I told Lida that I had to visit my sick father and she was more than happy to give me the time off. I told her I only needed a few days and she told me to take as long as I needed.

I exited the ship and walked onto the dusty grounds of Geonosis. I hated it here, it was such an ugly planet. I nervously walked into the base and approached Count Dooku who was in the middle of speaking with some separatists whose names I never bothered to remember.

He turned when he heard me and motioned for the people in the room to leave. He gave me a cold stare and without a word he sent shocks of electricity through my body and I crumbled down to the floor screaming in pain.

He stopped for a brief moment, "Much conflict I sense in you." He electrified me again and this time it was more painful as my screams echoed through the halls, I'm sure the entire planet heard me.

He finally let go after what felt like minutes.

I'm on the floor panting and I feel too weak to form any words to respond.

"I said 'Make him fall in love with you'" He sneered, "NOT the other way around." He shocked me again but this time only for a few seconds before he let go and I fell to the floor not able to hold myself up anymore.

Then I felt the force lift me up against the wall and I was being held a foot off the floor by my throat. I was struggling for air and I could feel my throat being gripped tight. He let go and I crashed down and leaned against the wall as I gasped for air.

He walked over to me and knelt down in-front of me. He used his hand to lift my chin up to meet his gaze. "I don't enjoy this but you need to learn that everything you were feeling for him was wrong," His grip tightened on my jaw and I flinched as it started to hurt. "Do you think he'll love you once he realizes who you are? He would kill you." He snarled, "I'm trying to protect you little one." He referred to me by the nickname he gave me when I was just a child.

I found truth in his words.

I remembered Anakin's anger when we bombed the medic station. He would have killed me if he knew I was the reason behind it. What I was starting to feel for Anakin was slowly fading away as I realized I was never someone who could achieve happiness, not after everything I've done. This dark place was the only home I would have.

"Forgive me." Was all I could say and it sounded hoarse and weak. He grunted in response and dropped his hand down.

"Before I send you back, I have an assignment for you. Something to remind you of who you are." He stood up and walked over to a table and grabbed a few documents. "There's a small village on Alderaan that has been aiding clones in the war, I need you to go to that village and kill everyone to send a message." He growled.

I slowly stood up as my strength was coming back to me. "Consider it done master." I responded.

A smile appeared on his face, "I've sent the coordinates to your ship, go now." He demanded and I turned to make my way through the exit. "And (y/n) when I say everyone I mean EVERYONE, no survivors." He added and I froze for a moment knowing exactly what was being expected of me. "Is that understood?" He questioned.

"Understood." I responded without looking at him and continued on my way to the ship.

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(Funeral March by 2WEI: So a lot of the times when I write I get my inspirations from music and I imagine the scenarios happening while listening to a specific song, so I thought I could start sharing that music with you and you can listen to them as well if you'd like(: )

I pulled my hood over my head as I slowly walked into the village. It was built within giant cement walls that were shaped like a rectangle with only one tall cement gate for an exit.

I had many stop and stare at me with confused expressions and I watched children playing together as they ran past me, completely oblivious to the danger they were in. I felt pain for what I was about to do but I pushed the feeling aside. This is who I am, I tried convincing myself.

A man approached me and he held his head high, "What is your business here?" From his attire I could tell he was the mayor of this village. I stared at him for a brief moment with an expressionless face before lifting my hand and using the force to seal the giant gate.

"A Jedi?" He questioned.

I ignited my red sabers and his eyes widened and I could sense his fear, "I am no Jedi." I respond menacingly in a voice I didn't recognize. I slashed my weapons forward killing him instantly and the crowd erupted into screams of terror. Women started to pick up their children and run to safety as I made my way through the crowd.

With every person I killed I felt it take a toll on me, I could feel the dark side raging inside of me like it was coursing through my veins. I lost myself in the massacre and everything started to pass by in a blur like I was no longer in control of my movements as I felt the hate, the anger, and the pain. I allowed these emotions to consume me.

I stopped for a brief moment and noticed my reflection in a window, my eyes glowing yellow with a ring of red. I barely recognized myself. I quickly looked away, not being able to stand the sight of myself.

I continued on my rampage and the screaming eventually came to a stop. I looked around me and saw countless bodies on the floor of men, women, and children.

