I heard Anakin leave the room and I pressed my back against the door and slid down till I reached the floor. I hugged me knees and kept my head down, trying hard not to cry. It hurt to hurt him but this was what had to happen, Dooku warned me to keep my distance from him. He wasn't too fond of the "falling in love" plan anymore, he no longer trusted me because he knew I was being pulled to the light because of it.

I kept it in my mind that Anakin nor the Jedi would never accept me for the things I've done. I've murdered their troops, their friends on Alderaan, and I've been lying to their faces for weeks now.

I sighed and sat back up, my stomach began to growl. I hadn't eaten since the meal I was given in my cell. I cleaned my face up but not before placing a towel over the mirror to hide my reflection.

I made my way into the mess hall and grabbed a tray of food, I found and empty table and went there in hopes of being left alone.

"Hello there." A familiar spoke up and broke the silence that was surrounding me and I looked up to meet the eyes of Obi-Wan Kenobi. "Can I sit here?"

No.

"Sure." I responded with the best smile I could fake. Flashes of Dooku throwing him against a wall went through my mind. He almost died that day and I was partially responsible, he would lock me away if he got the chance. I would never be placed in a cell again, I'd rather die.

"You're (y/n) right, I'm Obi-Wan Kenobi but please call me Obi-Wan." He sat across from me and stared at me with his kind eyes. "Anakin speaks very highly of you."

I shifted my gaze down to the food in front of me that was already half eaten, "That's nice of him."

"Are you alright?" He questioned me and his eyes held a look of concern. I'm still very weak and I've been using all my strength to hide my force signature but I haven't been very good with hiding my emotions.

"Yeah it's just my father," I lied, sort of, "He hasn't been feeling very well so I'm just worried."

"I'm so sorry to hear that," He reached over and placed a hand on mine, "I'm sure he will make it through." I did my best not to recoil from his touch. I wasn't used to being comforted, Dooku used to tell me to get over, to stop being weak.

But Obi-Wan was being so nice, what I would have given to have been here raised by the temple instead of Dooku. I would have had a chance at happiness, to have something normal. "Thank you Obi-Wan." I gave him a small smile that was slightly real.

He nodded and moved his hand away. He started to tell me of a story about him and Anakin on Cato Neimoidia and I felt myself give him a genuine laugh and for a moment I forgot who I was and why I was here.

"(y/n)! I see you're feeling better." Lida came over with her tray and sat next to me and she was soon followed by Anakin who sat next to Obi-Wan, empty-handed. I did my best to avoid eye contact with him.

"Yes Lida. I'm sorry about earlier I was stressed." I apologized and she put a hand up.

"No need for apologies, you must have had a rough week and I shouldn't have crowded you."

You have no idea.

I glanced up to see that Anakin's eyes were fixed on me and he looked a little sad before looking away towards a woman who was now approaching our table.

"Padmé!" Lida squealed and she stood up to hug the beautiful woman.

"Hello Lida," she responded courteously, "Anakin, Obi-Wan," she nodded to them as a form of greeting before her eyes landed on me "and I'm sorry but I don't know who you are, I'm Padmé." She reached a hand out for to shake and I did.

"I'm (y/n)." I greeted her back. Padme.. I've heard that name before, if I remember correctly she is the senator of Naboo.

"Nice to meet you," she gave me a warm smile before turning her eyes back to the rest of the group. "I've come to give you all an invitation to my birthday party!" She exclaimed, "I will be hosting it at the Coruscant Ballroom, it's tomorrow!"

"Tomorrow?" Anakin grunted, "You couldn't have given more notice Padmé?"

She rolled her eyes playfully, "It's the only time I could book the ballroom before I go see my family on Naboo." So I was right she is the senator from Naboo.

"Of course we'll come!" Lida turned to me, "You will come right (y/n)?" I shifted my eyes nervously between her and Padmé.

"I-I don't know," I finally responded, "I'm not much of a party person and I wouldn't have anything wear." I've never even been to a party and the only clothes I had were pretty raggedy, nothing close to being party material.

"Borrow something from me." Padmé offered, "I have more clothes than I can handle and we look around the same size, I'm sure I have something for you." Her eyes beamed at me and I could tell she was excited by the thought of dressing me up like a doll.

What would Dooku think about me being at a party? If he found out he would make sure there was something for me to do to sabotage it and I couldn't.

"Thank you but-." I began before Padmé cut me off.

"No buts, be at my house a couple hours before the party and I will find something for you that's perfect!" She exclaimed excitedly. "I'll also do your makeup!"

I sighed knowing there was no way I was getting out of this, "okay fine I'll be there." I just won't tell Dooku about it and it should be okay. Hopefully.

