get off me."

"I can't this place is too tight you know..."

"..."

"Besides it... gave us time to talk"

"Why did you bring me here just for me to suffer?"

"No... I don't want that... Ness helped me to get you here... Besides the locker is lock you can't run until we talk."

"If you want to talk we can communicate freely not like this"

"I know... But you always found excuse to leave I have to do this..."

My hands roamed around his face to his neck to his chest as keeping me steady on him.

I lean close to his face as I could feel his warm.

"I always wanted this... To be close to you... You always have been there for me"

"Well of course. Now get off me you price tag"

"Ryouzen..." I ignore his words as I lean closed yet he kept a hand on my mouth.

I lick it alarming him who quickly take his hand back.

"I love you... Why did you leave me? Why did you stop talking to me?"

"Because you are not really my soulmate"

"Huh?"

"You were a mistake."

"...I am not... I am not... I am not a mistake."

"Which is why Fate of string divert to someone else"

"...I don't understand... It doesn't matter"

"...!?!"

"Love me love me. You said you love me. So love me." I said as I hold his hand on to my chest.

"Can't you hear I love you too? You love me. That word the last time you said it to me"

"Huh?"

"You loved me so I engraved it on me. Is it because It disappeared? Is it because I let it disappeared?"

His eyes widen as he stare at me. He shook his head yet I steadily hold his hand letting him hold the small blade.

Using my hand on his finger firmly so he won't drop it. I let it pierce it on my arm.

"Ah... Agh!" I hold back my tears as I use my force.

Before it write down a word you push me of you as you cornered me.

"What the hell are you thinkin! I am not letting you do this!"

"You care for me don't you? Right?" I said while my arms wrapped around your neck the blood dripped down from my arm but I didn't care.

I kissed you before you could shout for help. "Please make this pain go away" I mutter pressing your face on my neck.

"Kaiser are you out of your mind! let go! you are wounded! Anyone can you hear me he-!"

"Please... Please... Make it for me mark me all over me... I will write everywhere on my skin if you don't" I said as my tone went serious on the last word which he froze. From corner of his eyes he could see the small blade near my arm that is wrapped around his neck.

"You are not... Serious are you? That's pathetic even for you."

"I don't care do it... If you do it I will let you go... You do realise I am dying the more you speak the more blood I will lose and if... You ask for help... I will do it..."

"..." He went quiet staring at me, I knew I was out of my mind. I wouldn't really end myself but... I have to force you don't I? To make you realise... It.

I let out a shuttering breath as I felt your lips on my neck.

"Lower... As much as I want people to see... It will cost both of us our reputation right?" I mutter as he adjust my shirt as I moan by the contact of his lips on my shoulder.

"Ryou-Ryouzen~" I moaned his name as I could feel him suck on my skin as one hand hold onto the back of his shirt.

"Just like this... "

"..."

"Ah~ you are doing it so well~" I moan out more yet I felt his hand on my mouth. Tears fall from my eyes as I tilt my head to side for him to mark me more.

"Ah! There just there! please continue ah!~" my breath hitch as you suck it more.

My fingers clawed onto your back as my eyes rolled back. I knew I came just from your bite on my shoulder.

The piercing teeth of yours at one end sharp make me moan out more when the small potion of blood fall from my shoulder.

I was in panting mess but I don't care I just want to feel you more. Make sure you will love me physically too.. Not only mentally.

My eyes stare at you, my cheeks feel warm as my lips parted.

"Ryou-Ryouzen... Please... More..."

I let myself calm down as I hug him I feel myself tremble from the after shock and I could feel myself sticky on my pants.

"I love you too... A lot"

"..."

"...[ 私も愛しているよ]Watashi mo itoshite iru yo" (I love you too)" I said it out as his eyes widen a bit. His handkerchief on my shoulder that some how bleeded by your teeth.

I didn't care as long as I am with you...I finally found you.

But...

"I don't love you"

"...huh?"

"I don't love you, Kaiser" he said to me as I stare at him. He gotta be joking right?

"Don't make such a joke... Ryouzen..." I said as he stare at me. With calmer look for first time... You weren't looking at me like I am some sort of an eye shore nor mockingly. But instead there was softness in your words.

I couldn't believe it.

I couldn't.

Because why would you say that... That you don't love me?

You told me... It was pathetic to force myself on you... You try to explain it to me .

"Is it because I... Am not good enough?"

"No. I don't really like the string of fate itself."

"..."

He didn't love me...

I watch him leave at the end of the program. My arm bandage as Ness was worriedly talking to me but I couldn't hear him.

No... He hate me... He hate me because I am not good enough. He told me himself... I have to get better in soccer. To prove myself.

To prove my love, My God that I am the best... He choose me. He will choose me again.

'I am your chosen. God choosen Emperor. I will be. And your soulmate. You have to... Choose me again.'

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A:n- that's all take care good night/morning to all that's all.

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Bʟᴜᴇ ʟᴏᴄᴋ ᴀᴅᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ ᴛɪᴍᴇ

*well that was something I guess

*y/n have the tendency to just froze for few seconds when he is shock.

*y/n swore Kaiser scared him and wonder where did that innocent baby left.

*you mostly think Kaiser as your friend and so did Kaiser as kid.

*you don't know why he is obsessed.

*you were now dealing with two obsessed with soulmate string guys. Excluding Ness who is at least have common sense you hope he doesn't change (he will).

*Y/n often get stuck in awkward situation whenever he is alone.

*y/n words were meant for the other person not to him.

*Kaiser was trilled by the fact whenever he met you.

*during y/n disappearance in two years things escalate to far worse I would say.

*Kaiser is in denial.

*Ness was so worried when he saw Kaiser bloody arm. Who explain it was an accident and Ryouzen help him which Ness knows it wasn't the case.

*Ness really intruide on soulmate string as he mention it as magical.

*y/n was taken a back when Kaiser mention he Pierce his hand onto the word you say which you don't recall ever telling him that.

*did you know? Y/n learn German just to talk to Kaiser. You often end up hearing his cries so you try to learn his words.

*you end up not sleeping sometimes. As time difference.

*y/n age is not known for other who assume it around 20 or 22. While in reality its 18.

*Kaiser and all who played against you or is term on the teams... Think you are around 20 now. Which is not the case.

*I guess you can he is apart of the new generation world IX.

*did you know? Y/n get around fifty chocolates on Valentine days and even ask out by some guys too.

*meanwhile as Ryouzen y/n often get expensive chocolates, Before he quit. On Valentine day he ends up getting a lot of chocolate which he sold it off the next day mention he doesn't have enough pocket money left. During his stay in France.

*Either way. Which position shall y/n play? Some gave position like.

Midfielder.

Striker.

So... Either way that's all. Take care.