A:ɴ- Hello! This is mostly focuses on Itsoshi siblings. things are alittle complicated. Slight ooc? I don't know this whole fanfic is a little ooc I guess.

Double update wooho!!

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"𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶?"

----𝘐𝘵𝘰𝘴𝘩𝘪 𝘚𝘢𝘦--

"𝘐... 𝘏𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦?"

---𝘐𝘵𝘰𝘴𝘩𝘪 𝘙𝘪𝘯.---

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When he first hear the words of his mother he was intruide and pray to get a soulmate... More likely prayed for his elder brother to get the soulmate. Both Itoshi was curious. And the tale their mother said make them wish more on it. Especially for Sae. Who kinda want one.

"Rin, If I get my soulmate will... you want to meet them?"

Rin nod happily when Sae asked that.

"Yes nii-san! I want to meet them! Will they be friend with me?"

As Sae softly smile and ruffle his hair.

"Your drooling again. Excited huh?"

Rin nod enthusiastically.

He just knows his brother will get a soulmate something no one haves and his brother is so good at everything fate have to choose him. Right?

'Please God above please give my brother a caring Soulmate who will love him and make me happy!' Rin words were innocent in his mind when he closes his eyes too when his elder brother close his eyes for their 10 birthday.

'Fate... I wish to get a soulmate... String someway...' Sae thought to himself as he recall all the movies his mother cooed about and the things he found in online about soulmates.

Someone who will love him for who he is and wait for him. Care for him. Understand him. And perhaps someone who will bring that joy he is searching for?

After all... Sae was a lonely child before everything. Before he was pronounced prodigy. Before everything. He wishes to have one, he heard of soulmate since 6. And... When he heard from his mom truly he knows he will get one...

His eyes quickly flick to his fingers to see nothing on it.

A visible frown was present as father put down his camera for a bit yet encouraged to cut the cake.

"Nii-san?"

Rin was upset. Why didn't fate choose him? He want to see the red string. But... But... Why does it not glow on Sae hand the string? Why?

Rin doesn't get it. He notices the shift of Sae eyes. The glow and excitement was gone but a dull gaze to his fingers as if he was broken by the truth.

"Nii-san" he utter louder for his brother to hear who blink out of his trance and glance at his younger brother. He close his eyes and smile.

"Maybe... we don't have a soulmate". Sae tone was confirming that both of them won't be chosen after all if fate ever going to choose from this family... It is obvious he was the clear... Option. Even his parents admit. Even his younger brother admit.

Everything... Have been revolt around Sae so much that... If Sae can't do it. Rin assume he won't get it either.

The mother just brush it off though it was clear for Sae. His mother was disappointed that he wasn't chosen. Or so it seems while his mother was eventually worried for Sae as she recall Sae eyes glowing in excitedment just a moment ago while seated to cut the cake waiting for the clock to strike 12. Perhaps the mother was the problem.

To bring the soulmate string and make her son obsessed with strings of fate. It was a silly thought of her like how every mother in world wishes for the best of their children to find someone who will love them and who will it be better then the soulmate?

While, Sae take deep breath in looking at the clock, it was already 12:09 it was pointless...

And... At the same time fate is pointless. He can concentrate on his soccer career, he doesn't need it. Love or anything that can bring him comfort... Those... Those movies were fake... Of course string of soulmate doesnt exist.

'Of course it doesn't exist just a false tale.' Sae thought to himself with a huff, until his mother utter those words that he, himself stare at his mother in shock as he process the words.

"Maybe... Rin will get a soulmate."

"Huh?"

"M-me? But I-" Rin fiddle with his shirt as the father take Rin with him to take plates from kitchen noticing a little tense atmosphere.

"Okaa-san" Sae stare at his mother whose gaze fall on him as his mother was just saying as she doesn't really was not upset. Maybe she wanted the best of her children but the way Sae frown was present let her gulp down her words what he utter the next.

"Don't give false hope to something that cannot happen"

Her son was not the same. It was as if it will tear him apart if she said that. She realise... Perhaps she had put too much of this string fantasy to her children to the point... That the disappointment of the other... Can created such an odd expressions.

"Sae... It is not false hope but just-"

"Rin won't have it. Since I didn't have it. So... Don't ever utter about soulmate again."

Without another word Sae left to where his father is who is happily feeding Rin some sweets, almost flinch thinking it was the mother.

"Ah Sae you scared us. Right the plates Rin help me with the plate"

"Yes papa"

Sae didn't want to cut the cake.

He stare at the cake blindly, With a sigh he cut the cake while watch the strawberry split to two.

'Soulmate string tale is fake.'

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"Nii-san!"

