"felix! oh felix, you called back!"

"i said i would."

"i wasn't sure if you were being honest. i was so certain that you would leave me hanging."

"look i've done my part in calling back; what did you need to say?"

"so much, oh i have so much to say, i'm not sure how to phrase it all."

"you're gonna have to try, changbin... i haven't got all day."

"right, yes... well first off, i'm sorry."

"you're sorry?"

"so incredibly sorry. if i could take it all back, i would in a heartbeat- hell, i would take it back quicker than that."

"ok."

"what i said was out of line, what i did was unforgivable. i never should've been so aggressive with everyone like that; should never have been so harsh on you, for not being ready to talk to me, someone you hadn't known for that long, about your trauma... about what my brother did to you."

"you're right."

"i am..?"

"yeah, you never should have done the things that you did. in saying that, i accept your apology-"

"really?! oh lix-"

"let me finish- i accept your apology, but i do not forgive you."

"...oh."

"you have to understand, changbin, that the hurt you gave me, i-"

"i understand."

"do you?"

"i do... some of the things that i did were probably worse than what my brother did- probably brought back so much trauma that you really, really, didn't need to be reminded of."

"you do understand."

"of course. if things were reversed, i wouldn't forgive you- not that, you would do the things i did. you're a good person, felix, you're not me or my brother."

"...i'm glad we've cleared things up then."

"me too... can i uh- can i call you again? not-not if you're not ready or don't want to, i understand but... its been nice to hear your voice again, i uh missed it."

"changbin i- i have to go."

"oh, r-right, see you-"

before changbin could finish his sentence, felix ended the call.

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sorry its so short after so long, ive been in my brain,,, my apology comes in form of a new book, its a minsung text story called wrong number
feel free to check it out :)