this.

was.

so.

scary.

at first i thought it was a joke.

but i didn't realise

how serious

they actually were

until i was sitting outside

jyp's small office

waiting for the results.

we all passed the audition.

but some of us struggled

individualy.

mainly me, jeongin, minho, woojin

and felix.

this is where it got scary,

we were being put on tv.

to test

how well we'd work

to debut as 9.

but it goes without saying,

9 or none.

chan has a lot of experience

in the idol field.

but we all knew

how tough the idol life was.

schedules, maybe even touring

and practice.

and not all of us

are old

and responsible

but

we have to go through this.

as a team.

a team of 9.

but soon.

one was gone.

minho was eliminated.

he was gone.

we couldn't do anything.

we couldn't bring him back.

we could only let go

and move on.

but before we knew it

felix left.

the mood maker,

disappeared just like

minho.

it was now 7.

chan was restless.

jisung couldn't stop practicing.

me and jeongin still

had to catch up on school.

seungmin and woojin improving

their vocals.

changbin practicing rapping quickly.

yet all of us prayed for one thing.

we wished for ot9 back.

we wished to be back to our

usual selves.

to fight for what used to be

a nine membered team.

to a seven membered group

of growing boys

who might be going crazy

knowing the costs

is they took the next steps

to their futures.