"Perfect! And you two." She turned to face Obi-Wan and Anakin. Anakin looked away from me and to Padmé, was he watching me the entire time? "You also have no choice, so I'll see you there!" She turned to walk away before they could object to her. Her dress flowed behind her as she walked out of the hall.

"Well I guess it's a good thing we don't have any missions at the moment," Obi-Wan stood up and faced Anakin, "Come on friend, let's go find you a tux."

Anakin wrinkled his face in disgust at the idea of wearing a tux, "I'll just wear this." He responded gesturing to his robes.

"Do you want Padmé to kill you?" Obi-Wan chucked and Anakin grunted in response but stood up to follow his old master. "We'll see you later ladies." Obi-Wan bowed to us and we said our goodbyes.

Anakin took one last look at me before disappearing around a corner. I could hear Lida talking to me about the party and I tuned her out. I was caught up in my own mind. I don't even know how to dance, what if I make a fool myself, I'll just pop in for a few minutes and disappear hoping no one would notice I was gone.

If Dooku found out about this and I didn't tell him he would be livid. I've only been back a few hours and I've managed to defy him once and I plan to defy him again. I really was asking for torture.

"Is that okay (y/n)?"

I snapped my head up to Lida. "Hmm?" I questioned showing that I wasn't listening to her. She chuckled in response.

"Thinking of Skywalker?" She questioned and I felt my eyes go wide.

"What? no." I responded a little too quickly.

"Right." She smiled, "I was asking if you wanted to meet in the lobby and we could walk to Padmé's tomorrow?"

"Oh yes that's fine Lida." I smiled back and we stood up to take our trays to the trash.

"So is there something between you and Skywalker?" She asked with a hint of glee in her eyes.

I shook my head, "No, what makes you think that?"

"It's just the way he looks at you and he would not stop asking for you while you were gone." She rolled her eyes but gave a little laugh, "It felt like every hour he would be asking me if I'd heard from you I started to get a little annoyed with him."

I felt my chest tighten at what she was saying. He really missed me and when he finally found me I practically threw him out of the room. I quietly sighed to myself,  I must have really hurt his feelings, but his attachment to me needs to be broken. It's for the best. "We're just friends." I finally told her and she looked at me with a look that says she didn't believe me.

"If you say so (y/n)." She smirked.

We walked together down the hallway and said our goodbyes as I went into the elevator to go to my room. I was debating on doing rounds today but I wasn't up for it. I'm sure they would understand. Everyone knew I was gone for 'family emergency'.

I walked into my room and a small droid was on my bed. I furrowed my brows in confusion and walked up to it, it was still powered down there was a note next to it."

This is BD-1.
He's yours now.
So you'll never be alone.
Love Anakin
(For those of you who haven't played Jedi Fallen Order, this is BD-1!)

I felt tears start to swell in my eyes. I didn't deserve this, why would he give this to me out of all people.

I pressed the button on the bottom and BD-1 came to life, he jumped to the floor and made a few beeping sounds before turning to look up at me.

He was cutest droid I have ever seen. I couldn't help but smile at him and he started to shake with excitement and I let out a small laugh. "Come here BD-1." I motioned  for him to hop on the bed and he did. "I'm (y/n)."

"Beep-Beep-Boop." He responded excitingly before jumping and spinning in a circle and landing back on the bed.

I chuckled, "I guess I'm going to have to learn to speak droid." I felt an emotion I was unfamiliar with. I felt tears come to my eyes but not out of sadness, but because I was happy. I've never had something of my own before besides my lightsabers but this was different. BD-1 would be a companion and I could already tell he has one heck of a personality.

I remember back to when I first met Anakin and he was working on him and he told me he hadn't decided who he was going to give this droid to.

But now it was mine and a part of me was telling me to give the droid back, afraid of what Dooku would do,but as I look at BD-1 now.. I didn't want to. I already felt a connection with him. I knew with BD-1 I really wouldn't be alone.

I started to lay on my bed and BD-1 hopped up on the pillow and sat next to my face. I felt the stress that my body endured during the week take a toll on me and I was suddenly exhausted both emotionally and physically.

I turned my head to face BD-1 who was curled up next to me.

I closed my eyes, "Goodnight BD-1."

I heard a couple beeps before I fell unconscious.

(a/n.  Another slow chapter haha but the next one is gonna be the party and I'm so excited for it and it's gonna be cute I promise!! I fell in love with BD-1 playing Jedi fallen order so I knew I had to write him in here somewhere and I'm so glad I did he's gonna be one hell of a trouble maker and a beacon of hope for (y/n) maybe she'll finally turn fully to the light WINK WINK. Okay no more spoilers HAPPY HOLIDAYS♥️) Also if anyone knows how to add gifs into the chapter please message me and let me know cause I can not seem to figure it out 😭