I walked around the village listening for sounds of anyone that might be hiding from me. Just when I was about to leave I heard the voice of a woman speaking quietly. I followed the sound to the inside of a hut and she spun around looking at me with terror in her eyes. "Please don't hurt me." She cried.

Ignoring what she said I looked behind her and saw a republic transmission unit, "Calling for help?" I questioned with a devilish smirk.

"Hello are you still there?" I heard a voice over the transmission. That voice, it was Anakin's.

She quickly turned to the radio to try and talk back to him, "Help she's he-" I used the force to choke her and I could here her struggling to breathe and I know he could hear her too. I squeezed my hand closed and heard a crack as her neck snapped and she fell to the floor with a thud. I put my sabers back on my belt and exited the hut to return to my ship before Anakin and Obi-Wan showed up.

Anakin s POV
"Help she's he-" The woman stopped speaking and I could here her choking and gasping for air. Then a cracking sound which I could only assume that was the snap of her neck. Then the transmission went dead.

I gripped the chair in-front of me tightly as the anger was become unbearable. The woman told me someone was slaughtering her village. It was Darth Izdaja, I've never met her, I've only heard stories of the things she has done, the clones she tortured and killed. When I do get my chance, I am going to rid the galaxy of her and Count Dooku.

"Obi-Wan prepare for hyperspace, we're going to Geonosis." I tell my former master before sitting in the pilot seat.

"Geonosis? The distress signal came from Alderaan." He objected.

"They're all dead Obi-Wan. There's nothing we can do now and Darth Izdaja isn't going to be there when we get there, but I have intel that Dooku has made a base on Geonosis." I flipped a few switches in front of me setting up the coordinates for hyperspace to take us to Geonosis. "I'm positive they're both going to be there." I plead to him to have faith in me.

Obi-Wan strokes his beard before he nods at me indicating that he's trusting my judgement.

I pulled the lever that took us into hyperspace and I leaned back in my seat. I started to think of (y/n) and how beautiful she looked in the garden. I was almost about to kiss her but of course Obi-Wan came to ruin it. My heart fluttered at the idea of seeing her again. Once this mission is over, she's the first person I'm going to see.

(y/n) POV
I was back on Geonosis and Dooku was praising me for what I had just done. I felt numb and all I could see in my mind were the hundreds of bodies scattered everywhere. I knew the image was going to be in my nightmares.

"Go wash up little one." Dooku put a hand on my shoulder, "Then you may rest."

(Come to This by Natalie Taylor🎶)
I nodded without saying a word and walked to the room that was assigned to me. I entered the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror staring at myself for what felt like hours. My eyes were back to their normal (y/e/c). I felt so much pain for what I had done.

This is what he wanted. He wanted me to feel this way, he knew I'd never forgive myself for killing children. I've been on the dark side my whole life but I've never done anything close to what I just did. He wanted me to feel this self-loathing.

"Ahhhhh!!" I screamed and shattered the mirror with the force. I hated my own reflection, I hated myself. I dropped to the floor and for the first time since I was a child, I cried.

Anakin's POV
"Anakin we're approaching the base now." Obi-Wan informs me and I prepare to make a landing. They're here, I can feel them.

(y/n) POV
I felt something.

Anakin.

I stood up from the bathroom floor and wiped my face before walking to where I last left Dooku. "It appears we have company." He snarled and he walked over to a cabinet and and pulled out an object. He walked back over to me. "This will hide your identity." He placed a mask in my hand that would cover my entire face. (I went with something like this picture here but you can obviously imagine it anyway you would like.)

I put it on just as I heard the sound of lightsabers cutting down the battle droids.

The doors were pulled open by Obi-Wan and Anakin using the force together.

"Dooku." Obi-Wan glared at him and his eyes looked at me momentarily before going back to the person he wanted the most. "It seems you have your pet with you."

Dooku didn't respond. Instead he looked at me and nodded which is his signal for telling me to go down and fight them.

I glanced over to Anakin and his eyes were set on me. I felt a sharp pain in my chest as I remembered Dookus words: Do you think he'll love you once he realizes who you are?

I walked forward till I was only a few feet away from them before reluctantly grabbing my lightsabers and igniting them.

Anakin growled in response, "I've been waiting for this moment Darth Izdaja."

I took a deep breathe and prepared myself for what was about to happen.

They both charged at me.