"Okay okay, you are too excited Rin"

As the father quickly come to his wife as the photo click.

"Come on Wish something." Said Mother as it was Rin 9th birthday.

Rin nod happily as Sae smile softly watching his brother been happily giddy as mother wipe away his drool.

"Niisan! Help me blow candle"

"Ah.? It's your birthday cake."

"Please niisan!"

Sae sighed get approach his brother to blow the candle as Rin close his eyes for a moment then glance at his brother who nod.

"Pfhuuu" as they both blow the candle. And the light went off.

"Huh?" As Rin hold his brother arm quickly before Sae reassure Rin his eyes notice the red string around his brother wrist.

As the light was back on as his mother squeal while, Rin admire the beautiful red string around his left wrist.

"Niisan! Look! It's so beautiful!"

"..." Sae just stare at his brother who is happily cooed by his parents. For the first time he got attention proudly by his father and mother.

Something he never thought he will achieve as he did achieve something his brother never had.

As Sae hand clench into fist. His bite his inner lips making it bleed, the metallic taste on his tongue could be taste but he doesn't really care.

He couldn't breath, he couldn't blink. On his eyes were just on the red string that seems to be tugging out of the window as if leading his brother to his faith.

His breath was irregular as he quickly leave to bathroom

"Niisan?"

"Ah he must have went to toilet" father dismissed it by clicking the picture of the string. As the mother cooed about his soulmate been 10 so probably he is a year younger then them.

Rin eyes seems to sparkle staring at the string. It bring some sort of comfort. He wonder if you will be his friend? Will you judge him if he drool, when he is excited or been careless and get injure will you be worried?

Which his mother nod along, telling how his soulmate understand him.

Fueling the fire that spark within that innocent eyes.

Unlike Sae, Rin never hope for a soulmate. If his brother doesn't have, he won't ever get one. Perhaps but fate choose him.

And he was so happy over the fact he achieve something that his brother never achieve.

And never would.

While, Sae was vomiting out with all this feeling that seems to make his head spin.

"Why why... Why..." He mutter as his lips bleed from him biting his inner lips hard enough to stop him from shouting.

"Why not me? Why? Why?" He mutter as tears fall from his eyes as he vomited again on the toilet.

He couldn't breath, he stare at his reflection as he stood by the stool.

His eyes were teary, a broken look unlike his nonchalant look or the way his eyes soften for his family. No. It was more of like questioning everything.

The blood trail down from his lips to his chin.

'Why why? Why?' That rang on his head as it was getting difficulty to breath as if the whole world is mocking him. Or he lost everything.

He couldn't breath, he want answer.

Why?

Why not him?

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why is it Rin?

There was knock as his mother concern voice was heard.

"I am coming out... Just a moment mom" he said out without his voice crack.

He splash water on his face trying to control his emotion.

'He got his soulmate so what. It doesn't matter soulmate only bring hindrance...' He reassure his mind as he walk out of the bathroom.

His eyes flick to Rin who is happily eating his cake while the visible string of red hung on his wrist.

Which he wish and dream to get.

By all this all the book which he reassure it was fake torn to ashes when it really became a reality.

'I did not wish this...' He thought to self as the birthday party continue with the family.

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He cried as he cried when he fall.

"Come on don't be a crybaby, Rin"

As Sae sigh and approach his brother to console but Rin tears seems to quiet down. As a visible blush was present on his face.

"Rin?"

"Niisan! I felt a kiss on my cheek!"

"Huh?"

"And a pat!"

"...huh?"

Sae stood there trying to understand the feeling Rin was getting as he told him how he felt when he watch his brother win that feeling of warmness when he hug his family.

That feeling of comfort he was feeling.

He stay there listening.

"And Niisan, I even kiss my string I wonder how they feel mama told to do that"

"...I see" Sae smile softly as Rin eyes twinkle happily.

From that day on Rin felt a stroke on his head or a kiss on hiss cheek when he is sad.

Consoling him.

He was happier, beside even if the other just ignore him or label him as His brother, brother it doesn't matter.

He is happy. Happier eventually that there is someone who like him not because of his brother.

He wish to meet you.

But same cannot be said to Sae. Who is just watching his brother tell about his soulmate.

"Your soulmate really Love you, Rin"

Rin smiles widen as Sae stare at his mother. It was obvious of her joy. After all she preferred Rin. That's what Sae thought up to convey his anger of his mother promising he will be the one to get the soulmate string.

And that time when Rin string glows as it flow to his hand as if touching him as the string flow to his face making Rin laugh at the softness.

Something on Sae snapped when Rin mutter those word.

