"Oh hell" I said as I woke up with my head throbbing, at which I grabbed my head. I was sleeping at the couch today, which didn't help at all.

"Jesus, you look like you're dying" Joe said as he walked past me to the bathroom.

As he said that I just rolled my eyes and slowly got up to make myself a tea.

"Hey" Kit said as he was making himself a tea.

"Hey. Where's the tea bags?" I said looking around, and in the cabinets too.

"Woah, you look like you're barely standing on your feet" he said.

"That's because I am barely standing" I said, still looking around.

"You can go rest, I can make the tea" he said, pulling out my cup.

"Are you sure?" I frowned and leaned on the sink in the kitchen.

"Of course Fay" he said, already preparing the tea.

I giggled a bit. "Fay?"

He just looked at me with confused smile on his face. "What?"

"Nobody ever called me that, I never heard it"

"Sorry, I didn't know -" he tried to say, but I cut him off.

"I like it" I smiled at him, at which he smiled back.

"Faith seriously, go to bed"

"Okay." I said with smile on my face, rolling my eyes once again. "Thank you"

⍟

"I can't believe you convinced us that you're good going with us to set today" Kit said.

Right now, I'm at the set with them as every other day, but Kit made sure that he would check on me.. a lot.

"I'm good though, It's just a little headache, I feel better than I was in the morning" I wanted to reassure him, so he wouldn't worry too much.

"You promise?" he said as he gave me serious look.

"I promise" I said all confident.

"I will still bring you tea, just to make sure. Okay?" he said standing up from the chair, where he was sitting for the past few minutes.

I nodded. "Thank you"

I wasn't worried of him getting yelled at again by Alice this time, since they were shooting some scenes without him, and he had a break for half an hour.

As I was sitting here alone, I was drowning in my own thoughts. Does he see me just as a friend? Or does he feel like I feel? These questions were going in my head non-stop last days, but I'm too scared to talk to him about it. I don't want to ruin what we have now.

"Hey Faith" Dan said as he came up to my chair, with someone by his side. As I looked up, I thought I'm hallucinating. What the hell was he doing here?

"I thought I'll introduce you to my friend, but seems like you two already know each other" Dan said as he scratched back. Looks like he could feel the awkwardness for both of us.

"Hey Faith" Richard said as he came up to me with big smile on his face.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, obviously mad as hell.

"Paying you a little visit, of course" he said.

"Dan, you should seriously just show him the exit" I said looking at him, at which he just nodded.

"Yeah of course, he won't bother you, don't worry. Come on buddy" he said as he gently took him by his shoulder, wanting to go somewhere else.

"I thought we would talk a bit more. I feel disappointed" he said in his traditional ironic tone.

[4 years ago]

"You're so disappointing, Palmer" he said out of nerves. We never really fought. We didn't fight at all in this whole relationship. Until last month.

"You could finally stop calling me that. You know I hate it" I said as I picked up my bag, wanting to leave the house. I didn't know where it's worse. If here or home.

"Like I care"

"Why are you even mad in the first place? Like I'm trying, okay?" I said calmly. I wanted this to work out. It needed to work out.

"You should try harder then"

"Richard, for fuck's sake" I sigh. "Could you give effort in this for once?"

"Don't overreact it, you know I am giving effort"

"But you're giving more to Amber, aren't you?" I said as I turned my whole body to him.

"What are you on about?" he tried to act confused.

Since I was already tired from the arguing, I didn't want to argue more.

"Nothing, forget it" I said, opening the door. "See you later" and I left the house.

For a couple of minutes I was just walking around the neighborhood. It was dark outside, but I needed to clear my head.

Our houses weren't far away from each other at all, so when I got home and figured out I forgot my keys, I immediately returned to his house. Just to pick my keys.

I knocked on the door once. Twice. I was here just minutes ago. Is he not opening because of the argument?

After two or three minutes, he finally opened the door.

"I just forgot my keys. Can I go and take them?" I said.

"I will look for them for you" he said, leaving the door opened, running in thr other direction from where I left the keys.

I decided to just go and take them. As I did, I closed the doors behind me. Right away, I saw another pair of shoes in the hallway. I frowned a little.

"Richard? Is someone over?" I yelled in the direction where he went. Nothing.

I came to the living room and picked my keys up from the table, as I saw Richard coming down the stairs from the corner of my eye.

"Rich, I have the keys, so I'm going" I said still looking down, putting the keys in my bag.

He kept being quiet, so I looked up.

"Amber" I said almost in a whisper. She was wearing his hoodie, along with shorts.

"..aren't you supposed to be home?" she said as she froze on the spot.

"What the fuck?" I said still quietly, shocked as hell. Well, not that shocked now. Of course I know what's going on here.
"Amber, how long is this going on?"

"I don't know what you're-"

"Cut the bullshit" I said interrupting her.

"A few weeks?" she said unsurely, still standing at the stairs.

"Few weeks" I breath out, trying not to let my emotions control me right now.

In perfect timing, Richard decided to enter the room. Amber was still at the stairs, and I was standing by the table.

He looked at both of us, without any words at all.

"We're breaking up" I said after a while of silence.

"You know what? I'm glad. Amber is prettier anyway. I don't know why I dated you in the first place" he said, standing there. He was happy we broke up. He wanted to be with her.

"Just know that I gave you all I could, and you gave me only pain" I said looking him dead in the eyes, then turned to Amber.
"He's yours now, you two are an awesome match"

And as I said that, I left the apartment. I felt completely terrible, not even talking about the emotions that flew through my body.

I thought he was the one at the time, yet I was wrong. And I'm so glad I was.

[Present]

"There's nothing to talk about here" I said looking at him. Idiotic, that's what he is.

"Maybe we could forget about the past?" he smiled a bit.

"No" I said smiling at him ironically.

"Faith, c'mon. It happened ages ago" he looked at me.

"So what? It still happened" I said calmly while my head was throbbing more and more.

"Bro, we should go" Dan tried to tell Richard, but he was too stubborn to listen to him.

"What's happening here?" Kit said as he returned with the tea in his hand.

"Thank you" I said as he handed the tea to me. He smiled at me and sat beside me.

Richard just looked at Kit, and then looked at me. "See you later, Palmer"

That hurt more than anything, and he knew that.

"Wait, is that your -" Kit wanted to ask, referring to the name, at which I just quickly nodded.

"What is that shithead trying?" he frowned at him from a distance.

"Just leave it Kit, but thank you" I put my head on his shoulder for comfort.   "Is this okay?"

"Of course. Do you want to talk about it?" Kit asked.

To be honest, I didn't really want to at the moment, but I still wanted him to know.

"His name is Richard. We dated like 4 years ago, before I moved in with Joe. He cheated on me. I have no idea what he wants or where did he come from" I said with my head still on his shoulder.

"I'm so sorry to hear that. Are you okay?" he asked as he was gently caressing my head.

"Yeah I just.. didn't really need to be reminded of his existence"

"If there was anything on your mind, I want you to know I'm here Fay"

"Goes both ways. Thank you Kit" I smiled as I looked him in the eyes.

"Of course" he smiled.
"I need to be on set in a few minutes, and I still need to change. Will you be okay if I leave?" he asked quietly.

"Don't worry" I smiled at him again.

"Okay, but if something happenes, just come to us" he said as he stood up.

"Yes, and Alice will kick my ass" I said sarcastically.

"Faith" he looked at me with a serious face.

"If anything happens, I would let you know, I promise. Now go, or she will hate me for you being late again" I said quickly.

"Okay" Kit said softly, adding a soft smile. "See you Fay"

That dumbass.