"Niisan! My soulmate always kiss me when I am down! I don't even get bullied after they find out I got a soulmate." Which was true. People start admiring and take care of those who had soulmate string and some even try to purpose them. Knowing they are... Perfect pair. Wouldn't it be good to get one of the perfect pair?

"They are the sweetest friend."

It click on his mind. As he bite his inner cheek.

'A friend? That's all he think? Soulmate is not a friend.!?!'

"Rin"

"Yeah Niisan?"

"Do you think your soulmate is only a friend?"

"Yeah?" Rin was too innocent to understand love. As his brother conveyed to him more of a friend way soulmate story tale making Rin believe soulmate is more of an best friend.

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"Dad"

"Hmm?"

"Can... soulmate string be broken?"

"Huh?"

"You have research about it don't you? Please... Tell me I want to know"

His father was confuse by his son request but he agreed as his son is leaving in just some weeks to Spain.

"Yes... it can be broken"

"How?"

"If the soulmate hate them"

"...how specially?"

"Well... I don't know" the father said recalling how the string broke of his old friend in his school day. He felt the need not to say.

"Ah... I see thanks dad." His father should have keep down the newspaper instead of continued to read. Perhaps if he did... He would see his son eerie smile.

"Where's Rin?"

"He went to shopping with mom, he will be back soon with her."

"Dad."

"Yeah?"

"Will the soulmate be rebound?"

"Hmm... Well if the one who break it... They won't get it another but who got broken... I think yeah"

"Yeah?"

"Yeah. They can choose someone I... suppose"

"Someone... Huh"
Sae just nod and left without a word.

He knows it is wrong. It is. It will hurt his brother. But the thought of his brother having something he so desire. He can't. He can't do it. And the possibility were higher.

If... If... No he shouldn't think that.

He shouldn't, he won't think he is happy for his brother.
And he doesn't know how one can break the string.

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"Ah!! Haha!!" Rin cried out as I Stare at the string on his wrist turn black.

"How?" I mutter confuse yet somehow curious.

"A soulmate string can be broken... If you hate your soulmate"

"Huh? But I... I-" Rin shook his head as he didn't felt anything like that.

"Do you hate your soulmate, Rin?" The mother ask worriedky as Rin shook his hesd, his eyes flick to his brother but his breath hitch when his brother utter the next word.

"You hate them... Don't you?" Sae head tilt a bit as if it is a confirming tone as Rin stare at his brother with daze look as if he is letting it sink in.

"I... Hate my soulmate?" He mutter. 'If niisan say it... I do hate my soulmate?' He thought to self as his breathing slow down.

As Rin lost consciousness as Mother explain it is due to exhaustion as Sae watch his brother who is sleeping beside him with tears continue to flow down from his eyes to his pillow.

Sae stare at it.

It hurt him watching his brother. But... But a small part of him was happy that he doesn't have to watch his brother have something... Something he wanted most.

He was the selfish brother.

Very... Selfish one.

But truly it wasn't his fault for his brother lose his soulmate.

It was not truly his fault.

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Rin shook awake from his futon that is apart from the rest of team as he take deep yet short breathes. His eyes flick to his wrist as he stare it, his fingers trace to his wrist.

'Niisan... You liar.'

His thought recall ever bit of the time it was red. When he grew he understood he never hate them... He never did. He bring his wrist to his lips where the string is, a kiss to another. As if it is a routine hopping it will be return by them... one day.

He wishes it would go back to red. He won't admit it... But.. But he wishes it the most.

The most.

And he was hurt the most.

He will make sure to be the best striker teaching his brother his outlook surpass his brother... Then maybe... Maybe his soulmate will love him again?

It was a lie. His brother. Right. Right? He won't try... Will he?

He recall the time his brother came from Spain.

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Sae eyes flick to Rin eyes then to his wrist.

"Seems like... it is still death"

"..." His lips tremble staring at his brother. He doesn't really blame his brother and he blame himself more. Why why he utter those word?

He never really hate them.

"Niisan?"

As Sae hold his wrist. His hold tightens when he struggle. A fear flick on Rin eyes as Sae thumb traces the black string suppose to be. Though Sae cannot seeit he somehow know it is around there.

His lips press on the his wrist more likely his wrist.

"Niisan what are you-?"

"Ne, Rin" his brother lips part from his wrist as he bore down on his down form. His eyes cold yet something was brimming in it like a intoxicated fire. That wlhe realise and recognise. The excitement. When Sae. Wishes to get a soulmate string.

The day. He wish before the candle.

"Niisan?" Rin stare at his brother who tilt his head slightly to side.

"Since you have no reason to be a soccer player... Why don't you give me your soulmate?"

"...huh?"

He push away Rin wrist who sat there with wide